The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me

Chapter 75 – The Child of Balance

The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me

Chapter 75 – The Child of Balance

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Chapter 75: Chapter 75 – The Child of Balance

When they found the stream, the sound of the night changed. The burned scent of the facility had thinned into the wind by now, but it had not disappeared completely. The water running between the wet stones carried a colder air than the rest of the forest. When the moonlight broke through the trees and fell onto the surface of the water, it created a silver-like shimmer, and for a moment that shimmer seemed to speak the same language as the metallic ring in Elara’s eyes. All three of them slowed down. Because this place was not only suitable for a short stop. There was something else here. Rowan understood it from the vibration in the ground, Kael from the residue of old magic in the scent, and Elara from that familiar but inhuman call coming from within the water.

Rowan checked their surroundings first. The trees rising on both sides of the streambed blocked their view, but they were also dense enough to break the scent of any pursuit. Kael stood a few steps away, slightly lifting his head and scenting the air. His shoulders were still tense. Leaving the facility had not lowered the war reflex in his body. Elara, on the other hand, looked directly at the water. In that moment, for the first time since the end of everything they had walked through, she felt that she had truly stopped. Not only her body, but the thing inside her had stopped too. The Moon Spirit was silent, but that silence did not feel like retreat. It felt like waiting.

"One minute," said Elara. Rowan turned to her immediately. So did Kael. The fact that those two gazes fell on her at the same time would once have created something else in her. Tension, warmth, anger, even sometimes a strange sense of safety. Now, even though she noticed it, she saw that the emotion did not fully form. The reaction was there, but it stayed buried deep. She could not decide whether the emptiness that difference created frightened her. Because even to feel frightened, something a little more chaotically human was necessary.

"What is it?" Rowan asked. Elara turned her head slightly toward the stream. "This water isn’t normal." Kael approached at once. "Poison?" "I’m not surprised that this is the first thing that comes to your mind when you stand across from Elara," said Rowan, his voice tired but still sharp. Kael did not even turn toward him. "What shouldn’t surprise you is that I think of everything as a threat." "Elara is not a threat," said Rowan. That sentence lingered in the air. Because both of them knew it was no longer that simple. Elara read that new truth from their faces and, for the first time, felt as if she were watching from the outside the silent agreement others had reached about what she was.

"In whatever state I am now, you two will be the last people to define it," she finally said. A brief tension appeared on Kael’s face. Rowan, however, did not take his eyes off her. Elara’s voice was not harsh. That would have been easier. It was almost emotionless. As if she was not arguing, only stating the outcome.

Elara took a step toward the stream. Even as she stepped onto the stones, the vibration inside the water became more distinct. The wound on her wrist started to sting again. The power beneath the burn mark was responding to something ancient in the streambed. She did not kneel. She did not bend down. She only held her hand slowly above the water. Before her fingers even touched the surface, the flow of the water shifted very slightly. Rowan did not see it with the naked eye, but Kael did. Because the line of moonlight broke for a moment and changed into another shape beneath Elara’s hand.

The Moon Spirit whispered inside her. "Ancient." This time, Elara did not answer with her own voice. "Belonging to what?" "Not to the oath. To something even older than that."

With those words, the shimmer in the water deepened. When Elara’s fingers touched the surface, the stream no longer felt merely like water. It felt like touching a memory. It was not cold. It was very old. Images began to rise out of that ancient sensation. At first, they were unclear. First moonlight, then blood, then circular markings drawn on stone, and then a woman kneeling at the center of the circle. The woman’s face could not be seen. But what she carried on her chest was familiar. A ring. Metallic orange. The same as the ring inside Elara’s eyes.

She did not pull back. Because for the first time, she wanted to know not what she was seeing, but what it meant. When the image sharpened, the voice came as well. It was not the voice of the Moon Spirit. It was closer to a human voice. But not entirely human either. It did not speak like a narrator. It spoke like a verdict.

"The child of balance will not come. The one who comes will be the one who breaks balance."

Elara’s shoulders tightened. Rowan took one step forward, then stopped. Because Elara’s eyes were no longer on the stream, but on something invisible rising from within the water. Kael wanted to call out to her, but the sound caught in his throat. The expression on Elara’s face did not belong to someone in pain. It belonged to someone remembering something.

"The bearer of the moon will not be chosen for peace. She will be chosen to break the sealed order. Her arrival will not unite the sides. It will reveal the lie of the sides."

For a moment, the surface of the water went completely still. So did Elara’s breath. This time, the Moon Spirit did not remain silent. For the first time, it stirred with this much open satisfaction. "This is why you survived." Elara answered inwardly. "No. This is why I was hunted."

The difference mattered. The Moon Spirit saw her as a purpose. Elara, on the other hand, refused to see her own life as a tool given meaning by other people’s prophecies. But both of them knew the same thing. The facility had not only wanted to stop her. Adrian had not only examined her. The World Government had not only tried to classify her. They were all different forms of the same fear. That Elara’s existence was necessary not for the continuation of balance, but for its end.

At last, Rowan spoke. "Elara." 𝙛𝒓𝓮𝙚𝔀𝒆𝒃𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝓵.𝙘𝒐𝒎

This single word was not enough to pull her away from the water this time. But it changed her direction. Elara lifted her head. When her eyes turned to Rowan, the pressure there softened a little. Kael noticed it. It was a very small thing, but he noticed it. The first reaction rising inside him was jealousy. Then something uglier came right after it. The feeling of loss. He was afraid that when Elara looked at him, he would not see that same softening. And that fear was more humiliating than fighting.

"What did you see?" Rowan asked. Elara did not answer. She only watched him for a few seconds. Then she slowly straightened. "They never believed I would be someone who protected balance. That was why they were afraid of me. I am not the thing that will keep their order standing." Kael frowned. "What does that mean?" Elara turned to him. "It means I am not the flaw in their system. I am its ending."

Silence fell after that sentence. Because both of them understood that Elara was not saying this as a metaphor. Because the metallic ring in her eyes no longer looked like a simple sign that glowed. It looked like proof of what she was saying.

Kael moved closer slowly. "Are you still yourself?"

The question had finally come out. This was what both of them had been circling around from the beginning, but had not been able to ask directly. Even Rowan held his breath. Elara’s answer would not concern only Kael. It would concern both of them. Elara thought for a few seconds. The thought was real. It was not evasive. At last she said, "Yes." Then, without taking her eyes off him, she continued. "But I’m not alone."

That answer created a very small fracture in Kael’s face. Because it was honest. Because Elara was not trying to deceive him. Because it was one of the worst possible answers. It was telling him that he had not lost her completely, but it was also openly admitting that what he had gotten back was no longer only Elara. As if trying to break the weight of that conversation, Rowan extended his hand. "Show me your wrist."

Elara’s gaze dropped to his hand. Rowan’s hand was steady. There was neither the suppressed possessiveness that existed in Kael, nor the examining hunger that lived in Adrian. That was why, for the first time that night, when someone asked something of her, Elara did not refuse immediately. She slowly lifted her wrist. When Rowan touched her, the contact was more careful than she had expected. As if he respected not only the wound, but also the thing it carried with it.

Kael watched this, and the anger inside him shifted into another place. Rowan touching Elara was no longer creating only jealousy inside him. There was a more dangerous piece within it now. Because Rowan’s way of approaching Elara was not built on giving orders or claiming ownership. And the fact that Elara allowed it was quietly breaking every rule Kael had known for years.

"This mark isn’t closing on its own," Rowan said. "The magic stayed there." Without taking her eyes off her wrist, Elara asked, "Can you remove it?" Rowan paused very briefly before answering. "Maybe." Then he lifted his gaze. "But it’s going to hurt." Kael almost let out a sarcastic grunt. "Pain is not new information anymore." Elara turned her eyes to Kael. "That sentence would have suited Adrian very well."

Kael fell silent. Because Elara was right. Because in the last few hours, everyone had begun carrying something from one another. Method from Adrian, violence from the system, coldness from the Moon Spirit, anger and need from each other.

At last, Rowan moved a little closer to Elara’s wrist. He pressed his finger onto the thin darkened line resting just above the wound. Elara’s body tensed instantly. The pain did not strike directly through the skin. It hit from beneath the nerves. She did not close her eyes. But her breath faltered for a moment. When Rowan noticed that, he did not pull his hand away. He only held the underside of her elbow more firmly with his other hand. The line between support and restraint was very thin. But Rowan did not look like someone who crossed that line unknowingly. He looked like someone choosing to cross it.

Kael stepped forward. "Enough." Rowan spoke without lifting his head. "One more second."

Elara did not stop either of them. Because at that exact moment, the black line running through the wound began to loosen slightly. Rowan’s touch was not aggressive like the chains in the facility, but he knew where pressure needed to be applied. That difference created an unexpected warmth in Elara’s chest. It lasted only a very short time. But it was there. And that was exactly why it was dangerous.

The Moon Spirit murmured inside her. "You feel that." Elara did not react. Because denying what she felt would have been more exhausting.

When the line fully dissolved and disappeared beneath the skin, Elara released her breath. Rowan slowly withdrew his hand as well. The closeness between them lingered for a moment longer than it should have. The moonlight made the tension on Rowan’s face and the cold calm on Elara’s face visible at the same time. As Kael watched this, he clenched his teeth. More than the danger in the forest, it was the silent closeness standing right in front of him that threatened him.

"There," Rowan said at last. "It’s done." Elara pulled her wrist back. "No," she said. "Only part of it is done." That sentence had not been said only about the wound.

Far away, the sound of an owl was heard. Then the wind changed direction. Kael lifted his head at once. There was no scent of pursuit, but the night was too quiet. Rowan noticed it too. Elara, however, was no longer looking at the stream. She was looking at the power inside herself. The echo of the prophecy was still moving through her mind. Chosen to break balance. That description could feel like a curse, or it could feel like freedom. Elara had not decided which one it was yet. But for the first time, she fully understood the logic behind other people fearing her.

"We should keep moving," Rowan said. Kael agreed with a short tilt of his head. But before Elara started walking, she looked at both of them one last time. They were both different kinds of danger. Both different kinds of closeness. And both of them were still, in one way or another, trying to understand her through the old Elara.

Yet as Elara rose to her feet beside the stream, she knew one thing with perfect clarity. The cage was no longer closed. But what had come out of it was no longer the same as before.

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