Magical Girl with Demonic Time Magic-Chapter 95: Ending

I went on a date with Itsuki planning to make this the last one between us, we’ve been dating for months and during these months I’ve really started to observe Setsuna more.

I noticed how kind she is, how smart she is, how she always knows what to do and even though she’s cold, she always puts her life at risk to protect me.

I realized that she is someone who always listens and gives me the best answers, among many other things, and even though it’s been difficult, I don’t think I can lie to myself anymore.

I don’t like Itsuki, and in fact, I like Setsuna romantically, it doesn’t matter if she’s a girl, she’s literally the ideal person I’ve always wanted since childhood, everything she’s shown to be, even if involuntarily, matches my ideal type. 𝙛𝒓𝓮𝙚𝔀𝒆𝒃𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝓵.𝙘𝒐𝒎

She herself doesn’t seem to have noticed why I’ve been observing her more in the last few months and just because I admit that I like her doesn’t mean I know what to do.

How should I confess to Setsuna? I admit now that I like girls, but I have no way of knowing if Setsuna likes girls too.

And if I confess and our friendship falls apart because she doesn’t like girls and things become so embarrassing that we drift apart?

I don’t know how to take that second step towards a relationship with her, I’ve already taken the first step by admitting that I love her, that I’m truly in love with her even though we’re the same gender.

Now the second step is like an abyss, if I confess and she accepts it would be perfect, but if I confess and she rejects it, everything we’ve built as friends can crumble.

I only know one thing, I need to break up with Itsuki first, it wouldn’t be fair for him for this loveless relationship to continue, it would be bad for both of us, so that’s why I called him for one last date together.

We went to a place of his choosing, spent time together, and in the end, nothing changed, it’s like two friends who went out together, there’s no pleasant feeling of love that you’d expect from a couple.

Now we’re in a park where I’m preparing to reject Itsuki, I hope he doesn’t get too sad.

"Ayane, why are we here?" Itsuki asks since we’ve been standing in an empty park for a few minutes, I chose an empty place so he wouldn’t feel humiliated since it would be bad to do this with people watching.

I could end it by message, but that would be even worse than just ending it face-to-face, ending by message is something cold and insensitive to the person who has tried to make everything work.

"Itsuki, there’s something I want to tell you," I say as I gather the courage to continue.

"Yes?" He waits with a gentle smile.

"I want to break up," I say, sugarcoating it now would only hurt him more, I need to be direct and truthful, I need to show honesty and reality.

"...Huh?" He makes a confused, shocked sound.

"It’s not working out, our relationship doesn’t have a future, I’ve really tried to like you, but it didn’t work, I don’t love you and a relationship without love has no future..." I say, but he interrupts me before I can continue.

"Why? I took you to expensive dates, spent time with you, was patient with your stupid stalling, and now you just want to break up with me like I’m some kind of clown?" He speaks coldly with an irritated expression.

’Spent time? Is that how he saw the dates?...just a mere waste of time’ I thought at least he had enjoyed them.

"Look, I didn’t want to hurt you, I understand we went to many dates, but it didn’t work out, I don’t love you and it’s not fair for either of us to continue this," I say, getting up from the bench.

For a moment I see Hexael, it’s been a while since I’ve seen him, Setsuna said she hasn’t seen him in the last few months either.

"Is that all you have to say after all the money I spent on this relationship? It’s..."

"Money? Is that how you see all of this? A waste of time and money?" I interrupt him, I’m not stupid, I understand very well where this conversation is going, he’s really angry because of money and time as if everything that happened had no value at all.

"I tried to love you, I wasn’t with you as a pastime, you yourself knew that I didn’t love you and that I was trying, I never asked for any of that, I made it clear several times that I preferred simple things."

"Don’t blame me when you’re the one who always chose expensive places," I say irritatedly, it was always him who chose these expensive restaurants, I made it clear several times that I preferred simple and cheaper places.

He’s the one who wanted to go to those places and always order the most expensive things, he’s the one who didn’t give voice to what I wanted in those moments.

"T-That’s not what I meant to say," He realizes what’s obvious, it’s in moments like these that people show who they really are.

Setsuna in moments of urgency, in moments of danger practically became my shield, showing her kindness even at the cost of getting hurt.

Now there’s Itsuki, he was kind, too narcissistic, but kind, but if he’s really angry about money spent on the relationship, it already makes his character clear.

"If the problem is the money, then I’ll pay back everything we spent, never contact me again," I say, disappointed with his character.

They’re just numbers and scraps of paper, why don’t people understand that money isn’t that important?

"W-Wait, that’s not what I meant, it’s just unfair that I’ve invested so much in this relationship when you’ve hardly done anything with me, come on, it’s been months and you barely even held my hand..."

When he says that, I freeze with anger and indignation, he also seems to realize the stupidity of what he said indirectly.

"...You’re disgusting," I say angrily, I thought that when this was over, we could still be friends and forget the failed relationship, but he practically admitted that he only spent so much on the relationship because he wanted my body.

"Was that why you approached me? Because of my body? You know what, I never want to see you in front of me again," I try to leave, but he grabs my hand and pulls me into a kiss.

"..." The kiss lasts no more than 2 seconds before I push him away and slap him so hard that he falls to the ground with a bleeding lip while I look at him with disgust.

’The worst first kiss ever...’ It’s disappointing, I can’t believe my first kiss was with this scum.

"If you show up in front of me again, you’ll regret it, and don’t worry about trying to explain yourself," I say, leaving angrily and leaving him on the ground, it’s obvious his mouth is hurt.

Because of how much stronger I’ve become, even without using powers, my physical strength is high, my slap is much stronger than most girls’ will ever be.

I just walk angrily through the streets to get home, I didn’t expect this, it looks like breaking this up was a relief in the end, who would have thought that guy was total scum.

I take my phone and think about calling Setsuna, but I end up giving up, some things are better told in person, it’s better to talk about this failed relationship tomorrow.

I wipe a tear as I walk through the cold streets, what disappoints me the most is knowing that everything for him was aimed at something extra in me.

I know well that in a loving relationship both parties have to contribute, but that doesn’t mean it’s an obligation or that the other side can simply act that way.

I made it clear several times that I didn’t love him and he continued the relationship and the dates because he wanted to, he knew from the beginning that I could break up at any time.

So him wanting to complain after the obvious happened is ridiculous, at least it wasn’t a love disappointment, just a common personal disappointment.

"Haaa...I guess in the end, you can never know what’s going on in everyone’s mind and heart," I murmur, annoyed, I just want to get home and sleep to forget this day.

"I can’t believe he thinks holding back is being strung along," I’ve never had much contact with him, I’ve never kissed him and never gone further in any way because for me those things are given to people you love.

I never loved him, I wasn’t stringing him along, I just didn’t really want to get deeply involved without loving, I was saving those things for the one I love, and I’ve already found the person I love.

I don’t know if Setsuna is the person I’ll share my whole life with, but she’s definitely the first person I’ve fallen in love with, not the family love I have for my mother and father.

If I dated Setsuna right now, I would share my hand and kisses with her, I don’t know if we would go any further than that for now, I think we would need time, but without a doubt she is someone I would like to deepen our romantic relationship with.

’I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep...maybe...’ I think I’ll call Mizuhane, she’s my friend and it’s thanks to her that I started to realize my love for Setsuna.

She’s like an intern cupid who showed me this path, I think calling and telling her about the breakup with my boyfriend and my love for Setsuna completely discovered would be good.

I’d also like advice on how to confess to Setsuna or even better, advice on how to find out if Setsuna would be willing to date another girl romantically.