Chapter Sixty-Eight: Xiao Di

Upon hearing Yu Xiao Di’s words and seeing her expression, Li Yan felt a pang of heartache. He held her tightly, using the embrace to give her a sense of security. But when it came to future matters, even if he made a promise now, she would still be worried.

"Xiao Di, I won’t lose you! I won’t let myself lose you!" All he could do now was verbally promise, but like vows carved in stone, who could truly predict the future?

No matter what, his words represented his attitude, and Xiao Di listened with a heart full of joy. She whispered, "Since we won’t separate, there’s nothing wrong with being together now, right..."

As Li Yan held her tightly, he silently questioned himself. If he didn’t want to lose her, yet couldn’t give her more now, why not give her some peace of mind? Over the past few months, she had been walking a hard path, under immense pressure, and her ability to bear it was limited. Without giving her more strength, she might not be able to hold on!

Today was a special day for her; she wanted special memories. This was also her way of strengthening her conviction, so she wouldn’t persist just for an excuse to escape.

What am I worrying about?

Yurong? Feeling sorry towards her?

I have long been unfaithful, having been with Qiao Huanxuan, Li Jie, Hai Fu—all acts of unfaithfulness towards her.

Is it their agreement?

But the agreement is dead, and people are alive. Between their agreement and the enormous pressure Xiao Di is under, which should I choose?

Their agreement was only because Yurong was afraid Xiao Di would use her body to tie down his heart. Yet now, even without being intimate, hasn’t his heart already been captured by her? The result is the same, does the manner of the process matter? For Xiao Di, it’s not about wanting to take this shortcut to love, not about wanting to move Li Yan through physical intimacy, but about wanting to leave deep impressions on a beautiful birthday when she lacks a sense of security and fears the future for all three of them, and the pressures from all sides.

On the other hand, if it were Yurong making such a request now, would I be concerned about their agreement?

Li Yan found it difficult to answer himself. He guessed he would also meet the demand and not be bound by their agreement. Even if they step back, he and Xiao Di have already violated their agreement; after all, they had agreed not to let Li Yan know, but he already knew through questioning and her confirmation.

Thinking of this, Li Yan had made a decision. He released the embrace and sat up, looking at the dazed Yu Xiao Di, "Today, you’re the birthday star. Everything will be as you wish."

"What did you say?" Xiao Di was still reacting a bit slowly.

"Hehe, just like you said, make today, this special day, leap out of time and space, and not count it."

Upon hearing this, Xiao Di immediately understood and was overjoyed, almost wanting to cheer out loud. But then she felt it was too bold and looked at Li Yan with a bit of embarrassment.

"But just saying that feels like covering one’s ears while stealing a bell. If it leaks, this reason is just self-deception. Instead, let’s do it like I did when probing about your agreement, find a loophole?"

"How?"

"Your agreement is that within this year, you can’t have a sexual relationship with me, right?"

"Yes." Xiao Di replied softly.

Actually, she wasn’t very familiar with Zhang Yurong. Both were inexperienced girls and love rivals, and this agreement was only a vague oral agreement. Of course, it wasn’t as detailed as a lawyer-drafted contract, finding loopholes was easy. Even ’sexual relationship’ wasn’t explicitly emphasized, just stated as not going to bed or having a man-woman relationship.

Of course, everyone knew what that meant, but strictly speaking, if lying on the bed without doing anything was a problem, would it be okay on the carpet? And what is a man-woman relationship anyway? These are just colloquial approximations and can’t serve as official legal terms.

"So, you can’t make the first move. But if I force it on you, you’re helpless, right? Of course, you don’t have to resist." Li Yan chuckled softly.

Xiao Di couldn’t help but laugh, "Come on, that’s kind of self-deception too!"

Li Yan let out a light sigh, "Excuse or self-deception, what we can’t get past is our psychological barrier, isn’t it?"

"Yes." Xiao Di immediately spread her arms, "Come on! Force me!"

"..."

"Oh no! I’m so scared... I dare not resist, I have no strength left, I can’t resist..." Xiao Di shouted lines that were faker than anything while holding back laughter.

At this point, Li Yan couldn’t refuse. He got up and dimmed the lights a bit. 𝑓𝑟ℯ𝘦𝓌𝘦𝘣𝑛𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓁.𝑐ℴ𝓂

"No... I want to see you clearly." But Xiao Di pulled him back.

"Okay. Then I’ll throw the blanket too!" Li Yan tossed the blanket onto another bed.

Although Xiao Di was enthusiastic and always dreamed of pushing Li Yan down, she still felt a bit guilty now that it was actually happening. Especially when the blanket that could serve as a barrier was taken away, exposing her directly to Li Yan.

"I... I’m ready, come on!"

"Silly girl, no rush, I’ll take it slow." Li Yan lovingly smoothed her hair aside, then knelt at her sides, lowering his head to lightly kiss her forehead, tracing down her nose to her lips, and chin.

Xiao Di’s first kiss happened here, forcefully taken by him. Now, with plenty of kissing experience, facing Li Yan’s actions, she guessed this was the legendary foreplay. So she cooperatively closed her eyes, slightly parted her lips, and waited for his passionate kiss.

Yet Li Yan didn’t dive into a passionate kiss, after he passed her chin, gave a soft peck on her cheek, then moved to her neck... (Thanks to the sponsors on the 20th: dongmin8061, Most Love Tao Tao, Ding Chongchong, Li Fanshow, zjun971210, Deep Love in the Celestial River, Cp Pampas, Ajackson) (To be continued. If you’d like to know what happens next, please log in to www.qidian.com for more Chapters, support the author, and support legitimate reading!)