The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me

Chapter 87 – The First Choice of Dawn

The Alpha Who Regrets Losing Me

Chapter 87 – The First Choice of Dawn

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Chapter 87: Chapter 87 – The First Choice of Dawn

When the gray light in front of the door slipped inside, Elara thought for the first time that morning was not something comforting. Dawn usually meant the night was over. But this morning was announcing that everything hidden through the night would become visible.

The scent of Blackthorn was sharper through the wind. The blue order of Lucien’s border was still beating beneath the stones like a heartbeat. Far away, the metallic hum of the World Government had begun to drown out the natural sounds of the forest. All three sides were coming. And this time, Elara did not look for a direction to run.

When they stepped outside, the clearing in front of the border house was no longer empty. First, the Blackthorn wolves appeared between the trees. They were in human form, but their posture carried an old habit that came from the pack. Talon stood at the front. When he saw Kael, he did not lower his head. It was not disrespect. It was more like the deliberate stance of someone who had not yet accepted which side held the upper hand. His gaze shifted to Elara for a moment, then returned to Kael.

"I told you to make your decision before dawn," Talon said.

Kael did not turn toward him. His eyes were still on the other side of the clearing. "I did."

Talon’s silence did not last long. "Then you are returning to your pack."

This time Kael looked at him. "Are you saying that, or are the ones afraid on my behalf saying it?"

One of the wolves behind Talon shifted restlessly. The Blackthorn call on Kael’s shoulder had still not gone out. The old alpha mark burned beneath his skin with a light close to red, and with every beat, it made him feel as though the pack was trying to pull him back. Elara saw it. Kael’s body was not going anywhere, but his past was grabbing him by the collar and pulling.

Talon’s voice lowered. "The pack is dividing. The northern border is in chaos. While you burn inside another prophecy here, Blackthorn will not see this as loyalty."

Kael did not answer for a short while, and then he said, "The pack you call Blackthorn is my bloodline, and it carries my name." An old responsibility shifted inside Kael. This was not smaller than what he felt for Elara. It was different. Older. The weight of a pack was not something that could be pushed aside only with love or regret.

At the same time, men marked with blue stepped out from between the trees on the western side. They were Lucien’s men. Elara understood it before she even fully saw them. There was no haste in their steps. They had not drawn their weapons. That was why they looked more dangerous. Because these people seemed to have come not to fight, but to enforce the border’s decision. The man at the front looked at Rowan. "Lucien is waiting for you."

Rowan’s answer did not delay. "I know."

"He wants you to come."

"I know that too."

The man’s gaze turned to Elara. "And her."

The heat on Kael’s left rose all at once. Rowan did not move, but his silence sharpened. This time, Elara did not raise her hand to stop either of them. There was no need. Both of them held themselves back before moving. That small thing showed that the lesson they had learned in the border house was still working.

Rowan’s voice remained calm. "Lucien may want her. That does not mean she will go."

Lucien’s man tilted his head slightly. "Lucien does not ask. Lucien calculates consequences and takes what he wants."

For the first time, Elara looked directly at the man. "Then he may have calculated wrong."

That sentence created a small but clear fracture in the clearing. The Blackthorn wolves, Lucien’s men, and the approaching metallic hum behind the trees turned toward Elara at the same time. In the past, being under this many gazes would have pushed her into her shell like a turtle. Now those gazes did not make her smaller. They made her stand more firmly where she was.

Then the sound of the World Government was heard. First came the steady vibration of metal crushing the ground, then white lights appeared between the trees. The vehicles did not enter the clearing directly. They stopped at the outer line of the forest. The World Government had arrived too.

Soldiers got out. They were not masked, because this time they were not trying to hide. They had weapons in their hands, but the thing that truly caught Elara’s attention was not the weapons. It was the thin, white ring-shaped device set up in the back section of one of the vehicles. At its center, three small lights spun, imitating orange, red, and blue lines.

When Rowan saw it, he truly tensed for the first time. "A Separator."

Kael turned his head to him. "What?"

Rowan did not take his eyes off the device. "A device that targets bonds."

The orange line in Elara’s chest ached as if answering the cold pressure of the device. The Moon Spirit stirred inside her. "This device was not made only to chain. A chain holds the body in place. This is designed to cut the bond, separate the direction, and leave you alone inside yourself."

Elara answered inwardly. "Are they going to try to separate you from me again?"

This time, the Moon Spirit did not answer immediately. Then it spoke more coldly. "No. They do not dare separate us yet. First, they will cut away the things that keep you standing. They will try to push Kael back to his pack, Rowan back to his blood, and you back to your own fear. Because if your bonds weaken, they will not need to separate me from you. You will already break from within."

When the device started working, its sound was not very loud. Something worse happened. The sound was a frequency so thin it was almost inaudible, and it passed through Elara’s bones. The first blow struck Kael. The red line hardened all at once. The Blackthorn mark on Kael’s shoulder burned again. The wolves behind Talon lifted their heads at the same time. The pack call had become sharper together with the World Government’s device.

Kael closed his eyes for a moment. Elara wanted to turn toward him, but held herself back. Because Kael had to make his own decision.

Talon used that as an opportunity. "Alpha," he said. For the first time, there was real pressure in his voice. "Return."

Kael opened his eyes. "My pack may call me." Then he slowly looked at Talon. "But I did not become alpha to drag Blackthorn after fear. I will not lead a call made out of fear. If I return to Blackthorn, I will return because I have truly decided I must, not because the pack’s panic is pulling me back."

That answer created a murmur on the Blackthorn side. Elara saw the red light tremble slightly. The device was trying to pull Kael. The pack was too. But Kael’s own will stood between the two for the first time like a third line.

The second blow struck Rowan. Blue light rose from beneath his feet and climbed up to his throat. At first, he thought it was only Lucien’s border. But then other scents appeared on the western side of the forest. Familiar. Disciplined. Belonging to Rowan’s own pack. Lucien had not only called his own men. He had used the old family line to send a signal to Rowan’s pack too. This call did not shout. It did not command. It did something more dangerous. It reminded Rowan that he was not only Lucien’s brother, but also the Alpha of his own pack.

The first man to step out between the trees carried Lucien’s blue mark. But the ones who came behind him were Rowan’s border guards. Elara understood it from the small change in Rowan’s body. Lucien had cornered him not only with his own past, but also with the eyes of his own pack. Blackthorn was calling Kael. Rowan was being called by the silent question of his own pack. And this was exactly what the World Government wanted. To tear them away from Elara, they would use not love, but responsibility.

Rowan’s eyes rested on his own border guards for a brief moment. The moment he saw them, he understood how deliberate Lucien’s move was. Lucien was not only calling him to the childhood house, the bloodline, or the old family order. He was forcing him to make a decision in front of his own pack. Sometimes the place where an Alpha was left most bare was not the battlefield. It was the moment his own pack waited for him.

The young guard from Rowan’s pack stepped forward a few paces. "Alpha," he said. His voice was not loud, but it crossed through all the blue light in the clearing and reached Rowan. "We felt an unusual bond movement at the border. Then the call came." His gaze shifted to Elara without meaning to. He tried to hide it, but failed. "Lucien’s call."

Rowan’s voice remained calm. "Lucien is not your Alpha."

The young guard inclined his head slightly. "No. But the call came through your bloodline."

That answer silently opened an old door inside Rowan. Elara saw it. Rowan did not move. He did not step back. But that brief silence was a blow for him. Because this time, the matter was not only Lucien’s game. His own pack was here too, seeing whom he protected, whose side he stood on, and where this would drag the pack.

Lucien’s man used that silence. "The border knows you, Rowan. Blood calls you. Your pack is waiting for your answer too."

Rowan slowly turned his head toward him. "The border may know me. Blood may call me. My pack may wait for my answer." Then his gaze moved to his own guards. "But none of you can decide for me."

The blue light rippled for a moment.

This time, the World Government’s device released an even thinner sound. The frequency did not rise, but the pressure in Elara’s chest deepened. While the device tried to pull Kael toward his pack, Rowan toward his blood and his own pack, it now turned toward Elara. This blow did not come from the outside like the others. It began from within. The warmth of old Elara was pulled to one side, the cold power of the Moon Spirit to another. One whispered that she could still break, still fear, still go back. The other said she no longer needed any of that, that staying human would only bring weakness.

For a moment, Elara could not breathe.

Kael felt it. His instinct wanted to take him to Elara immediately. If he had been the old Kael, he would have stepped in front of her without thinking. He would have put her behind him and tried to hide her from the world with his own body. But this time, he stopped halfway through the step. He looked at Elara. Waited.

Rowan also remained still at the same time. The blue light around his wrist was still calling him toward his own pack and Lucien’s line. Even so, his eyes were on Elara. He waited too. This waiting was the hardest answer either of them had ever given. They wanted to help her. But they now knew that even help could become another chain when given without permission.

Elara’s lips parted. It took her a moment to find her voice. "Come."

Kael approached first. His hand did not settle on Elara’s waist, but on the lower part of her back, the point where he had once kept her in the world. His touch was warm and heavy. It was not to possess her, but to keep her from falling apart. Elara’s body trembled with that contact, but she did not pull back. The red line passed through her. This time it did not swallow her. It only reminded her that it was there.

Then Elara extended her wrist to Rowan. Rowan paused for one second. The hesitation was brief, but for Elara, it was enough. Because Rowan was learning not only how to touch, but also how to wait before touching. Elara inclined her head very slightly. Then Rowan placed his fingers against the inside of her wrist. His touch was cool. Fine. But the moment it reached Elara’s pulse, the blue light gathered the orange instead of scattering it.

Kael’s hand became a little steadier against her back. Rowan’s fingers did not leave her wrist. As Elara stood between them, she understood with her whole body how dangerous this was. This was not only a defense. This was the first real war of the bond accepted inside the border house. Kael was trying to stay beside her without owning her. Rowan was trying to hold her without guiding her. And Elara was learning to stand without letting either of their touch replace her own decision.

The sound of the device rose. One of the World Government soldiers shouted, "Energy is not stable."

Adrian’s voice came through the speaker of the vehicle. Cold and distant. "We do not want it stable. We want it separated."

That sentence opened another door inside Elara. The Moon Spirit rose all at once. The warmth of old Elara did not retreat this time. For the first time, the two stood in the same place without running from each other. Elara looked at the white device before her.

"You cannot separate me," she said.

Her voice was not loud. But every side in the clearing heard her.

Orange light spread from beneath her feet. The red and blue lights did not mix with it. They did not swallow one another. They only circled around it. The World Government’s device tried to imitate this order, but could not. Because this bond had not been formed by force. It was not a chain. It was not a command. It was not one-sidedly imposed by fate like a mate bond either. It was something harder, more alive, and more dangerous.

A chosen closeness.

The white ring of the device cracked.

The soldiers stepped back. The Blackthorn wolves shifted uneasily. Lucien’s men were startled enough to lose their order for the first time. The guards from Rowan’s own pack remained where they stood. Because they had not only seen a power burst. They had seen their Alpha stand beside Elara without stepping in front of her, but without leaving her side either. This was one of the hardest things for a pack to understand. Not an Alpha protecting. An Alpha fighting while respecting a choice.

Talon’s gaze caught on Kael’s hand resting against Elara’s back. This time, what he saw was not only a mate bond or an old possession. He saw Kael resisting the call of his own pack to remain where he stood. This was dangerous for Blackthorn. But maybe, for the first time in a long while, it looked like real leadership.

Adrian’s voice came again. This time, lower. "Begin the procedure for the fourth bond."

The light from one of the screens flashed in the darkness of the forest. Behind the orange, red, and blue lines, a fourth shadow appeared. It was somewhere between pale silver and black, a color like darkened moonlight. The line on the screen did not connect to the others. It did not circle around them. It watched them.

The Moon Spirit fell completely silent inside Elara. That silence frightened Elara more than the sound of the device. Her chest turned ice-cold. Because that fourth line was not Kael. It was not Rowan. It was not old Elara either.

It was the thing inside her.

And the World Government had finally found a way to reach it too.

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