Young Master's Pov: I Am The Game's Villain
Chapter 30: The Southern Cloister
The letter arrived at the third bell of the morning.
It was the third letter I had received in three days, which was — by the small careful accounting I had been building of the academy’s correspondence rhythm — three more than the original Cedric Valdrake had received in his first three weeks at the institution. The original Cedric had not been a correspondent. The original Cedric had treated written communication as the small administrative tax of a noble who preferred to issue instructions in person, and the original Cedric’s chamber had accumulated, by every account in the wiki’s social-history archive, a small respectable pile of unopened letters from minor houses seeking the favor of his attention.
I was a different correspondent.
I was a different correspondent because I was running an operation, and an operation required information, and information arrived in this academy in small folded squares of parchment delivered by porters who knew my name and the names of the people who wrote to me. Cira had now delivered four. The thin young woman whose name I had asked at the seventh bell of yesterday evening — who had answered without hesitation, who had not, by any small visible signal, indicated that the question had been unusual — was now the recurring face at my door, and the recurring face was the small institutional permanence I had been quietly building into the eastern corridor of the third floor.
She presented the letter at the third bell on a wooden tray.
"Young Master Valdrake."
"Yes, Cira."
"A letter for your attention. Courier priority. The seal is the Headmaster’s office."
I did not, on hearing this, react.
The not-reacting was the small precise discipline I had been training in for ten days now, and the discipline served me here because a Tower letter arriving twenty-eight hours after my private meeting with the Headmaster was not the kind of thing the original Cedric would have flinched at — the original Cedric would have accepted the letter with the small bored courtesy of a Zenith heir who received Tower correspondence as a matter of routine — and the not-flinching was the cost of remaining in character at the door of my own quarters at the third bell of a Wednesday morning.
I took the letter.
I thanked Cira.
She inclined her head.
She withdrew.
I closed the door.
—
The letter was four lines.
*Young Master Valdrake. The Southern Cloister at the fifth bell. The route is the small garden walk through the eastern archway, descending the western stair to the lower terrace, and following the cloister’s outer path to its third arcade. The guide is not required. Bring no attendant. — O.*
I read it twice.
I read it twice and then I sat at the desk for the count of perhaps a minute, in the small careful way I had been sitting at the desk for two days now, and I considered the four lines in the small precise way I had been considering all of Headmaster Orvyn’s communications since the meeting in the upper tower.
The letter was not a summons.
The letter was an *invitation.*
The distinction was a specific one. A summons used the formal Tower seal, the formal Tower language, and the formal Tower instruction — *the Headmaster requests your presence,* in the small precise neutrality of a senior aide’s voice. An invitation used the Headmaster’s *private* mark — the small lowercase *O,* unaccompanied by any institutional indicator — and the invitation language was the language of a man writing to a man.
The Headmaster had, by the choice of an invitation rather than a summons, told me three things.
The first was that the meeting was not, by the institution’s record, taking place. The Tower’s formal correspondence ledger would not list it. The eastern dormitory’s porter-station archive — which logged every Tower summons in the small bound book that the Senior Porter inspected weekly — would not list it either. The meeting was, in the institutional sense, an event that would not exist.
The second was that the location had been chosen for a reason that was not procedural. The Southern Cloister of Astral Zenith Academy was, by the wiki’s architectural archive, a fourteenth-century structure on the southern face of the central island — a small covered walkway built around three sides of a terraced garden that had been planted in the academy’s first century and that had been maintained, by the institution’s gardening staff, for the better part of four hundred years. It was not, by any reading I could give it, a location the Headmaster typically used for private conversations. The Headmaster typically used the upper tower. The Southern Cloister was — by the small careful logic of a man who had selected it deliberately — a location chosen for a reason specific to the conversation.
The third thing was the *time.*
The fifth bell of the morning at the Southern Cloister was not, by the academy’s calendar, a time the institution used for any scheduled activity. The Cloister was, by the wiki’s social-history archive, the location of the academy’s First Founders’ Day memorial — held annually at the fifth bell of the spring equinox, attended by the senior faculty and a small invited delegation of historians from the eastern Empire’s universities. The annual memorial was the only event the Cloister was used for. Every other hour of every other day of every year for four hundred years, the Cloister had been empty.
It would be empty at the fifth bell of this morning.
It would be empty except for the Headmaster.
It would be empty except for the Headmaster, who had selected an empty cloister at an empty hour and had invited the academy’s Valdrake heir — by the small private mark of his lowercase signature — to meet him there for a conversation the institutional record would not catalogue.
I made my face do nothing.
I checked the time.
The fifth bell was ninety minutes away.
I had enough time to walk the route slowly.
—
The route the Headmaster had described in the letter was specific. *The small garden walk through the eastern archway, descending the western stair to the lower terrace, and following the cloister’s outer path to its third arcade.* It was not the most direct path from the eastern dormitory to the Southern Cloister. The most direct path was a single corridor through the central tower’s ground floor, which the Tower aides used for their daily rounds. The path the Headmaster had specified was a longer route through the academy’s secondary architecture — the small garden walks, the lower terraces, the older arcades — that the institution’s senior faculty had been using, by the wiki’s footnote, since the academy’s founding for the small private movements they did not wish to be observed making.
I walked the route at the fourth bell.
I walked it slowly.
The eastern archway opened onto a small enclosed garden — a square of stone-paved walkways and low hedges, perhaps thirty paces across, that the academy’s gardening staff maintained as one of the small ornamental spaces the institution provided for senior students who had reached the privilege of solitary contemplation. The garden was empty at the fourth bell. The hedges had been recently trimmed. The autumn light fell through the eastern wall’s high windows in the small pale rectangles that an old institution’s old architecture had been designed for four hundred years ago.
I crossed the garden.
I descended the western stair.
The stair was older than the dormitory I had been sleeping in. The stone treads had been worn smooth in the centers by the small accumulation of footfall over four centuries — the small specific concavity of stone that the wiki had documented as a marker of *Senior Faculty Stair One,* the original stair of the academy’s first administrative tower, preserved as a heritage structure when the central tower had been rebuilt in the seventh century. I walked down the stair in the small careful way the original Cedric would have walked down it — not because the original Cedric would have walked down this stair, the original Cedric had no reason to use the route, but because the body had been training, in the past ten days, to walk every stair in the manner the Valdrake protocol required, and the body had learned the manner well enough that walking it now was a matter of small unconscious muscle memory.
The lower terrace was warmer than the upper.
I had not expected this. The terrace was on the southern face of the central island — exposed to the autumn sun in a way the eastern dormitory was not — and the temperature differential was, by the small careful body-mechanics of an F-rank circulation, perhaps three degrees. The body registered the warmth. The body had not, in ten days, registered warmth as anything other than a calculation. The body registered it now as a small specific pleasure that the calculation had not prepared me for.
I crossed the lower terrace.
I followed the cloister’s outer path.
The Southern Cloister was, by the wiki’s architecture, three covered walkways arranged around three sides of a terraced garden. The fourth side — the southern side, facing outward toward the cliff edge and the long autumn light over the lowland road — was open. The garden itself was lower than the cloister’s stone floor by the depth of perhaps three steps, descending into a small sunken oval of pale gravel and low ornamental plantings that the academy’s gardening staff had been maintaining for the better part of four centuries.
I reached the third arcade.
The Headmaster was already there.
He was standing at the southern edge of the cloister, where the open side faced the cliff and the lowland road, in the small private posture of an old man watching the autumn light come up over the road below. He had not, at my arrival, turned. He was wearing the same dark academic robes he had worn in the upper tower two days ago. He had no aide. He had no attendant. He had, by every small visible signal, arrived at the Cloister alone.
I crossed the third arcade.
I stopped at five paces.
I did not, in the small careful protocol of a Zenith heir meeting the Headmaster in a location the institutional record would not catalogue, speak first.
He turned.
He looked at me for the count of perhaps three seconds.
He gestured — a small careful gesture of his left hand, downward and slightly to his right — at the low stone bench that ran the length of the cloister’s southern edge.
"Sit, Young Master Valdrake."
I sat.
He remained standing.
He returned, in the small careful way an old man returned to the posture he had been holding before he had been interrupted, to his contemplation of the autumn light over the lowland road. The road was visible, from this terrace, as a thin pale line winding down the cliff face and out across the lowlands toward the eastern Empire’s broader continental grid. The light on the road at this hour was the small pale gold of an autumn morning that had not yet decided whether to be warm.
He spoke without looking at me.
"Your mother walked this cloister."
I did not, on hearing this, respond.
I did not respond because there was no response that the small careful protocol of this meeting permitted. The Headmaster had not asked a question. He had stated a fact. The fact was, by the small precise reading I gave it, the *purpose* of the meeting — the Headmaster had brought me to the Southern Cloister because my mother had walked it, and the bringing was the small specific gift he had judged me ready, at the third bell of this morning, to receive.
He continued.
"She was a third-year student here when she walked it. She walked it most often at the fifth bell of the morning. She walked it, by the small private record I kept of her movements when I was a younger man and she was the most promising student of her cohort, in the small careful pace of a young woman who had decided that the academy was the place she could think most clearly. She thought, by the small evidence of her academic record, most clearly in this cloister. She wrote her third-year dissertation on the cloister’s bench — the bench you are now sitting on — across a period of approximately seven months."
A pause.
"The dissertation was on Aether-circulation anomalies in low-rank cores. It was the best third-year dissertation I had read in twenty years."
He turned, finally.
He looked at me.
His pale-gray eyes — the same pale-gray eyes that had locked the Ledger out of the upper tower two days ago, the same eyes that had given me her name at the door of his office — held mine across the empty cloister.
"The reason I have brought you here, Young Master Valdrake, is that she would have wanted me to. She would not, if she were alive, have asked me to bring you. She would have asked me to leave you alone, in the small careful courtesy of a mother who would have respected the privacy of a son who was finding his own way through a complicated inheritance. But she is not alive, and the courtesy is therefore mine to decline, and I have decided to decline it this morning."
A pause.
"She loved this place. She thought best here. She wrote her best thoughts here. She is, by the small private accounting of an institution that has known her longer than you have, present here in the small careful way that places carry the people who have loved them."
A pause.
"Sit, Young Master Valdrake. Think your own thoughts. Use the bench. I will not, in this hour, ask anything else of you."
He inclined his head.
He turned.
He walked, in the small slow careful pace of an old man who had said what he had decided to say and was now leaving the cloister to the use of the visitor he had invited, back along the cloister’s outer path, through the lower terrace, up the western stair, and out of my sight.
I sat on the bench.
I did not, for the count of perhaps fifteen minutes, do anything else.
The autumn light over the lowland road moved, in the small slow careful way the light always moved at the fifth bell of an autumn morning, across the pale stone of the cloister’s southern edge.
Somewhere on this bench, twenty-three years ago, a young woman had written the best third-year dissertation Headmaster Orvyn Thales had read in twenty years.
She had been, by the small precise mathematics, two years older than I currently was.
She had not yet been my mother.
She had been a student.
She had been a student in an academy that had not, at the time, known what she would become.
She had been, by the small careful inference I was now permitting myself to make, a young woman in approximately the position I was in this morning — a person sitting on a bench in an academy that had not yet decided what to make of her, thinking thoughts that nobody else in the institution had thought, writing them down in the small private record that history had not yet noticed.
She had become, eventually, my mother.
She had become, eventually, dead.
The intervening twenty-three years were, by every account in the Valdrake archive I had not yet been permitted to read, a story I did not yet know.
I did not, for fifteen minutes, weep. I did not weep because the body had been trained, in three weeks at the Valdrake estate and ten days at the academy, not to weep in spaces that the institution’s small careful surveillance could potentially observe. The Southern Cloister was, by the wiki’s architecture, not surveilled. The Headmaster had selected the location precisely because it was not surveilled. But the body did not know this. The body had been trained too well.
I did not weep.
I sat on her bench, in the small private hour the Headmaster had given me, and I thought about a woman I had never met whose name I had learned at the door of a tower two days ago — Liriel, who had liked the southern gardens, who had thought best on this stone, who had been the most promising student of her cohort, who had written her best thoughts in the pale autumn light of a fifth-bell morning twenty-three years ago — and the not-weeping was, by the small careful accounting that nobody in this cloister would see, the only honest response I could produce in the small careful hour the Headmaster had given me.
In the corner of my vision, the Ledger pulsed once.
[The Villain’s Ledger]
[Note: The Headmaster has, by this morning’s invitation, given you a piece of inheritance the wiki did not document, the system did not catalogue, and the institutional record will not retain.]
[Note: The piece of inheritance is your mother.]
[Note: The system has decided not to comment further. The system has, in the careful absence of further comment, given you the rest of the hour.]
The panel closed.
I sat on the bench.
The wind was on my left.
The autumn light moved across the pale stone.
I stayed.