The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me

Chapter 33 – What Was Taken Once

The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me

Chapter 33 – What Was Taken Once

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Chapter 33: Chapter 33 – What Was Taken Once

Lucien did not move from where he stood, yet somehow the space between us shifted the moment he chose to speak.

"Careful, little brother," he said, his tone light, almost conversational, though there was something beneath it that didn’t belong to casual words. "You’ve always had a habit of mistaking instinct for certainty, and it never ended well for you."

Rowan didn’t react immediately, but I felt the change in him anyway.

It wasn’t visible to anyone who didn’t know what to look for, yet it was there in the way his shoulders settled just slightly differently, in the way his focus sharpened without becoming aggressive. This wasn’t the kind of tension he had shown with Kael. This was older. Quieter. More controlled.

"You didn’t come here to give advice," Rowan replied, his voice steady, though the edge beneath it was impossible to miss.

Lucien’s smile widened just enough to acknowledge that truth.

"No," he said. "But I thought I’d start with something familiar. It’s been a while since you last ignored a warning that mattered."

I frowned slightly, my attention shifting between them as the tone of the conversation changed in a way that felt... personal. Not just strategic, territorial. Something deeper.

"What is he talking about?" I asked, my voice calm but direct.

Rowan didn’t answer.

Lucien did.

"He hasn’t told you?" he said, his gaze sliding toward me with quiet interest. "That’s disappointing. I thought we were past his selective honesty phase."

"That’s enough," Rowan said, sharper this time.

Lucien tilted his head slightly, studying him.

"No," he said calmly. "I don’t think it is."

The air shifted again, not with power this time, but with something more dangerous.

History.

Lucien straightened from the wall, finally pushing himself away from it as he stepped closer, not enough to invade space, but enough to make his presence undeniable.

"There was someone before," he said, his voice quieter now, though somehow more precise. "Someone he was certain about. Someone he thought he could protect just by wanting it enough."

My chest tightened slightly. I didn’t know why. I didn’t know who. But the way he said it made it feel like something that still mattered.

"What happened?" I asked, before I could stop myself.

Rowan’s gaze snapped to me.

"Elara—"

But Lucien didn’t let him interrupt.

"He lost her," he said simply.

The words landed without force. And yet they hit harder than anything else so far. I looked at Rowan, searching his expression for denial, for correction, for anything that would make that statement less final. But there was nothing.

"It wasn’t like that," Rowan said after a moment, his voice controlled, though something beneath it had shifted.

"No?" Lucien replied mildly. "Then tell me what it was like."

Rowan didn’t answer.

Lucien exhaled slowly, as though unsurprised.

"That’s what I thought."

I didn’t fully understand what had happened between them, but I understood enough. This wasn’t just a story.

It was a wound.

And Lucien knew exactly where to press.

"Why are you telling me this?" I asked, my voice quieter now, though no less steady.

Lucien turned to me again, and for the first time, his attention felt fully focused.

"Because patterns repeat," he said. "And I’d hate to watch him make the same mistake twice."

Something about the way he said it made my stomach tighten.

"Which mistake?" I asked.

His smile returned, slower this time.

"Believing he gets to keep what he finds."

The meaning was clear.

Too clear.

Rowan stepped forward then, placing himself just slightly between us, not enough to block, but enough to shift the dynamic.

"That’s not your concern," he said.

Lucien’s gaze flickered to him, amused.

"Isn’t it?" he asked. "It always has been."

For a moment, no one spoke.

Then Lucien continued, his tone shifting again, this time not mocking, not probing, but almost... thoughtful.

"If you’re going to stay involved in this," he said, glancing between us, "you’re going to need more than instinct and stubbornness."

Rowan didn’t respond.

Lucien went on.

"There’s someone you should find."

That caught my attention immediately.

"Who?" I asked.

Lucien’s gaze returned to me, studying me in a way that felt far more deliberate than before.

"An old wolf," he said. "Older than either of them. Older than most of what you think you understand."

"That’s not very specific," I said.

"It’s not meant to be," he replied.

Rowan’s expression darkened slightly.

"You think he’ll help?" he asked.

"I think he’ll tell the truth," Lucien said.

"And you won’t?" Rowan countered.

Lucien’s smile sharpened.

"I already am."

Silence stretched again, but this time it felt different. Less like a standoff. More like a decision waiting to be made. I looked at Rowan.

Really looked at him.

At the control he carried, at the things he didn’t say, at the past I had only just begun to glimpse. There was something there I didn’t fully understand yet, something that made Lucien’s words harder to dismiss than I wanted them to be.

"You were in love with her," I said quietly.

It wasn’t a question. Rowan didn’t deny it. For a moment, something shifted in me. Not jealousy or even anger. Something more complicated. Something that made the distance between us feel... less certain than it had before.

I exhaled slowly.

"Where do we find this wolf?" I asked.

Rowan looked at me, something unreadable in his expression.

"You don’t have to—"

"I know," I interrupted. "But I’m not staying here pretending I understand something I clearly don’t."

A brief silence passed. Then he nodded.

Lucien watched the exchange with quiet interest, though there was something else in his gaze now, something that hadn’t been there before.

Approval. Or perhaps anticipation.

"Careful," he said lightly, as we turned to leave. "The last time he went looking for answers, he lost someone he thought he couldn’t live without."

I didn’t stop walking. But I did answer.

"Then maybe this time," I said, "he won’t make the same mistake."

Lucien’s voice followed us anyway.

"Oh, I’m counting on that," he said.

There was a pause.

Then, softer—

"And if he does..."

I didn’t turn back but I felt his gaze.

"I’ll take again what he can’t keep."

This time, the meaning didn’t need to be explained.

And for the first time— I understood that whatever this was becoming...

Lucien wasn’t just watching it.

He was waiting for his turn.

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