My Taboo Harem!
Chapter 903: Weight of Maturation
Phei finally relaxed.
Not the physical loosening of muscles, but something deeper — a small letting-go of the tension he’d been maintaining in his chest since Cassiopeia had confessed.
The storm had passed, he’d held it at the threshold and it had dispersed into something manageable, something he could think about rather than be consumed by.
But the thinking was worse.
Phei was the one who brought Cassiopeia in.
He had made the decision to mark Cassiopeia, to bind her soul to his, to grant her sanctuary in the one place that was meant to be inviolate against everything the Maxton family represented.
And in so doing, he’d introduced the ephemeral safety of his circle to a woman who carried the ineluctable weight of her family whether she’d wielded it or not.
The pain the Maxtons had inflicted on him was tenebrous, layered, a darkness that had threaded itself through his early years with such pervasive totality he’d assumed it was the default condition of existence.
Every interaction had been exquisitely calibrated toward his destruction or indifference.
They’d taken his parents; they had orchestrated their removal from the world with the efficiency of people who viewed family as currency or liability as they were some kind of gods who decided who to and not to kill.
And not just his parents. They’d taken Delilah’s real twin sister, erasing her from existence so completely that the young girl carried a wound she never fully spoke about, a phantom limb she felt ache on days when the memory got too loud.
Years of that. Years of learning that the people who he’d lived with wanted him either dead or controllable.
And Melissa.
’Gods, Melissa.’
While he’d been drowning in those years, she’d been doing something infinitely harder; she’d been surviving the same family in an entirely different register of pain.
She’d lost her child to them, not in some abstract metaphorical sense but in the literal, visceral sense where you carry a pregnancy and deliver a life and have it taken by the people who were supposed to be family.
And that hadn’t been enough: the Maxtons, in their infinite cruelty, had decided not only that her child should be replaced with their bastard son but also her brother too who had been Harold’s friend was worth taking too.
It felt like they’d decided her entire intimate circle was a threat worth neutralizing.
And Melissa had she’d endured it reticently, silently, without the luxury of falling apart because someone had to remain standing for Phei and her three children. Someone had to protect her daughters. Someone had to watch over Phei from the shadows, guiding him through a world that would have consumed him without the network of small interventions she’d orchestrated without his knowledge while she could not nothing as he was tormented by the same family and even her own children!
She’d been there:
All those years when he’d thought himself alone, she’d been there — watching, protecting, intervening at the moments without him knowing when the machinery of the Maxton family might have succeeded in breaking him completely.
And she’d done it without asking for recognition. Without complaint. With the quiet gravitas of a woman who understood that her suffering was not currency and therefore didn’t need to be spent on his pity.
And what had he done?
He’d brought Cassiopeia into their innermost circle to live day by day with the woman her family had made sure would for eternity wallow at the thought of what she’d lost.
But what of Cassiopeia herself?
She wasn’t innocent in the Maxton machinery, no — but she also wasn’t the architect of her own cruelty.
Her family had never treated her with anything approaching kindness.
In her own words she’d told Phei; Being marked to him hadn’t just been enslavement for her; it had been salvation.
In his people was a place where she mattered, where her existence translated into something beyond liability.
But she wasn’t blind to what she was and wasn’t stupid enough to believe the four women welcomed her unconditionally.
But she was learning, slowly, that belonging could be built even across the fault lines of family history; that she could become something more than her bloodline.
She’d grown more comfortable, more settled, though the weight of her name never fully left her shoulders.
The question of whether he regretted enslaving and bringing in Cassiopeia arrived next, and he sat with it properly, giving it the gravitas it deserved.
Did he regret marking Cassiopeia? Genuinely regret?
’No.’
Not a shred or a whisper of doubt.
If he rewound time he would do the same identical fucking thing; he would make the same choice knowing the same information, because Cassiopeia deserved sanctuary and he could provide it.
But what if he’d been more considerate? What if he’d thought through how his decisions would ripple in the lives of everyone bound to him; like Melissa?
What difference would it make him from other men? From Harold Maxton with his mechanical coldness, his ability to strategize the destruction of his own blood? From Marcus Heavenchild with his indifference to the weight his choices carried?
If Phei could only act on whims and impulse, disregarding the feelings of the women bound to him, then he was already becoming that kind of man.
And he wasn’t willing to accept that trajectory.
He was human — well, not so completely, not anymore, but still human enough to understand that living beings were entitled to mistakes. That he was young and still figuring out what his life and power meant and what his bloodline could do.
Every day someone new arrived in his orbit carrying their own impossible history... he was bound to make errors in judgment, bound to prioritize wrong sometimes, bound to learn the hard way what it cost to be careless with people’s hearts.
Phei was bound to live a very long life of mistakes and bad decisions — a long life where he’d have a very huge family, children eventually, an entire ecosystem of people who’d depend on him.
But what would separate him from the men he despised was how he learned from those mistakes. How he responded when he recognized he’d been wrong. How he ensured that his women and family were shielded from the fallout of his missteps.
’I am getting mature before I’m even supposed to be,’ he thought with a flicker of dark humor. ’Too bad there’s no one to answer that musings.’
He relaxed more, fully this time, and looked at Cassiopeia where she still trembled.
"Listen carefully," he said quietly. "You might be part of my family now, but that doesn’t mean all is forgiven, Cassiopeia."
She nodded, waiting.
"It doesn’t matter if you didn’t play a part in the huge Maxton plots that hurt my family," he continued, his voice carrying absolute certainty. "It doesn’t matter at all. You’re a Maxton."
The simplicity of that statement landed like a sentence.
He let it settle before continuing. "I know about your unfortunate life in the Maxtons, you told me it all and I know you never played a part in their schemes. The schemes that took not only my parents but also my very real cousin — Delilah’s real twin sister. It doesn’t make you innocent."1
His eyes held hers with the weight of something irreversible.
"Around my family, I do not want you to be feel weighed by what happened since you knew and took no art in it but still, I expect you to be considerate enough about what your old fossils and your brother did to us. What they took. What they destroyed. You will carry that weight every single day, not as punishment, but as the price of the name you carry, that’s what your family did to use, Cass, but do not be guilted for it; be understanding."
He reached for her then, his hand gentle on her face, and tilted her chin up so she had no choice but to meet his gaze directly.
"Especially Melissa."
Then he kissed the top of her head.
Not with tenderness. With something heavier — a seal. A promise. A condition. His lips lingered against her hair, and for a moment he simply held her there, his hand at the back of her neck, before he stepped back and turned to look out through the penthouse windows at the luminous city below.
The afternoon had settled into that melancholic beauty that existed at the intersection of day and night. His face was composed. Perfect. Cold as the void that lived in his bloodline.
He looked outside for a long moment, at the sprawling lights and the darkness of the forest beyond them, and when he finally turned back to look at Cassiopeia, there was a smile on his mouth.
A smile that belonged to something forged in the fires of everything the Maxtons had done, cold and merciless, something that had decided it was done being careful about certain things.
"I don’t think I’ll ever be able to let you live another day," he said softly, "should you make her cry."
The words hung in the air like a promise written in blood.
Cassiopeia was shivering, that was more than a message to her and more than Phei saying it around that he could tolerate and play games with fate as long it was directed at him, but if anyone messed with his woman, Melissa, then consequences be damned!
He’d kill a legacy if it was a legacy that hurt Melissa. Even if that meant they came back as Supreme Immortals or whatever warning Rune and the system had given him!
He simply didn’t care really.
Then he was gone!
Only if he knows who that twin is!