Jisung’s POV

Hyung has been for three hours now, and I’m getting scared, what if he has been taken by those people again?

Where do I start looking for him from?

My shoulders shake with the force of the sobs I’ve been trying to hold back, my chest is aching, my heart feels too heavy for my body and I’m crying under the moon.

I feel horrible.

My fight for him, my rebellion for him, my stand for him...everything feels like they have been flushed down the drain. I hurt his feeling when I know he’s still struggling from being kidnapped and abused.

I was only trying to protect him from getting hurt.

That bastard Hwang.

Who does he think he is to waltz in and steal my hyung from me? Who does he think he is to try and snatch him from me?

"Jisung? What are you doing out here?" Hyung’s voice snaps me out of my thoughts and I jump up from the patio floor, running to hug him but he takes a step back.

He looks better than he has looked in days...maybe he just needed fresh air? Moonlight?

"Hyung" I sob and his brightness dims a bit, he searches my face and places his hand on my cheek, the place he slapped me.

It stung then, but his touch wipes it all away.

"Oh Sung, I’m sorry for hitting you" he says and my shoulders fall as another sob rocks my body, I don’t care about that right now, I only care about him, I’m only worried about my hyung.

Did any of those Hwang dogs hurt him again?

"Hyung, I offended you, I shouldn’t have" I say, bowing my head and he cups both of my cheeks, looking me in the eyes.

"I know, I know you didn’t mean to cross me, but I also shouldn’t have hit you like that, you were only worried for me" he says, he is still the same Yeon hyung, the same soft voice, tender look...still my first love.

"I don’t want to lose you again, hyung, you mean the world to me" I say to him, still crying like a baby and disturbing the neighborhood silence with my sobs.

We are surrounded by trees and the noises of animals, but I still hold him dear, still don’t want to let go of him for anything.

"I’m sorry...Sungie" he says, he looks sad and when I try to touch him, he moves away from me, "why won’t you- why won’t you let me touch you?" I ask him with all my insecurities obvious.

"I’m...I got tattoos" he says and it reminds me of the one sitting on my chest, just his name, Yeon, simple and heavy at the same time.

"Tattoos, will you show me?" I ask, wiping my tears off with the back of my hand and he smiles, "of course, I’ll show them to you later" hyung says.

"Hyung, I love you" I blurt out without thinking and he stares at me for a second.

Silence.

Just silence, crickets in the grass, and the revving of an engine in the distance.

His eyes soften as he gives me a response; "I know, I love you too" he says to me a sad voice, and my heart clenches.

That’s not what I mean, fuck, that’s not what I want.

"No, I love you like a lover" I say with agony in my voice and he doesn’t say a word, he just pulls me closer, and press his nose to mine like he used to when we younger.

When we were just Yeon, the older one who takes care of everyone, and Jisung, the younger one who adores his hyung.

He’s rejecting me.

"P-please, hyung, let me love you, I am grown and I can protect you" I cry into his face, he kisses my cheek, standing on his tiptoe to kiss under my eye.

"Hyung" I choke out the title and he doesn’t respond still, that’s when I catch a whiff of that boy on him, that Hwang.

"Is it because of him? You’re rejecting me because of him?" I ask, my throat is closing up as my breathing comes out with difficulty.

"Jisung, breathe, I’m not rejecting your love...I’m just telling you, there will be someone better" he says and I separate myself from him.

"Someone better? Better than you? Where?" I yell.

I don’t mean to yell, but I do and hyung steps back from me...hell, I’m doing it again, I’m scaring him.

"Jisung, please calm down" he says and I turn around to run off into the night, needing to be away from him.

He doesn’t even know that boy, he knows me better than anyone else, he knows I will die for him and will kill for him...still he’s choosing a stranger!

Kill for him...maybe I should.

With a growl, I change my route, I know that the Hwangs are staying at the town’s only hotel for their visit.

I’ll kill him!

As soon as I get to the hotel, the guards block my path, stopping me from getting in, maybe it’s because I’m notorious for my temper, but I need to get in.

"Hwang! Get out here!" I roar, pushing against the guards, "you can’t steal from me and get away with it!" I yell again and the guard pushes me back.

"Hey, kid! Behave yourself" the biggest one of them says and I stand my ground, meaning to fight till I get what I want, I want that Hwang boy to pay.

"Get that Hwang boy out here and I’ll leave" I say, seeing red and one of the guards laughs at me, "Hanuel isn’t here, he ran out a while ago, now get lost" he says.

Where can he possibly go?

With most of the energy gone out of me, I turn around and start to run back home, I don’t know how long I ran for but when I stop in front of my home.

What I meet makes me regret leaving hyung alone.