Chapter 208: Sir, I need you to step outside

For a second, Julian just stared at her blankly like his brain refused to understand the words. "It’s too early," the doctor continued quickly.

Too early. The words echoed violently inside Julian’s head. "What?" he breathed. His chest rose and fell unevenly now.

"No... no that can’t happen." His eyes moved toward Amara immediately. She was crying. In pain. Terrified. And suddenly Julian felt completely helpless.

"How?" he asked brokenly. "How is this happening?"

"Sir, I need you to step outside." Julian barely heard the doctor. His eyes remained fixed on Amara. On her tears. On the fear written all over her face.

And then she looked at him, too. That look nearly destroyed him. Because beneath all the pain. Amara looked scared. Truly scared.

The nurses were already moving around quickly now, preparing equipment, checking monitors, speaking urgently among themselves. "Mr. Vale—"

"I’m not leaving her," Julian said instantly.

But the doctors were already trying to guide him backward. "We need space to examine her." Julian looked at the doctor. To Amara.

The door closed. And Julian stood there.

Just stood there, in the narrow corridor outside the VIP room, with his back against the wall and both hands pressed flat against it like the wall was the only thing holding him upright. Which, if he was being honest with himself, it was.

Inside, he could hear them. The doctors. The nurses. The swift, clipped language of people trained not to panic, which somehow made everything feel worse. More serious. Because calm professionals only used that tone when things were not calm. When things required the performance of calm to keep the room from tipping over into chaos.

He squeezed his eyes shut. Too early. Those two words just sat in the center of his chest as stones dropped into still water. Sinking. Rippling outward. Making everything around them tremble.

He had heard the doctor say it so matter-of-factly, too, like she was announcing the weather. Like she didn’t understand what those words were doing to him. Like she didn’t know what early had cost him before.

Julian opened his eyes.

The hallway was painfully ordinary. White walls. Fluorescent light humming just slightly above silence. A water dispenser near the nurses’ station that dripped every forty seconds, he knew, because he counted. Three drips. Four. Five. He was counting because if he stopped counting, he would think. And thinking right now felt like standing at the edge of something very dark and very deep.

Then Amara screamed.

Not loudly. Not the way people screamed in films, sharp and sudden and over. This was the other kind. The low, grinding kind that climbed slowly before it broke, the kind that came from somewhere deep and animal and honest. The kind that said I am trying to hold this together, and I am losing.

Julian’s jaw locked.

His hand found the door handle without him telling it to. His fingers wrapped around the cool metal automatically, the way a drowning man’s hand finds a rope not a decision. Just instinct. Just her. 𝗳𝐫𝚎𝗲𝚠𝚎𝗯𝕟𝐨𝘃𝚎𝗹.𝗰𝗼𝗺

But he didn’t open it.

Because he’d promised the doctor. Because he understood, somewhere rational and distant inside himself, that the best thing he could do for Amara right now was stay out of the way of the people trying to help her. He understood that. He did.

It didn’t make standing here feel any less like being buried alive. He let go of the handle. Pressed his back to the wall again.

And then he heard footsteps. Purposeful ones. The kind that belonged to someone who walked like the floor owed them something. He turned his head.

Madam Vale came around the corner.

She was dressed like she always was, perfectly. Not overdressed, never that, but assembled. Composed. Her coat was dark, and her heels struck the linoleum with quiet authority, and her silver hair was pinned back the way it always was, tight and deliberate, the way she kept everything about herself tight and deliberate.

She stopped when she saw him.

For a moment, neither of them said anything. Julian watched her eyes move to his face, to his hands still pressed against the wall, to the door of the room. She was reading the situation the way she always read everything. Efficiently. Cataloguing.

Then she walked toward him. "Julian."

Just his name. Nothing else. But the way she said it, quieter than her usual register, stripped of the thin authority she normally wore like a second coat, made something in his throat tighten.

"She’s in labor," he said. His voice came out rougher than he intended. "It’s early. They said it’s too early, and they’re ... they’re deciding whether she can..." He stopped. Swallowed. Started again. "They pushed me out."

Madam Vale looked at the door.

Her expression didn’t crack. It never cracked. But something shifted behind her eyes, something small and quick that Julian almost missed, and for just a moment she looked less like a woman in control of a room and more like a woman who was afraid.

Then Amara’s voice came through the door again, lower this time, exhausted, the scream fading into something that sounded almost like weeping.

"Mother, she is in there, and she is in pain, and I can’t ... I can’t do anything. Why am I not in there? I need to be with her."

He was already moving toward the door when he said it. Not asking. Not suggesting. His hand was back on the handle, and his shoulder was angled toward the frame, and every single part of him had made the decision even before his mouth had finished the sentence.

"Julian."

Madam Vale’s voice didn’t rise. It never did. That was the thing about her, she didn’t need volume. She had spent too many years being the kind of woman people listened to without being asked twice.

He stopped. Barely.

"You need to be strong," she said. She moved closer, not rushing, just closing the distance between them with the same measured composure she carried everywhere. "For her. What Amara is going through right now, it is not easy, it has never been easy, and it will never be easy. But it is what women do. Every woman who has ever brought a child into this world has gone through exactly this." She paused. "And they came through it."

Julian turned to look at her. His jaw was tight. His eyes were red at the edges.

"Your father," she continued, and something in her voice shifted almost imperceptibly, softer, just for a breath, was exactly where you are standing right now. When you were being born. He wore a hole in the floor outside the delivery room. Drove the nurses absolutely mad." The ghost of something not quite a smile, but its distant cousin, crossed her face.

"He was just as helpless. Just as restless. Just like you." Julian stared at her.