[BL] Bound to My Enemy: The Billionaire Who Took My Girl-Chapter 191: The Perfect Son

At 5:00 PM, my pager screamed. It was a violent sound, urgent and demanding. A post-op complication in the ICU. I was already moving before I’d even finished reading the room number.

The ICU was where the pressure became physical. Everyone, the nurses, the residents, the frantic family members, watched me when I walked in.

They were waiting for the Word.

They assume I was invincible, that I always had the answer, that my hands will always be the ones to snatch a life back from the edge.

I reviewed the labs, ordered a STAT imaging series, and adjusted the vent settings. The pressure was relentless. Mistakes felt like they’ve been rendered impossible for me; the world had decided I was perfect, and now I had to live in the cage of that expectation.

Nicholas Bennett could do no wrong. 𝑓𝘳𝑒𝑒𝓌𝘦𝘣𝘯ℴ𝑣𝘦𝑙.𝘤𝑜𝑚

I was heading back to my office when a hospital administrator intercepted me.

"Dr. Bennett, do you have a moment?"

He was smiling too broadly. He was too friendly. The "moment" turned into a ten-minute pitch for a fundraiser.

"Your story is so inspiring, Nicholas. The board specifically requested you. It would mean so much to the donors."

I’m not a circus animal, I thought, my jaw aching from the effort of not snarling. I’m not a prop for your endowment gala.

"I’ll check my schedule," I said, my voice agreeable and perfect.

The administrator walked away satisfied. He got his "yes," or at least a polite "maybe" that he’d turn into a "yes" by tomorrow. I stood there in the hallway, hating the air I was breathing, hating the floor beneath my feet.

Then came the paperwork. The part of medicine they don’t put in the recruitment brochures. My desk was a graveyard of charts and documentation. For two hours, I wrote, I typed, I signed.

I became a surgeon to do surgery. To find the one place in the world where I could be focused and quiet. But fifty percent of the job was this, the soul-crushing bureaucracy of insurance codes and legal liability.

6:00 PM turned into 7:00 PM. The hospital began to quiet down, the shift change humming in the background.

Technically, I was off. Realistically, I was still there. Perfectionism was a disease; I couldn’t leave until I’d double-checked the evening labs for my morning cases. Someone might need me. I can’t let there be a crack in the armor.

The exhaustion was hitting harder now. I’d been awake since 5:30 AM, running on caffeine and resentment. My eyes burned, and my head felt like it was being squeezed in a vise.

At 7:30 PM, my phone buzzed. A text from Evelyn Carmichael.

On-call room 4. 10 minutes.

No preamble. There never is. I shouldn’t go. I know exactly how many levels of "wrong" this is, professional, ethical, personal. And yet, I found myself walking through the empty, dimly lit hallways toward the service wing.

The on-call room was a sterile, clinical box. A bed barely big enough for one person, a small desk, the faint smell of industrial detergent. It was perfect for this.

Evelyn was already there. She was still in her business clothes, a sharp, tailored suit that screamed authority. Her hair was perfect. Her lipstick was a precise, blood-red line. She looked like a woman who had never made a mistake in her life.

Except for this.

The kiss was immediate and urgent. It wasn’t romantic; it was a collision. We didn’t undress fully, there was no time, and frankly, no desire for that kind of vulnerability. It was just a need for friction. A pressure valve.

The sex was quiet and intense, the only sounds the rustle of fabric and our synchronized, shallow breathing.

It wasn’t about intimacy.

I didn’t want to know her, and she certainly didn’t want to know me. This was grounding in the way that pain is grounding.

After a day of being congratulated for being a "hero," after watching people nearly die, after the suffocating weight of my father’s expectations, this hollow, ugly encounter was the only thing that felt honest.

It was two people using each other because it’s easier than feeling the void.

Afterwards, the silence returned. We got dressed in the dark, not looking at each other. There were no "goodbyes," no "when will I see you again." She left first, slipping out the door with the practiced ease of a ghost.

I sat on the edge of the narrow bed, still in my scrubs, and felt... nothing. Just an immense, echoing emptiness.

This doesn’t mean anything, I told myself. To either of us.

I pulled my phone out. More messages.

My mother: Are you still at the hospital? You work too hard. Have you eaten? Noah still hasn’t responded. I’m worried about him. Can you please check on your brother?

A sharp spike of irritation flared in my chest. I’m not his keeper. He’s twenty-six. Let him drown or swim on his own.

I’ll text him, I typed, knowing full well I wouldn’t. I didn’t care enough to even pretend.

Then, my father: Excellent work today. Dr. Carmichael mentioned you. Keep it up. Remember: perfection isn’t a goal, it’s a standard. Don’t slip.

When have I ever slipped? I thought, my fingers hovering over the screen. When have you ever let me be anything less than a machine?

I didn’t respond. I couldn’t. I was too angry, too tired, too hollow.

I needed air. Real air, not the recycled, filtered breath of the sick.

I took the service elevator to the top floor. Technically, the roof was off-limits to everyone but maintenance, but I had attending privileges and a badge that opened doors.

The heavy metal door groaned as I pushed it open. The night air was cold and clean, a shock to my system that finally felt like something real. I walked to the edge of the gravel-covered roof and pulled out a pack of cigarettes.

I lit one, my hands shaking slightly, not from the cold, but from the sheer vibratory frequency of my own nerves. I took a deep drag, holding the smoke in my lungs before exhaling it slowly into the dark.

The irony wasn’t lost on me. A surgeon, a man whose entire "brand" is built on health and precision, standing on a roof wrecking his lungs. I didn’t care. I needed the nicotine to steady the tremor in my soul.

I looked out over the city. Thousands of lights. Thousands of people living their small, messy, "unsuccessful" lives. They were probably laughing. They were probably loving someone for real. They were probably happy.

Stupid, maybe. But happy.

An unexpected, unwelcome wave of envy washed over me. I’d trade it all. I’d trade the reserved parking spot, the governor’s wife, the accolades, the expensive car, all of it. Just to feel something that wasn’t performance. Just to be something other than a perfect lie.

I was empty. I had been empty for years. I was the perfect son, the perfect doctor, the perfect hero. And I had nothing. I was nothing but the sum of other people’s expectations.

I hated them. My mother, my father, I hated them for making me this. For never asking what I wanted. For making "perfection" mandatory.

And I hated everyone else for expecting it now. For watching me and assuming I had it all, when in reality, my interior life was a scorched-earth wasteland.

The city continued to move below, indifferent to the "Miracle Surgeon" standing on the roof.

My phone buzzed in my pocket.

I pulled it out, the screen glaringly bright in the darkness. A text from hospital administration.

Dr. Bennett, department leadership meeting in 10 minutes. Conference room B. Your presence is requested.

I looked at my cigarette. It was only half-finished. I dropped it onto the gravel and crushed it under the toe of my expensive shoe.

I exhaled the last bit of smoke into the night air and watched it disappear.

Here we go again, I thought.

I turned back toward the heavy metal door. I fixed my expression. I straightened my shoulders. I felt the mask slide back into place, effortless, smooth, the result of years of practice.

By the time the elevator doors opened on the lower floor, I was Dr. Nicholas Bennett again. The attending surgeon. The hero. The perfect man.

I walked toward Conference Room B, my stride confident and steady. I opened the door and offered a small, humble smile to the room full of people waiting for me.

"Sorry to keep you waiting," I said.