MTL - Avoid the Protagonist!-Chapter 89

Time passed without knowing it.

In the large living room, quiet and silent, only Shen Junxing sat on the gray sofa with his arms folded.

The warm water in the two glasses on the table has cooled.

He sat on his back, and there was no focal length in the light, and he did not know where he was looking. It was only after a long time that he looked up at the direction of the study room and the door was closed. She is still inside.

The smile of his mouth appears slightly, is she missing or mourning her lost feelings and lover?

Xin Xinyue in the study wiped away the tears that had been lingering for a long time. She closed the book and looked at the letter embedded in the middle of the last two pages. The envelope said: Shen Junxing.

She looked at her face for a long time and finally picked up the book and the letter and went downstairs.

In the living room, the light is bright, he is sitting on the sofa and wondering what he wants to think of.

Xin Haoyue came to his front and handed the letter in his hand. The voice followed the thick nasal sound after crying and said: "The letter to you."

Shen Junxing heard the sound and looked up. Attention was first attracted to her red eyes. "You cry again?"

Xin Xinyue saw him look serious, and he turned his head very awkwardly. He saw that he had been staring at himself. He had to tell the truth: "It’s just that I didn’t hold back and touched the scene."

Shen Jun’s mouth was slightly tweeted. He couldn’t find a word to respond to her. He had to turn and asked: “Do you give me a letter?”

"No. It's the author of this book. When we first met, I was asking her about your grandmother."

Shen Junxing looked at the letter and didn’t seem to have taken it.

Xin Xinyue said: "Let's take a look."

Before Shen Junxing took the letter, he gave her a meaningful look and then unpacked the envelope.

A slightly yellowed paper with a flowing font.

Xin Haoyue only saw the beginning of the title, the person wrote: I have only secretly loved Shen Junxing in my life...

After Shen Junxing finished the first line, Twilight sank.

"The only secret in my life that I have loved Shen Junxing:

Hello there. I know that you don't even know my name. I am not going to tell you my name here. As long as you know that there is a very humble and timid girl who quietly likes you, this is enough.

The first time I saw you, it was the evening of heavy rain. It was a heavy rain in the afternoon, and the weather was very bad. I know that there are very few pedestrians outside this time, so I dared to go to the supermarket without fear. At the time of checkout, I turned around and saw you coming to the supermarket to buy an umbrella. I looked at your handsome face, forgot to react, but you didn't seem to notice my existence at all. I know that I have always felt weak and unremarkable.

At that time, there were too many things on hand, and the bag couldn’t bear the weight. When the things were scattered, you bent down and helped me pick up. I was blushing, and I said a thank you to Ai, and I still remember the phrase "Don't thank you" when I first returned to me. That is the best voice I have ever heard.

Shen Junxing, I fell in love with you at first sight.

But I know that I have no merits, I am not worthy of you.

After a few days, early in the morning, I saw you walking with your grandmother.

I lowered my head and passed you by.

At that moment, I can feel the frenzy of my heartbeat.

Shen Junxing is the feeling that you make me have love.

I am afraid to see you, and I am looking forward to seeing you every day.

Once, I secretly listened to a gossip old man in the community talking about you, saying that you are a rich family child, saying that your father is in a high position, saying that you are good at an early age, that you are young, have a successful career, and have a good reputation. .

Shen Junxing, at that moment, I was really proud and inferior.

Look, how good is the person I love! How good my eyes are!

However, I am deeply inferior.

You are so good, how can I be with you.

Even if I talk to you, I don't have the courage.

Shen Junxing, I am used to it, through the window, watching you pass by my eyes.

Even if I can't stand up to you in front of you, tell me that I like you.

At least, I have to let you know that there is a person in the world who likes you.

My favorite Shen Junxing, thank you for appearing in my life.

This life, I can enjoy the excellent people like you, I am satisfied.

I wish you happiness. --I love you. ”

Xin Haoyue has been looking at the expression on his face, trying to see a hint of inner feelings from his subtle expression changes.

However, after reading the letter, Shen Junxing put the letter back on the table and asked her: "Where is it?"

Xin Haoyue refers to the book on the desktop near his position. "The last two pages of the book are stuck, and this letter is hidden in the middle."

"So, this letter was written by someone who sent my grandmother's book?"

Xin Yuyue: "The person who sent the book is also the person who wrote the book."

Shen Junxing was silent and asked her: "Do you know?"

Xin Haoyue shook his head and nodded.

"So the Xinyue month in the book is based on you as a prototype?" Shen Junxing asked.

Xin Yuyue smiled bitterly. "She hates me too much, so I wrote it in. But she loves you very much, because I love you, so I have the birth of Shen Sinan."

"That... Shen Sinan, does it really exist?"

"He has been there all the time."

Shen Junxing stared at her. "So, after seeing this book, what is your plan?"

"I want to go back to him."

"That is just an illusory story world that a person deliberately creates. Even if you know that it is not a real world, do you want to do this?"

"I know that it is the world in the book. I knew it from the beginning. But I still fell in love with Shen Sinan. I love him. We have a child I only have time to look at. I have to go back. He and the child are still waiting for me to go back."

"How come back? How do you want to go back?"

"I don't know! But I will find a way. If I can get in, there will be a way to go in again."

"any solution?"

"Death."

Shen Junxing listened to her so calmly saying these three words, and echoed back: "Are you crazy?"

"I also hope that I am crazy. But I am so sober now. Shen Junxing, the content of this book is not the one I first saw. I don't know why she can know all the changes that have occurred after I put it in, and put It was written. I don't know if she wrote the book, gave it to your grandmother, or said that she could shuttle back and forth between the two worlds before she died, but the book Existence, it at least proves that everything I have experienced is real. Even in another unknown world.” Xin Haoyue said, facing him: “Thank you for telling me this evening. The existence of the book. Thank you for letting me discover that I still have someone who loves me waiting for me to go back."

Shen Junxing has not made a sound for a long time.

Xin Haoyue can feel the depression of his mood.

Quiet each other for a long time, he asked: "What about me?"

You found the world and the people you love are waiting for you.

what about me? Have you never found out that I am waiting for you?

"what?"

"I don't want you to go back to him. If you use the extreme way of death, I will stop you. Xinyue, you will be sure that the person who created this book is dead, the world will still exist? Say the most obvious Are you sure you can see Shen Sinan and your children after you die?"

He saw her no words to refute, and then continued: "Don't do stupid things, don't think about those ridiculous things, can you live well? Even if... for me."

"Well?" Xin Haoyue looked up at his moment, his eyebrows locked.

"You are a very special person to me."

So, can you stay for me?

What Shen Junxing didn't know was that he didn't have the chance to say anything when he didn't let her hear the words.

Xin Yiyue’s “I’m sorry” and a “thank you” all killed all his unspoken confession.

What she finally said, Shen Junxing has long been remembered.

He only knew that when she finally left, she asked for his opinion: "Can this book take me away?"

Even if he didn't want to be in his heart, he could look at her earnest gaze and nod his head.

At the end, she said a thank you, leaving with a book.

Half a month later, he learned that she went to the town where the earthquake occurred in the eighth earthquake to do the first interview. The entire magazine has pushed this errand, and she volunteered to go.

However, after the earthquake, people rescued the victims. Unexpectedly, the aftershocks were raging and there were countless deaths and injuries.

Shen Junxing silently watched the news reports, looked at the disaster areas that had become ruins, looked at the injured victims, looked at the people who mourned and cried and sent their loved ones, and looked at the ones on the list of distress, the familiar "Xin Yu" Three words of the month, the eyelids gradually turned red, and the tears slid silently.

He used all the connections and wanted to get a trace of luck. He even ran away from the disaster area despite his father's resolute opposition. But when he witnessed it, all the tiny hopes were shattered.

She is dead.

When she died, she still held the book tightly in her hand. The book was full of her blood.

However, her look is so serene.

When Shen Junxing cremated her with the book, he looked at the gray side of the sky and wondered: Did she return to the person's side with her wish?

Perhaps he will never find an answer.

He only knew that the first time he had someone who wanted to stay with him, he left.

Forever, it will not come back.