It's Not Easy to Be a Man After Travelling to the Future (WN)-Chapter 1475 - Irresolute And Hesitan

“i’ve been waiting for you for a long time.” li lanfeng, who was the devil of han jijyun’s heart, seemed to be waiting for this day to come.

“that’s why i’m here now,” han jijyun replied calmly.

“do you have the confidence to beat me now?” li lanfeng smiled slightly. it was a gentle smile but to han jijyun, it was glaring.

“actually, you’re not that strong!” han jijyun emphasised every single word he said.

“actually, you’re not as confident as you think.” li lanfeng was calm.

han jijyun’s expression changed slightly. he suddenly realised that the li lanfeng produced by the devil of his heart understood him better than the real li lanfeng.

“is that weird?” li lanfeng smiled.

han jijyun looked at him silently. he didn’t want to be led on by li lanfeng’s words.

“you’ve forgotten…” li lanfeng suddenly disappeared in front of him. the next second, he was already behind han jijyun. li lanfeng’s pearly laughter pierced his ears. “i’m actually you.”

bang~! han jijyun pushed his palm behind him to attack li lanfeng. however, he hit nothing but air.

“hmph, you hate me so much that you don’t even want to talk to me.” li lanfeng’s laughter seemed to be coming from everywhere.

“ever since you became the devil of my heart, you are no longer a part of me.” han jijyun’s mind was much clearer now.

“if you lose me, your realm will drop and you won’t be able to catch up with the person you’ve always been chasing. do you bear to let me go?” the devil li lanfeng knew very well what han jijyun was afraid of so he was not frightened of him at all.

“yes. i’ve always been hesitating but your reminder made me understand that your presence will always forbid me from catching up with the people i’ve always wanted to catch up with.” han jijyun raised his head suddenly. the killing intent in his eyes was obvious.

he always seemed calm and to many people, the decisions he made were much more acceptable than the ones li lanfeng made.

however, han jijyun knew that among everyone around boss, he was the most irresolute and hesitant.

he couldn’t be like li lanfeng who put boss’s benefit at the top of his priority. all the decisions he made were the ones that benefit boss the most. hence, when he needed to sacrifice someone, he wouldn’t show any mercy.

he couldn’t be like qi long, who remained firmly loyal to boss and never had any thoughts of backing out once he made the decision to follow boss.

he wasn’t as pure as luo lang, who would give his entire heart to someone once he decided to trust the person. he was willing to go through any thick or thin with boss.

he wasn’t as decisive as lin zhong-qing, who would immediately fill in the empty slots in their team without caring about the price he had to pay.

he didn’t have xie yi’s big heart. as long as he was given space, he was able to grow up strongly on his own.

he didn’t have li shiyu’s devotion. once he was needed, he would sacrifice anything to help others.

he wasn’t like chang xinyuan who would repay a casual favour with his life. he gave his entire life to boss who gave him a second chance in life.

he wasn’t like his two little sisters who admired boss and treated him like the center of their world.

he followed boss because he couldn’t bear to part with their close relationship. he couldn’t bear to leave behind the friendship he had with his companions.

yes, he couldn’t bear to give them up. it wasn’t because he couldn’t give them up. the decisions he made seemed more tolerable than li lanfeng’s and felt fairer but he knew that he had his own selfish motives. he was afraid, afraid of losing his place in the team, becoming another weaker copy of li lanfeng.

he was just used to using righteous reasons to cover up his selfish intentions. he convinced many people, including himself and the people that were important to him… that he was useful, he was different, and that he was good while li lanfeng was evil.

ling lan’s glaring eyes suddenly appeared in front of his eyes. han jijyun felt cold sweat coming out of his body.

he had never lied to boss before! han jijyun suddenly had a realisation.

“tsk, tsk, tsk, you’re so scared that your clothes are drenched right from the inside.” the devil li lanfeng suddenly mocked him.