The V-tuber Who Became Obsessed With Me
Chapter 20: The first crack
She made it through.
I stayed with that longer than I expected after the surgeon left. The corridor was the same. Lights too bright. Air too cold. But the weight in my chest had shifted into something different. Not gone. Just changed shape.
Relief came first.
Then everything that followed it.
I leaned back and closed my eyes briefly.
Now what.
The question settled in quietly and stayed. The surgery was done, she was alive, and that should have been enough. But it wasn’t the end of anything. If anything it felt like the beginning of something heavier. Recovery. Bills. Everything I hadn’t had the space to think about yet.
My phone buzzed.
Raina.
"How is she?"
She made it through surgery.
A few seconds passed.
"I’m glad."
Something about the way she said things. No extra words. No performance. Just enough.
"Thank you, I typed and stared at it for a second longer than necessary."
It felt small for what she had done.
Three dots appeared, disappeared, came back.
"You don’t have to thank me."
I let out a quiet breath that almost became a smile.
Almost.
I was still looking at the screen when I heard footsteps. Steady. Unhurried.
I looked up.
She was already there.
"Raina."
"I wanted to see how you were doing," she said.
"You didn’t have to come."
"I know."
She sat beside me after a moment. Close enough that I could feel her presence without looking directly at her.
"You look exhausted," she said.
"I am."
"How is she?"
"Stable. That’s what they said."
"That’s good."
"It is."
The silence that followed wasn’t uncomfortable. It was the kind that comes when there is nothing left to explain.
"I don’t know what I would have done without you," I said after a while.
The words came out before I thought about them.
She didn’t respond immediately.
"You would have figured something out," she said.
"No." I said it quietly. "I wouldn’t have."
She didn’t argue.
When I glanced at her she was looking down at her phone, not using it, just holding it loosely like it gave her something to focus on.
"You okay?" I asked.
She looked up and there was a slight delay before she answered.
"I’m fine."
It didn’t land clean.
Her gaze shifted briefly past me toward the far end of the corridor then came back like nothing had happened.
"Raina."
"Yeah?"
"You sure?"
She smiled.
Convincing. But not effortless.
"I’m fine," she said again.
I let it go.
We sat for a few more minutes talking about things that didn’t matter enough to remember. Just filling space until there was nothing left to fill.
Eventually she stood.
"I should go."
"Yeah."
She paused like she was about to say something else. Then didn’t.
"Take care of yourself Ethan."
"I will."
She nodded once and left.
I watched her walk away not because I needed to but because something about her felt different and I couldn’t place what it was. Same composure. Same controlled movements. But underneath it something was sitting that had not been there the last time I saw her.
I didn’t know what it was.
I just knew it was there.
Somewhere across the city a man stepped out of Abe Lincoln International Airport.
He stopped just outside the sliding doors and reached into his coat. Unfolded a small piece of paper. His eyes stayed on it for a moment before he let out a quiet breath.
"Almost there."
He folded it again, slipped it back into his pocket and walked off into the crowd.
Two days later my phone rang.
I was on my feet before it finished.
When I pushed the hospital room door open she was awake.
"Mum."
Her head turned toward me slowly. When she saw me she smiled in that tired way that still managed to feel like home.
"Ethan."
I crossed the room without thinking.
"You’re awake."
"I told you I wasn’t going anywhere," she said, her voice softer than usual.
"You scared me."
"I’m sorry. I didn’t want you worrying."
"You don’t get to decide that," I said. There was no real weight behind it.
She reached for my hand and I took it.
"You’ve been working too hard," she said. "I didn’t want to add to it."
"You’re not something I add Mum."
She looked at me for a moment then sighed softly.
"I should have told you sooner."
"Yeah," I said. "You should have."
A pause.
"You lost a lot of weight" she said.
I let out a breath. "You just had open heart surgery and that’s what you’re focused on?"
"I’m still your mother."
That was the end of that conversation.
"I’ll be fine," she added. "You’ll see."
"I know," I said.
I stayed until her breathing evened out and the room settled into quiet. Then I stood and left.
By the time I got home the silence felt heavier than it should have.
I opened my laptop and pulled up Mr Zedd’s Abu Dahar campaign files. Something familiar. Something I could control. I had initial concepts due and sitting in this apartment doing nothing was not going to help anyone.
My phone buzzed.
Lumi♡Live is live.
I clicked before I thought about it.
"Hi everybody." Her voice filled the room. "Did you miss me?"
The chat exploded instantly. lumiLOVE ! lumiLOVE ! lumiLOVE !
"I know I’ve been gone for a bit," she continued, smiling in that easy way of hers. "I actually went overseas. I brought back a few things I thought would be fun to share with you."
I stopped moving.
Overseas.
She hadn’t mentioned anything. Not in any of our messages. Not at the hospital. Nothing.
I set the laptop aside and watched the stream properly.
"And there’s something else I’ve been working on," she said. "A big one."
I already knew what was coming.
"Our full visual overhaul is almost ready."
The chat reacted immediately. A split. Some excitement. Some pushback. People who had been watching her for years suddenly uncertain about change they hadn’t asked for.
She didn’t rush to defend it.
"I know it might feel sudden," she said. "And I understand why some of you might be unsure."
The tone in the chat shifted almost immediately. Resistance softening before it had fully formed.
"But I wanted to do something better for you. Something that feels more like us moving forward together."
There it was.
Not just her.
Us.
"I didn’t want to stay the same while all of you kept growing with me," she said, her voice dropping just enough to feel personal. "So trust me on this. Okay?"
And just like that the pushback dissolved. Messages shifted. Support replaced doubt in real time.
I leaned back in my chair and watched it happen.
I had handled rebrands before. Communities pushed back. They always did at first. It was a predictable cycle and there were standard ways to move through it.
But this wasn’t the reaction I had expected from the fans .
This was extraordinary. And lumi’s influence should not be underestimated.
I sat with that for a long moment while her voice kept running warm and easy through my room and her chat kept telling her how much they loved her and how much they trusted her and how they would follow her anywhere she decided to go.
I closed the stream.
The room felt quieter than it had before I opened it.