I'm Not Your Husband, You Evil Dragon!

Chapter 185: The Things We Hide

I'm Not Your Husband, You Evil Dragon!

Chapter 185: The Things We Hide

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Chapter 185: The Things We Hide

(Yuuta’s Apartment)

The sound of their struggle, scuffling feet, heavy breathing, the quiet crackle of frost forming on the coffee table, drifted across the room.

Yuuta’s hands were wrapped around Erza’s wrists, holding her back from the balcony, from the night, from the war that waited beyond the glass doors. His arms trembled. His knuckles were white.

He was not strong enough for this.

But he held on anyway.

Erza’s aura pressed against him, not choking or crushing, but wrapping around his skin like a second layer of warmth.

It should have terrified him. Instead, it felt like standing too close to a fire on a winter night. Dangerous. Destructive. But warm.

"Wait!"

She turned. Her eyes were wrong too, glowing faintly, unfocused, looking past him at something he couldn’t see.

Her lips moved, but the words came out in a language he didn’t recognize, old and sharp and cold.

She was serious this time.

Yuuta held on. "Erza, my queen, please."

Her other hand lifted. Frost gathered at her fingertips. The temperature dropped. He grabbed that wrist too. Now they stood face to face in the middle of the living room, Erza trying to move toward the balcony while Yuuta held her back.

"Humanity," he gasped. "Think about humanity..."

Erza didn’t stop. Her grip remained firm, as if she had already crossed the point of turning back.

"Erza..." he said again, softer, almost pleading. "Think about our home."

Home.

That finally made her hesitate, but not stop.

Something flickered in Erza’s glowing eyes. Not recognition. Not yet. But something.

He pulled her back another step.

She resisted.

His feet slid against the floor.

"Look at me," he said. "Just look at me."

On the sofa, wrapped in a blanket that had slipped down to her waist, Elena stirred.

Her small nose wrinkled.

Her eyelids fluttered.

She rubbed one eye with a tiny fist, then the other. Her mouth opened in a yawn far too large for her small face, the kind of yawn that belonged to a sleepy kitten or a toddler woken from a very good dream.

She blinked.

The living room was dark.

The only light came from the balcony window, where the moon hung pale and distant. On the other side of the room, Mama was dragging Papa.

Or Papa was holding Mama. It was hard to tell.

Elena tilted her head.

Her red eyes, still half-closed with sleep, focused on the two figures frozen in the middle of the floor. Papa’s hands were wrapped around Mama’s wrists. Mama’s hands were raised like she had been about to do something.

They were standing very, very close.

"Papa? Mama?" Her voice was small, sleepy, curious. "What are you doing?"

The effect was immediate.

Erza’s aura vanished, not faded, vanished, like a candle snuffed out by a sudden wind. The temperature returned to normal.

The frost on the coffee table began to melt.

Both parents turned toward the sound, eyes wide, faces frozen in parental panic.

Elena peeked at them from behind the back of the sofa, small fingers curled over the edge of the cushion, red eyes bright with curiosity.

"Mama," she said again, "why is Papa holding you?"

Silence.

Yuuta realized he was still gripping Erza’s wrists.

He let go immediately, so fast that his hands seemed to teleport to his sides.

Erza lowered her own hands slowly. Her expression was unreadable, but her ears were slightly pink.

"Well," Yuuta said. His voice cracked. He cleared his throat. "You see, Elena."

"We were," Erza started at the same time.

They stopped. Looked at each other. Looked away.

"We were just," Yuuta tried again.

"Discussing," Erza attempted.

Neither finished.

They stood in the middle of the room, two grown adults who had faced monsters and magic and dimensional rifts, completely incapable of explaining to a four-year-old why her father had been holding her mother’s wrists in the dark.

Yuuta laughed nervously, high-pitched, strained, the kind of laugh that fooled no one.

Erza’s version was worse: a single, sharp "ha" that sounded more like a threat than amusement.

Elena watched them both with growing suspicion.

Her small eyes narrowed.

Her dragon eyes, still developing, could see details human eyes missed, tiny scratches, dust motes in a beam of light, the faint glow of lingering magic.

She saw the redness on their lips.

The slight swelling.

The way both her parents kept touching their mouths when they thought she wasn’t looking.

"Why are Papa and Mama’s mouths red?" she asked.

Yuuta’s hand flew to his own mouth.

Erza turned her head away so fast her hair whipped across her face.

Elena squinted harder.

Her red eyes narrowed to thin slits.

She saw something else. "Papa," she said slowly, "did Mama try to eat you?"

Erza’s face turned the color of a ripe tomato.

Steam might as well have been rising from her head.

Yuuta’s soul left his body.

"Papa has teeth marks on his lips," Elena continued, oblivious to the devastation. "Mama’s teeth are sharp. Elena knows. Mama bit Monster horn once and the horn broke."

"What, That time...was, ," Erza said, her voice strangled.

"Elena thinks Papa bit Mama too."

"No one bit anyone!" Yuuta shouted desperately.

Elena was not convinced.

Her eyes moved from father to mother and back.

Her lips pursed. Her brow furrowed. She was really thinking.

Yuuta saw his chance.

"Elena! Aren’t you hungry? Don’t you want meat?"

Elena paused. Her stomach growled.

"Yes. Elena is super hungry."

Yuuta did not wait.

He crossed the room, scooped Elena into his arms, she was so light, her small body fitting against his chest like she had been made to be there, and carried her toward the kitchen. He did not look back at Erza. He could not.

Elena waved over her shoulder.

"Mama! Elena is going to eat meat! Mama should come too!"

Erza did not answer.

She stood in the hallway, face still red, heart still pounding, lips still tingling where Yuuta had bitten them.

She touched her mouth with her fingertips, feeling the small indentations. The memory of the kiss, the desperation, the heat, the way he had held her like she was precious, flooded back.

She pressed both hands to her cheeks.

No one was watching.

Her cold mask cracked.

"What is wrong with me?" she whispered. "Why am I losing myself? Why is my heart beating so fast?"

She touched her lips again, checking if it was visible enough for Elena to notice.

The bite mark was still there.

The taste of him was still there.

The memory came unbidden, his hands desperate on her wrists, his body pressed against hers, the way he had looked at her with something that looked like love.

Real love.

The kind that did not care about power or status or the centuries between them.

She had felt safe.

Wanted.

Like she was not carrying the weight of the world alone.

She was happy.

The realization struck her like a wave, warm and unexpected, pulling her under. Happy.

Not content. Not satisfied. Happy.

Her face was so bright that anyone who saw her might mistake her for someone else, someone who had not spent centuries frozen in ice and bitterness. A woman with silver hair and violet eyes and a face so bright with happiness that it seemed to glow. Someone who had forgotten, for just a moment, that she was a queen.

Someone who was only a wife, standing in a hallway, thinking about the man she loved.

Then reality hit.

The memory came back.

Not one of Yuuta’s Past memories.

Her own.

The Afternoon. Clara’s story. The unbearable realization that had slowly crushed her heart afterward. How could she continue enjoying this warmth while already knowing she would someday leave him behind? How could she smile beside him, sleep beside him, build a family beside him... while secretly preparing to disappear from his life forever?

The certainty of her decision returned like ice sinking into her bones.

Erza’s warmth vanished instantly. It was as if someone had opened a door to a frozen wasteland and allowed winter itself to crawl into the room.

Her hands slowly fell from her flushed cheeks. The softness in her expression disappeared. Her lips pressed together tightly as her violet eyes widened faintly before becoming hollow with quiet despair.

What am I doing...?

Not a question. An accusation. A blade turned against herself.

I cannot stay here.

I already decided this.

I cannot let myself become attached like this... I cannot.

Her breathing became uneven. The warmth Yuuta gave her felt unbearable now, because for the first time in centuries, Erza realized something terrifying.

She did not want to leave anymore.

And that frightened her far more than war, gods, or death ever could.

Her eyes burned.

Before she could stop it, before she could even understand what was happening, a tear rolled down her cheek. It slid slowly, catching the moonlight from the window, a small and fragile thing.

Then another followed.

Then another.

She did not wipe them away.

She could not. Her hands were frozen at her sides, her fingers curled into fists, her nails biting into her palms hard enough to leave crescents in her skin.

The weight of leaving Yuuta was unimaginable.

It was not a decision. It was an amputation.

The cutting away of something vital, something she had only just learned she needed. The life she had dreamed of, the quiet mornings, the shared meals, the simple warmth of a family that loved her, was going to end.

She had built it with her own hands, brick by fragile brick, and now she had to tear it down.

She looked out the window.

The moon hung low and silver, cold and distant, indifferent to her grief. It did not care that one small dragon was standing in a small apartment, trying to gather the strength to walk away from the only person who had ever made her feel whole.

She wrapped her arms around herself, fingers digging into her own skin hard enough to leave bruises.

The pain was grounding.

Necessary.

She held herself the way she wished someone would hold her, tightly, desperately, as if she might fly apart without the pressure. Her shoulders shook. Her breath came in shallow, jagged gasps.

She wanted to give him a life where he would be happy forever.

A life where he would forget her.

A life where he would not wake in the night reaching for a hand that was no longer there.

She wanted to be that hand.

She wanted to stay.

But she could not.

In the kitchen, Elena giggled. The sound drifted through the apartment like sunlight through a window, bright, careless, untouched by grief. Yuuta’s voice followed softly:

"Wash your hands before cracking the egg."

It sounded like they were cooking together.

Erza closed her eyes.

She let the tears fall.

And she did not make a sound.

(Inside the Kitchen)

The kitchen was warm. The stove glowed orange beneath the pot, and the air smelled of garlic, ginger, and the slow simmer of curry. Yuuta stirred with one hand, his movements automatic, years of chopping and stirring and seasoning, years of learning how to turn raw ingredients into something that felt like home.

His mind was not on the curry.

How do I become stronger?

The question circled him like a wolf, patient and hungry. It had been there since Isvarn’s aura had crushed him to the floor. Since the old dragon had looked at him with contempt and called him unworthy. Since he had learned that Erza had faced gods and refused to kneel, that she had given up divinity for him.

How can I learn aura?

He tried to understand what aura truly was. At first, he remembered the pressure he had felt before, an invisible force that crushed him, like Isvarn’s presence or Erza’s overwhelming existence.

For a moment, he had thought aura was something like gravity, meant only to suppress others.

But another memory surfaced. Earlier, when he had tried to stop Erza, her aura had not choked him. It had felt different.

Warm. Almost comforting.

Nothing about what he had experienced matched what he believed power should be. Everything felt wrong. Or maybe... he was the one who was wrong.

He sighed, long and low, pulled from somewhere deep in his chest.

He was not going to figure this out alone.

He needed a teacher. Someone who understood aura, who could explain its fundamentals, who could show him how to reach for it the way Erza reached for hers.

He looked at Elena.

She sat at the kitchen table, perched on a cushion raised high enough to reach the bowl in front of her. Her small hands gripped a whisk, mixing eggs with fierce concentration, her tongue poking out from the corner of her mouth.

Golden yolk streaked the sides of the bowl. A smear of egg white decorated her cheek.

"Papa," she said without looking up, "Elena is being careful. Elena is not making a mess."

Yuuta almost smiled. Almost.

"Do you know anything about aura, Elena?" he asked.

Elena paused. She looked at him with her red eyes, his eyes, Erza’s eyes, the eyes of two bloodlines that should never have met. Her brow furrowed.

"Aura?" she repeated, testing the word. "Like Mama’s cold air?"

"Sort of," Yuuta said. "Have you ever... used it? Felt it?"

Elena considered the question with the gravity of a tiny philosopher. She tapped the whisk against the edge of the bowl, sending a drop of egg flying onto the table.

"Elena feels warm sometimes," she said. "When Mama hugs Elena. When Papa reads Elena stories. Elena thinks that might be aura. But Elena is not sure."

She went back to whisking.

Yuuta turned back to the stove.

He could not remember Elena ever using aura or magic. She had never manifested the kind of power that Erza wielded, never shown any sign that she had inherited her mother’s abilities. Perhaps she was too young. Perhaps the abilities would come later.

He stirred the curry.

The only person who could teach him was Erza.

Isvarn would never teach him.

Elena was still too young to truly understand.

That left only one person he could rely on, Erza. But even that truth was uncertain, something Yuuta did not fully realize yet. He did not know whether she would agree to stay by his side or whether she would eventually choose to leave him as well.

And yet, despite that uncertainty, Yuuta made his decision.

If he did not grow stronger, he would lose everything.

He could not allow that future to exist.

Even if the world itself decided to become his enemy, even if fate declared war against him, he would cut through it with his own hands if that was what it took.

But he would never, under any circumstances, give up on Erza.

Two choices were now moving quietly in opposite directions, each carrying its own weight of pain. Erza, who had decided to distance herself for reasons even she could not fully explain, and Yuuta, who had decided to defy the very structure of fate itself just to remain by her side.

And somewhere between those two broken decisions, the future quietly waited.

Not yet decided.

Not yet cruel.

But already beginning to take shape.

For now, both of them continued forward, hurt, silent, and carrying burdens they could not share with each other.

To be continued..

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