At the End of That Memory
Chapter 26: Raison d’etre (6)
Common unique traits are managed during the cycle by taking suppressants. For recessive traits, commercially available suppressants were sufficient, while for dominant traits, it was important to take appropriate suppressants prescribed by a doctor.
Sometimes, there are people who don’t take suppressants, but most of them are either already married or have a partner with whom they can satisfy their desires. I was neither the former nor the latter, but since suppressants didn’t work for me, my only option was to take a leave of absence.
The cycle’s recurrence period varied according to the trait’s dominance: the more dominant, the more frequent; the more recessive, the rarer.
In that sense, as a dominant omega, I experienced a heat cycle every single month. When that happened, I had to hide in my room and silently endure until the raging desire subsided. I endlessly waited, bearing each moment, until the storm finally passed.
Even while enduring the heat cycle, I couldn’t even imagine meeting someone. I never once thought about meeting an alpha or resolving the desire accumulated inside me.
“...Why don’t you find someone to meet?”
Once, Mr. Kim seriously suggested that. It was uncharacteristically meddlesome of him, a single sentence that slipped out after much hesitation and restraint. I wondered how frustrated I must have seemed to prompt that thought.
“Are you saying I should date?”
“...”
He didn’t confirm it, probably because his intention wasn’t about “dating.” And because he knew that as the head of headquarters, I had no time to meet anyone.
“I don’t have the luxury for that yet.”
That excuse carried many meanings. Both time and emotion were vaguely insufficient, so there was no better way to put it. Even offering oneself to someone required both physical and mental capacity.
Of course, even if it was merely a sex partner rather than a romantic relationship.
“Meeting an alpha isn’t easy.”
To properly go through a heat cycle, merely having a relationship wasn’t enough. Pheromones had to be emitted and exchanged, and all conditions for reproduction had to be met. Although it was a bestial process, the partner absolutely had to be an “alpha.”
“There’s no one who wouldn’t get rumors in the first place...”
However, most unique traits were held by major players, each occupying a place. Those born with genes superior to betas had held the reins for a long time. As expected in a society where wealth and property were inherited, their traits also continued to be passed down.
It was no different from the outdated aristocratic culture, but there was no way to break the cycle. Naturally, no ❀ Nоvеlігht ❀ (Don’t copy, read here) matter who I met from any company, rumors would inevitably spread within the industry.
“You know what your father would say.”
Since unique traits were only inherited among themselves, betas’ opportunities dwindled. That was why my father picked me up as an omega. In a society where marriage and childbirth were mere means, the traits of alpha and omega carried great merit. It was why I couldn’t bring myself to resent the omega trait I was born with, even if I wasn’t thankful for it.
“...I’m sorry.”
Eventually, Mr. Kim apologized with a guilty face. Knowing that he spoke out of concern, I still couldn’t tell him it was okay. Even well-intentioned words offering impossible solutions were reckless.
“Hng, uhk...”
So this was the first time I went through the heat cycle fully driven by instinct. Since the pheromone shower Kwon Yido gave me, I had never experienced such a satisfying time. In the end, I was so full of his cum that I didn’t even feel like pushing him away.
“Ah... Kwon Yido, hng...”
There was no possibility of pregnancy. Kwon Yido hadn’t knotted me until the very last moment. What’s more, midway through, he even performed actions that weren’t necessary with his own hands.
“Hng, ah...”
It was either three or four times—shortly after he ejaculated inside me. Since I had come countless times, there was nothing left to release. He pulled his deeply inserted cock out, then without much effort, flipped me over on the bed.
“...Haa.”
Despite the position change, I couldn’t even move a finger. So I went limp, but he wrapped his arm around my waist and lifted my hips. It was a deeply humiliating posture, but the truly humiliating thing happened next.
“...Ah, wait, hng!”
Not his cock, but something else entered the still-open hole. Unlike when he first loosened me, he pushed two fingers in at once. Then, bending each joint, he began gently scraping the cum that filled me.
“Why, hngk... hff...”
“Stay still.”
My lower abdomen twitched. I could feel the cum flowing down my thigh as it slipped out. Even without him stirring, there was already so much it naturally leaked out.
“Hng, no...”
Clutching the blanket, I crawled forward like a worm. Of course, before I could take a step, he grabbed my ankle and yanked me back. Holding me close as I collapsed helplessly, he pressed his lips a couple of times near my shoulder blades.
“You’re so full inside, I thought your belly might burst, Jung Sejin.”
“Ahh, hng...”
“And yet you still don’t like it?”
It was ridiculous. I’d never heard of an omega whose belly had burst from being so full of cum. I shook my head to say “Don’t lie,” but Kwon Yido even pressed down on my belly with his other hand.
“...Hng.”
He spread my hole left and right like scissors. I tried tightening my stomach to close it, but the more I did, the more leaked out. Kwon Yido never let go, leisurely watching the scene.
“...That’s a shame. Jung Sejin, you’ll never see this.”
His smacking comment made me blush with shame. I thought I might as well show him peeing, it was less embarrassing.
“Stop... hng, please, please stop...”
He only withdrew his fingers when I desperately pleaded. I didn’t know if it was because of my begging or because he had removed everything inside. I only heard his laughter, as if saying “Good job,” while stroking my belly.
“Why do you hate only this part so much...”
His large hand spread my ass cheeks apart. Rubbing the tip of his cock on my cleft, he prepared to insert again. Then, without warning, he plunged his cock all the way to the root.
“...Ahhng!”
It didn’t hurt. The hole, already stretched, accepted the thick cock easily at once. Enjoying my briefly tightened inner walls, Kwon Yido wrapped me from behind and started moving his hips.
“Hng, ah, slow, slow...”
“How much longer... hng, how much slower, huh?”
The space full of cum was now filled with his cock. Originally both had been full, so this was better. Kwon Yido didn’t pull out, pressing hard on the spot I felt.
“Hng, I... hng... I think I’m... ahh...”
I lost count how many times I felt that ejaculation sensation. It was almost strange to see clear fluid dripping from his softening cock. He didn’t show mercy and leisurely thrust the cock he’d slowly withdrawn back inside the sensitive spot.
“...Hng...”
It felt like he covered me from head to toe. I couldn’t tell if he came or not, only a tingling pleasure so intense that the hairs on my head stood on end rushed through me.
“Haa, haa...”
I buried my face in the pillow, breathing weakly. I felt like I couldn’t breathe well and stuck out my tongue like a dog. The problem was that Kwon Yido’s hand gently gripped his now-softening cock.
“...Ah, uh! Wait, ah... hng!”
My fully sensitive cock was roughly squeezed in his hand. He rubbed the soaked glans and softly kneaded the supple shaft. The stimulation was so intense it made the fine hairs on my skin stand on end, and an unfamiliar urge to urinate rushed over me.
“No, no, no...”
I felt like I had to run away. Though I thought peeing would be less embarrassing, I didn’t want to embarrass myself in front of him. I didn’t want to add that to the mess of fluids already all over the bed.
“Hff, please, ah, hng...!”
I grabbed his wrist desperately, but he didn’t care and kept moving his hand. His strength was such that he firmly held my limp body with one arm. Then, leaning forward, he rubbed his pelvis against mine and whispered in my ear.
“Shh...”
“...!”
My lower abdomen tensed tightly. A pleasure different from ejaculation poured through me like a whip. As the overwhelming urge to urinate overflowed, the cock in his hand began to drip a clear liquid.
“...Hng.”
Once it started coming out, there was no way to hold it back. It wasn’t cum or urine, but something that soaked his hand and dripped onto the bed. As I twitched thinly in convulsions, Kwon Yido’s characteristic low voice reached me.
“Good job.”
“...”
My nape felt hot. Holding back a moan with my head bent low, Kwon Yido held me tightly and bit at my shoulders and shoulder blades. Like a beast grinding its teeth, he rubbed his lips over every exposed part of my skin.
“You’re not cursing me, huh?”
“...”
Honestly, I’d have been lying if I said no curse words came out. The thought that he was a pervert rose to my chin, but the following words drained all my will.
“I kind of expected it. If it’s you, Jung Sejin, I thought you might deserve some curses.”
What in the world was he saying in that refined tone? I didn’t expect gentle sex, but I never imagined he’d be this blatant. I replied with colored noises without even enough energy to laugh bitterly.
“...That’s not my taste.”
“Yeah, we have plenty of time.”
“What the... hng...”
The brief rest ended because he moved again. He pinched the nipple he’d been tormenting my whole body with. If he kept going, it would hurt from rubbing against my clothes. Just as I thought that, he suddenly lifted my upper body.
“Don’t think about anything else.”
“I’m goin— hng!”
Before I could even try to explain, he thrust hard. Holding me up from collapsing, he bent my knees and hugged me from behind. With one big hand covering my lower abdomen, he grabbed my chin with the other and kissed me.
“Uhn...”
Each time he thrust deeply, my belly pushed outward. Pressing down with his palm seemed to stimulate my inner walls more. Breathing was difficult enough, but once he started mixing tongues, I quickly became dazed.
My reason flew away lighter than a thin sheet of paper. Responding to the pheromones he gave me, my own pheromones flowed out in waves. Not satisfied with just stirring below, he swallowed all the saliva I drooled.
That continued until late into the night. Every time I came back to consciousness, the darkness changed, so the sex was so wild it made time vanish in chunks. If I hadn’t fallen asleep from exhaustion, I wondered if it would have gone on until dawn.
“Sejin.”
Just before losing consciousness, somewhere between dream and reality, I heard someone calling me. Warm, soft things wrapped around me and carefully wiped my whole body as if handling something precious. Between kisses, I was surrounded by familiar warmth and pheromones, and I felt my body lift off the bed.
Should I call it feeling loved? I thought maybe this was the kind of comfort I’d always imagined. So I sank deeper into the warmth that held me and clung tightly to something, as if determined not to let go of anything.
When I opened my eyes, the surroundings had brightened completely. Since the last thing I saw had been pitch-black, a full day must have passed and morning had come. Even though I hadn’t taken a sleeping pill, I woke refreshed without any nightmares recently.
“...”
As my consciousness slowly returned, I recognized the situation piece by piece. The soft blanket touching my skin, the faint but familiar room scenery. The bed, which had been a mess of bodily fluids, was strangely dry. Slowly blinking, my clearer vision finally started to work.
Before long, I realized this was Kwon Yido’s room. The pheromones permeating my body were the heavy, sensual type unique to him. Not the kind that excited me yesterday, but a gentle satisfaction spreading even with lingering sleepiness.
Was that why I had slept so deeply? The dull muscle pain faded as a comforting sensation replaced it. I always felt like dying and coming back when my heat cycle ended, but today I felt relaxed like someone who had slept peacefully.
I slowly turned my gaze elsewhere. Lying on my side, I could see the whole room. It resembled my room, but was arranged more quietly. The low-saturation interior gave off an atmosphere that perfectly matched Kwon Yido.
Surprisingly, he was sitting on the edge of the bed where I’d fallen asleep. He was fully ready for work, his hair neatly styled, dressed in a perfectly fitted suit. One leg crossed, his wrist adorned with a silver metal watch as he read documents.
I didn’t know what time it was, but he looked impeccably put together. After such a wild day, his flawless appearance felt almost guilt-inducing. His face, seen from the side, was elegant and dignified unlike yesterday.
Suddenly, a pang of regret struck me. I should have touched his smooth, straight nose just once. While he touched every part of me, I should have touched places like his lips. 𝘧𝑟𝑒𝑒𝘸𝘦𝘣𝑛𝑜𝘷𝑒𝓁.𝘤𝘰𝓂
“Kwon Yido.” I wanted to say his name, but my gaze drifted to the bedside table. A small table with a lamp held things that felt somehow familiar.
“...”
It was a novel I’d kept on my bookshelf. The first book I read in order after moving in here. A novel I thoroughly enjoyed, losing track of time as it matched my tastes perfectly.
The fact that a book from my room was in Kwon Yido’s room wasn’t an issue. After all, it was his property, so him taking it didn’t concern me. But what was problematic was something hidden with that book when he took it out.
Taking a deep breath, I turned my eyes back to the documents he was reading. Just then, he turned his head and let out a quiet sigh when he saw me awake.
“Ah.”
“...”
My fingertips felt cold. My vision went dark, and my lips stiffened, ready to speak excuses. The documents he held were a thick bundle of papers, creased and marked. In one corner, the Seonho Group mark was clearly stamped in English.
“You’re awake?”
Kwon Yido was reading the documents I had stolen from his room.