(R-18) My Masochistic Game Life

Chapter 1 Prologue

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Chapter 1: 1 Prologue

"Hmm..."

In a room within a certain apartment building, a young woman sat gazing at her computer screen.

Her name was Kurasaki Shiori. She was a university student who had only just begun her studies that spring.

"I wonder if there’s anything that looks good..."

It was now June. Having grown accustomed to living alone since starting university, Shiori was browsing for a new game to enjoy.

"Hmm... Well-known companies and classic titles certainly have their merits, but..."

She was currently viewing a website that compiled recently released or upcoming games, neatly organized by developer. Shiori began by browsing the official sites of titles from established game companies: new installments in long-running series, adaptations of popular manga and novels, and lighthearted slice-of-life games.

As someone who enjoyed both gaming and reading manga and light novels, these offerings held moderate appeal for her.

"...There’s nothing that particularly catches my interest this time."

None of the titles resonated with her current mood, so she skimmed through them quickly. Just as she was about to finish reviewing the list, her eyes fell upon the words "VR game" for a title that an unfamiliar company planned to release.

"White Games? I’ve never heard of them. Is this a new developer? I wonder what kind of game they’re offering..."

With modest expectations, Shiori clicked the link to the official website.

"’Fantasia World’... It appears to be a fantasy game."

Yet as she examined the content, her eyes widened.

The first thing she noticed against the dark background was the game title, followed by the warning "No entry for those under 18" and a "Yes/No" prompt. The meaning was unmistakable: this was an R18 erotic game.

"Hmm... I see. So that’s what it is."

A faint blush colored Shiori’s cheeks. After selecting "Yes," she reopened the site and began reading the full description.

The game allowed players aged eighteen and over to freely explore a vast fantasy world while undertaking various quests. What distinguished it from ordinary titles, however, was that players could be defeated by monsters or NPCs in explicit ways—through force, hypnosis, intimidation, or other coercive means, leading to sexual violation.

The screenshots on the official site depicted women in adventurer attire being overpowered and assaulted by monsters or subjected to sexual harassment during quests.

"I’m going to be violated..."

Rape. Sexual harassment.

Words that most women would instinctively avoid held an irresistible allure for Shiori. For some time now, she had harbored a deep interest in such erotic scenarios.

The seed had been planted in elementary school when she accidentally stumbled upon an adult website on her parents’ computer. There, she saw a woman dressed as a transforming heroine being ravished by monsters. At first the woman resisted, but gradually she began to feel pleasure, until finally she dissolved into ecstatic abandon.

Though Shiori had not understood what she was seeing at the time, she quickly closed the page and deleted the history. Nevertheless, the images left an indelible impression. As she grew older and came to comprehend their meaning, a certain emotion took root within her.

*I want to be forcibly raped as well.*

It was a masochistic desire—to be taken against her will, made to feel overwhelming pleasure, and melted into a state of pure ecstasy, just like the women in those images.

Shiori knew this desire was shameful. Yet once it had taken hold, it proved impossible to erase.

Since then, she had indulged in countless fantasies of being raped. She secretly searched for erotic illustrations and read doujinshi depicting girls being taken by force. Still, she had never attempted to fulfill the desire in reality.

The reasons were obvious. The risks—sexually transmitted diseases, physical after-effects, the potential trauma, and the devastating impact on her life and relationships—were far too great. Even someone with rape fantasies often feels genuine revulsion at the thought of actual violation. Because of this fear, Shiori had never acted on her urges and had no intention of doing so in the future.

"...But this is a game."

In a game, no matter how many times one was violated, there would be no real consequences. One could experience anything without hesitation or danger.

"Fantasia World" was precisely the outlet she had longed for. There would be no physical repercussions, no lasting effects on her real body. Moreover, it was a single-player experience rather than an MMO, eliminating any risk of other players discovering her identity. The site also offered a full refund within two weeks if the player was dissatisfied.

It was, in every respect, ideal.

"The beta test has concluded... Feedback seems largely positive... Release date is next week..."

A quiet thrill coursed through her as she read customer reviews and blog ratings.

"...Yes. Let’s do it."

Having made her decision, Shiori promptly purchased the game through the official link.

"Ah, I can’t wait until next week... Hehe."

Still flushed with excitement, she began downloading the game data to her VR device, a faint, anticipatory smile playing across her lips.

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