I'm Not Your Husband, You Evil Dragon!
Chapter 175: The Weight of Unworthy
In that single, terrible heartbeat, Yuuta knew.
He had fucked up.
The realization came not as a thought but as a physical sensation, ice flooding his veins, his stomach dropping, his heart stuttering in his chest.
The weight of Isvarn’s aura pressed down on him like the ocean pressing down on a drowning man, and he could not move. Could not breathe. Could not do anything except sit there, pinned to the floor, waiting for the ancient dragon to decide his fate.
"You pathetic, weak human." Isvarn’s voice was soft, almost conversational, which made it infinitely worse. "How dare you call her name?"
Yuuta’s body trembled.
He could not stop it. His hands shook against the floorboards. His knees knocked together. His jaw quivered so violently that his teeth chattered. The fear was not something he could control or hide, it was a primal response, deeper than thought, older than language.
Isvarn looked down at him, and his violet eyes held no anger. That was the worst part. There was no fury, no heat, no passion. Only cold disappointment. The disappointment of a being who had expected nothing from a human and was still let down.
"You cannot even withstand my aura," Isvarn continued, each word dropping like a stone into still water. "And yet you think you are equal enough to speak her name... or stand beside my queen?"
Yuuta tried to respond, but nothing came out. His throat felt locked. His body refused to obey him. All he could do was tremble under the weight of the pressure pressing down on him, like the very air had turned into chains.
"I am disgusted," Isvarn said coldly, his gaze sharp and unyielding. "To think the Queen of Atlantis, who rules over billions of lives, would choose someone like you as her mate."
The words struck deeper than any physical wound. Yuuta heard every syllable clearly.
"Such an unworthy mate," Isvarn said.
The words struck harder than the aura. Unworthy. The echo of it rang through Yuuta’s skull, bouncing off the walls of his mind, repeating itself in a language that felt like truth.
Unworthy.
Unworthy.
Unworthy.
His face darkened. The fear that had paralyzed him began to shift into something else, something colder, heavier. Reality finally hit him, and the impact was devastating.
It was true.
Everything Isvarn said was true.
He was weak.
Pathetic.
Useless.
He could not move while the dragon’s aura crushed him. He could not fight back. He could not even speak. What kind of man could not stand up for himself? What kind of father could not protect his daughter? What kind of husband could not look his wife’s grandfather in the eye without trembling?
Tears formed in his eyes, not from pain, not from fear, but from the brutal clarity of seeing himself the way Isvarn saw him.
Maybe they are all right, he thought. Maybe I should stop dreaming of a family life with her. Maybe I should accept that I am not worthy of Erza.
The thought settled into his chest like a stone, cold and heavy, dragging him down into darkness.
Then the memories came.
Not the sealed memories, those remained locked away, hidden behind the golden wheel. These were his memories. The ones he had made with Erza. The life they had built together, brick by fragile brick, in this small apartment on a world that did not understand what it held.
Her eating his food. Her cold, sharp expression softening for just a moment as she tasted something she liked.
Her walking beside him through the mall, drawing stares from everyone who passed, unaware that the silver-haired woman was the most dangerous being in existence.
Her sitting in the passenger seat of his car during long journeys, complaining about his driving while her hand found his on the gear shift.
The zoo.
The animals.
The way she had pretended not to be interested but had stopped at every enclosure, her violet eyes wide with a childlike wonder she would never admit to.
The cooking. The laughter. The quiet moments after Elena had gone to sleep, when they sat together on the couch, not speaking, not touching, simply existing in the same space.
All of it. Every moment. Every memory.
He wiped his tears.
The motion was small, almost insignificant, the back of his hand dragging across his cheek, smearing moisture across his skin. But it was a choice. A decision. A refusal to drown.
He looked at Isvarn.
Straight at him. Not at the floor. Not at the walls. Not at the chicken bones scattered across the kitchen floor. His red eyes, crimson, blood-dark, burning with something that had not been there moments ago, met the dragon’s violet gaze.
Isvarn felt the gaze.
For one heartbeat, one breath, one suspended moment, he forgot that he was looking at a human. He forgot that the creature before him was weak, fragile, mortal. The weight of Yuuta’s stare pressed against him like something ancient, something that should not exist in the body of a failed experiment from a laboratory of human cruelty.
For a moment, Isvarn thought he was looking at a Celestial being.
His aura surged, not intentionally, but in response to the threat his instincts had suddenly decided was real. The pressure in the kitchen intensified. Dishes rattled in the cabinets. The window panes groaned. The very air seemed to thicken, becoming difficult to breathe, difficult to see through, difficult to exist within.
Yet Yuuta did not waver.
His body screamed at him to stop. His muscles, crushed by the weight of dragon power, protested every movement. His veins stood out against his neck, his face, his hands, dark lines against pale skin, evidence of a body pushed beyond its limits.
His eyes glowed red, the same terrible crimson that had appeared in the arena, the same light that had frozen the Dreadvex Ape’s fists in mid-air.
He tried to stand.
His legs trembled.
His hands, braced against the doorframe, shook so violently that the wood creaked beneath his palms. It was like standing at the bottom of the ocean, trying to push upward against the weight of the sea. His organs felt like they were being crushed. His lungs burned. His heart pounded so hard he could feel it in his teeth.
But he stood.
Isvarn watched, and something shifted in his ancient chest.
A human.
A mere human. Standing in front of him, withstanding the aura of a dragon who had lived for millennia.
The power pressing down on Yuuta was enough to kill lesser beings, enough to drive them mad, to shatter their minds, to leave them weeping on the floor. Isvarn was holding back ninety-five percent of his true power. If he released it all, the apartment would be destroyed. The building would crumble. The entire city block would feel the shockwave.
But Yuuta did not know that.
And still, he stood.
Yuuta’s head hung low at first, his chin pressed against his chest, unable to lift his face toward the dragon who towered above him. The effort of standing had cost him everything. But he gathered the last shreds of his strength, the final fragments of his will, and he lifted his head.
He looked straight at Isvarn.
His crimson eyes glowed.
Isvarn’s aura wavered.
The pressure, which had been absolute, flickered. The dragon’s presence, which had filled the apartment like a physical force, began to unsettle. For the first time in centuries, Isvarn felt something he had not expected to feel.
Uncertainty.
The gaze that met his was not the gaze of a weak human begging for mercy. It was the gaze of someone who had decided that losing was not an option.
The same desperation Isvarn had seen in Erza, centuries ago, when she had faced the God of War. Every dragon in the arena had looked away, unable to meet the divine gaze, unwilling to risk the mark of the gods. But Erza had looked straight at the God of War. She had stared into the face of divinity and refused to blink.
And now, standing in a cramped kitchen in a small apartment on the cursed world, Isvarn saw the same fire in Yuuta’s eyes.
He is not fighting for himself, Isvarn realized. He is fighting for her.
The desperation was not for survival. It was for family. For the life he had built with Erza and Elena. For the right to stand beside them, even if he could never match their power.
Isvarn was pleased.
The emotion surprised him.
He had not expected to feel anything but contempt for this human. But the desperation Yuuta had shown, the sheer, stubborn refusal to be crushed, was admirable. He had underestimated the boy. He had seen only his weakness, his frailty, his mortality. He had not seen the iron beneath.
The aura vanished.
The pressure lifted so suddenly that Yuuta stumbled, his body reacting to the absence of weight by pitching forward. He caught himself on the doorframe, his fingers digging into the wood, his knuckles white. His chest heaved. His lungs burned. He sucked in air like a drowning man breaking the surface.
Isvarn looked at him, and his voice, when he spoke, was almost warm.
"Foolish human. You should call a healer soon."
He walked past Yuuta, stepping into the living room, leaving the kitchen behind. The dismissal was not cruel this time. It was simply a statement of fact. The battle, if it could be called a battle, was over.
Yuuta felt relief flood through him.
His legs gave out.
He slumped against the doorframe, his body trembling with exhaustion, his heart still pounding, his breath still ragged. But he was alive. He had not died. He had stood. He had looked Isvarn in the eye and refused to break.
I can stand with her, he thought. I can be worthy.
The thought was fragile, tentative, but it was there. A seed planted in the darkness, reaching toward the light.
Then his stomach lurched.
The nausea came without warning, a violent, convulsive heave that doubled him over. He stumbled toward the kitchen sink, his hands gripping the edge of the counter, and vomited.
The liquid that spilled from his lips was not food. It was not bile. It was dark, thick, unmistakable.
Blood.
It splashed against the stainless steel, staining the basin red. More followed, each heave bringing fresh crimson, each spasm sending pain lancing through his chest. His vision blurred. His ears rang. The world tilted around him, and he realized, with terrible clarity, that something inside him had been crushed.
Isvarn’s aura had not killed him.
But it had left its mark.
Yuuta clung to the sink, his blood dripping into the basin in slow, rhythmic drops. Each splash was crimson against stainless steel, a testament to the damage Isvarn’s aura had carved into his fragile human body. His knuckles were white where they gripped the edge of the counter. His arms trembled, barely able to hold his weight. His reflection stared back at him from the kitchen window, pale, bloodied, but still standing.
No matter what, he thought, forcing air into his burning lungs, I will never let her down. Not even if a god tries to tear us apart.
He did not know that fate was already moving its pieces. That somewhere outside, beyond the walls of this small apartment, a decision was being made that would shape the rest of his life.
---
Outside the apartment, the afternoon light had shifted toward amber, the sun beginning its slow descent toward the horizon. Shadows stretched across the street, long and thin, reaching toward the buildings like fingers searching for something to hold.
"Pardon?" Fiona said.
The word came out as a croak, stripped of its usual sharpness. She stared at Erza as if the dragon queen had just suggested they fly to the moon on a carpet made of clouds. Her mind, still reeling from the marriage proposal, now had to contend with something even more impossible.
"I said," Erza repeated, her voice calm, absolute, "let us end this demonic era."
The words hung in the air between them, heavy with implication. End the demonic era. Not defeat a demon. Not kill a demon king. End an era. As if the centuries of bloodshed and terror and suffering could be swept away with a single afternoon’s work.
Fiona waited for the punchline. For the cold smile. For the mocking laughter that would reveal this was all a joke, a test, a game the dragon queen was playing to amuse herself.
The punchline did not come.
Erza’s face remained serious. Her violet eyes, usually so cold they seemed to belong to something that had never known warmth, were steady. Certain.
"This is a joke, right?" Fiona’s voice cracked. She was searching Erza’s face for any sign of mockery, any hint that the dragon was playing with her. "Tell me this is a joke."
"I am serious, human." Erza’s voice was cold, but not cruel. It was the cold of absolute certainty. "Do I appear to be joking?"
Fiona’s composure shattered.
"Do you even know how powerful he is?" The words poured out of her, hot and desperate, carrying years of fear and frustration and helpless rage. "He has an entire army spread across the world. Demons in every city, every country, every shadow. They kill innocents. They wage wars between nations. They."
Her voice caught, her throat tightening around the words. "They rape women. They torture people to collect sin. They have done every horrible thing imaginable, things that would make you sick to your stomach just to hear about them. And the one who leads them all, the one who commands every demon, who orchestrates every atrocity, who sits at the center of the web like a spider drinking the blood of the world, is Demon King Allen."
Her chest heaved. Her hands trembled. She had spent years hunting him, chasing him, getting closer and closer to the heart of the darkness. And every time she thought she was close, she discovered how far she truly was.
Yet Erza remained completely calm.
That calmness made Fiona even more furious.
Because Fiona knew exactly what kind of monsters they were. She had seen their destruction firsthand, the ruined towns, the broken families, the suffering that never ended. And yet Erza stood there as if all of it meant nothing at all.
Erza’s expression did not change.
Not even slightly.
She simply said, in the same quiet tone, that she could kill him anytime she wished.
Fiona stared at her, shaken, unable to understand how someone could speak like that so casually. How could she be so calm? How could she hear about the suffering, the death, the endless, grinding horror of the demonic era, and simply stand there?
That was when something clicked inside Fiona’s mind.
Erza had said it before.
Back in her hometown, she had called demons "child’s play."
At the time, Fiona had dismissed it, thinking Erza was simply being arrogant or speaking about weak monsters. But now, after seeing everything, after feeling her presence, after witnessing the way reality itself bent around her, Fiona finally understood.
After witnessing everything, the port, the aura, the sheer, impossible scale of Erza’s power, she understood.
The demons of Earth were not weak. They were not easy to kill. They had terrorized humanity for centuries, had grown fat on sin and suffering, had built an empire on the bones of the innocent.
But to Erza, they were children. Playthings. Insects to be crushed beneath her heel without a second thought.
Erza had never been talking about weak demons.
She had been talking about the real ones.
Fiona looked at the silver-haired woman who had frozen a port, who had killed men without blinking, who had lifted her by the throat and called her a nasty human. Her worst enemy. The woman who had stolen the man she loved.
And she realized that her chance for revenge, her only chance, the one she had been waiting for since her father died, had finally arrived.
Erza stretched out her hand.
The gesture was simple. Elegant. The hand of a queen offering alliance to a warrior who had proven herself worthy.
Fiona did not hesitate.
She reached out and grasped Erza’s hand. Her fingers wrapped around the dragon queen’s palm, warm, surprisingly warm, not cold at all. She shook once, firmly, sealing the pact.
"Please," Fiona said, her voice thick with years of suppressed grief. "Lend me your strength."
Erza’s grip tightened. Her violet eyes, still cold, still distant, held something that might have been respect.
"Very well," she said. "I will lend you my strength."
The afternoon light shifted. The shadows lengthened. And somewhere, in a dark throne room on the other side of the world, Demon King Allen felt a chill run down his spine, the first warning that something was coming for him.
The alliance was sealed.
The demonic era was about to end.
To be continued...