[BL] Bound to My Enemy: The Billionaire Who Took My Girl-Chapter 175: Fading Light - End of Volume One

NOAH

The television was a low, melodic murmur in the background, a cacophony of Spanish strings and dramatic gasps that usually would have held my rapt attention.

I was mid-sentence, gesturing with one hand while the other was pinned beneath the duvet, explaining exactly why the protagonist’s sister was making a catastrophic mistake by trusting the mysterious gardener.

"And see, that’s the thing about Alejandro," I said, leaning toward Cassian. "He’s too handsome to be just a gardener. Nobody with cheekbones like that spends eight hours a day pruning roses for a living. It’s a classic misdirection. You agree, right?"

Silence.

I frowned, turning my head. Cassian’s head was tilted back against the pillows, his eyes closed. His breathing had transitioned from the sharp, controlled rhythm of our conversation into something deep, even, and heavy.

"Cassian?" I whispered.

Nothing. Not even a twitch of an eyelid.

I blinked, a wave of mild offense washing over me. Did he just fall asleep on me? I looked back at the screen, where Alejandro was currently staring intensely at a rosebush, and then back at the man beside me. I had been giving a masterclass in narrative tropes, and the CEO of XUM had simply checked out. The audacity was truly staggering.

But as I sat there, the offense slowly drained away, replaced by a quiet, mounting curiosity. His arm was still looped loosely around my waist, a heavy, warm weight that didn’t loosen even as his consciousness slipped away. He was holding onto me in his sleep, a tether that felt both possessive and oddly vulnerable.

I shifted slightly, making sure he was actually asleep and not just playing some high-stakes game of psychological chicken. He didn’t stir.

For the first time since I’d met him, the sharp, jagged edges of Cassian Wolfe were gone.

The watchfulness that usually defined his face... that predatory, calculating gaze that made everyone in a room feel like they were being measured for a suit or a coffin, had vanished.

His jaw, usually set in a line of rigid granite, was relaxed. His lips were slightly parted, and his hair, stripped of its product and precision, fell across his forehead in soft, dark arcs.

I looked at him, and the word hit me before I could filter it.

Human.

He looked human. Not a billionaire, not a murderer, not a boss, and certainly not a ghost. Just a man whose body had finally demanded the rest his mind usually refused him.

And then, as I kept looking, a second word followed the first, unbidden and dangerous.

Beautiful.

I winced internally, my brain immediately trying to scramble for a different adjective. Handsome? Sure. Striking? Definitely. But beautiful was a word for things that were precious.

Things you wanted to protect. Things that had no business being associated with a man who probably had a high-capacity firearm within arm’s reach at all times.

But it was true. Up close, without the armor of his status, he was devastating. I traced the line of his nose, the obscene length of his eyelashes, and the way the shadows of the late afternoon light caught the sharp angle of his cheekbones.

He looked like something carved out of marble by a master who understood that true beauty required a touch of cruelty.

Okay, I thought, staring at the ceiling for a moment. That’s a new one. I called him beautiful. In my head. To myself. That’s fine. Everything is fine. I’m just having a very intense reaction to the lighting.

Except it wasn’t the lighting. There was a warmth in my chest that had been spreading for weeks, a quiet, persistent fire that I’d been trying to drown in logic and denial.

It wasn’t the sharp, electric thrill of lust—though God knows that was there, too—it was something slower. Something deeper. And infinitely more dangerous.

I like him, I admitted to the empty room. Then, a heartbeat later: No. Not just like.

I stopped that thought immediately. I slammed a mental door on it and locked it with every rationalization I had left.

This man was a criminal. He was my boss. This entire situation was a temporary arrangement born out of a chaotic week in Spain and a lot of adrenaline.

It’s just oxytocin, I told myself, feeling very smug about my scientific approach. I did something I’ve never done before, with a man I’ve never been with before.

My brain is just confused by the chemical cocktail. It’s a biological reaction to getting... well, to last night. It doesn’t mean anything.

It was a very convincing argument. I almost believed it. But then I remembered the way I’d felt at the bar in the villa, before we’d even touched. I remembered the way I’d looked for him in a room full of people. I remembered the way I’d kissed him first.

Logic was a useless shield against the way my heart was currently thudding against my ribs.

I looked back at him, unable to help myself. He was so defenseless. This man, who made grown executives tremble and world leaders sweat, was sleeping peacefully next to me.

It felt like a privilege I shouldn’t have been granted. How many people had seen him like this? Soft? Unguarded? Trusting enough to close his eyes and let the world go?

Did he trust me? Or was he just that exhausted?

My hand moved before I could stop it. My fingertips reached out, barely brushing the hair away from his forehead.

It was soft... surprisingly soft. It was always so slicked back and controlled during the day, but now it felt like silk against my skin.

Okay, I’m touching his hair, I thought, my internal monologue reaching peak cringe. This is normal.

This is completely normal behavior. Absolutely nothing weird about touching a sleeping man’s hair like a Victorian orphan.

I did it again anyway.

Then, I leaned in just a fraction. I could smell him... not just the expensive, dark cologne that usually clung to his suits, but something warmer. Something that was just him.

His skin smelled like safety. It was an absurd thought. Nothing about Cassian Wolfe was safe. He was a landslide. He was a storm. But here, in the quiet of this room, with his arm around me, "safe" was the only word that fit.

I took a deep inhale, my eyes closing involuntarily as I breathed him in. 𝕗𝚛𝚎𝚎𝐰𝗲𝗯𝗻𝚘𝚟𝚎𝗹.𝕔𝐨𝕞

Then, I snapped back, my eyes flying open. I just sniffed him. I literally sniffed a sleeping person like a weird, creepy, deeply pathetic dog.

I cringed so hard I almost fell out of the bed.

Okay, so I have officially become a pervert. This man has turned me into a hair-touching, person-sniffing pervert in record time. Thanks, Cassian. Add ’ruining my dignity’ to the list of your crimes.

I was still internally berating myself when a sound shattered the quiet.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

I jolted, my heart leaping into my throat. I fumbled for my phone on the nightstand, dropping it once, then grabbing it and desperately hitting the silent button. I froze, checking Cassian. He barely stirred, his breathing remaining deep and steady.

I looked at the screen.

Mom.

The picture was a bright, smiling photo of her from last Christmas. The familiar number felt like a cold splash of water, instantly extinguishing the warmth of the room.

I knew exactly how that call would go. If I picked up, I would hear her voice... half-worried, half-reproachful. Noah, where are you? Your father is upset. You need to come home. You need to apologize for missing dinner. You always do this. Why can’t you just be more like Nick? You’re being selfish, Noah. You’re being disappointing. Come home and fix it.

It was a script I’d been reading from my entire life. The pattern was etched into my DNA: I would do something that deviated from the plan, my family would be upset, I would feel the crushing weight of their disapproval, and I would apologize until I was allowed back into the fold.

Usually, the urge to answer was a physical pull, a desperate need to earn back the approval I’d lost. I searched for that feeling now. I looked for the panic, the guilt, the frantic desire to make it right.

But it wasn’t there. Or if it was, it was so faint I could barely hear it over the sound of the television.

Something had shifted. Between the gunshots in Spain, the deals made in dark offices, and the man sleeping beside me, the version of Noah Bennett who lived for his parents’ approval was fading. I didn’t want to go home and apologize for existing. I didn’t want to explain why I wasn’t like Nick.

I looked at Cassian.

I want to stay here, I admitted, the thought both terrifying and liberating. I want to stay with him. For a little longer.

Was that okay? Was it normal to want something messy and dangerous and fundamentally "wrong" more than you wanted the comfort of the familiar? Maybe it was. Maybe wanting someone to stay, even when they scared you, was just part of being human.

I watched the screen as the call timed out, the name "Mom" disappearing to show a missed call notification. Then, I turned the phone face down. Not forever, but for right now. Just for tonight, I was choosing this. I was choosing me.

I moved carefully, sliding back down into the bed, trying not to wake him. I settled against his side, my head finding its place against the hard, warm expanse of his chest. I could hear his heartbeat... steady, slow, and real.

Suddenly, Cassian moved.

It was a subtle, unconscious shift. His arm, which had been resting loosely around me, tightened. He pulled me closer, tucking my body firmly against his, his chin resting near the top of my head. He didn’t wake up. His breathing didn’t change. It was a pure, animal instinct.

In his sleep, he was reaching for me.

My heart hammered against my ribs, fast and loud. The warmth I’d been trying to fight flooded back, overwhelming every defense I had left.

He pulled me closer, I thought, the realization hitting me with the force of a physical blow. He didn’t even know he did it, and he still wanted me closer.

I lay there, perfectly still, staring at the dark patterns on the ceiling.

The afternoon light was fading, turning the room into a study of shadows and grays.

The television murmured on, a story of love and betrayal that felt small compared to the silent, massive thing happening in this bed.

I closed my eyes, listening to the rhythm of his heart beneath my ear.

Yeah, I thought, a small, tired smile touching my lips as I finally let the last of the resistance go. I’m in trouble. I’m in real, deep, permanent trouble.

But as I felt the weight of his arm around me and the steady heat of his body, I realized I didn’t want to be anywhere else.

I let my eyes close, the exhaustion of the last forty-eight hours catching up to me once again. My hand rested on his chest, my fingers curling slightly into his T-shirt.

Outside, the world was complicated and cold and full of people who wanted us to be something we weren’t. But here, in the fading light, there was just the quiet, the warmth, and the two of us.

And for now, that was enough.