MTL - My 26-year-old Female Tenant-Chapter 697 : After the quarrel

Yan Yan left behind the milk tea that Qin Yan gave her, and threw the bouquet to me. Mi Cai and I are sensible people. We saw a signal in Yan Yan, which told us that after three days, Qin Yan When she really came to Suzhou again, Yan Yan would probably treat him to a meal alone, or even name the cup of milk tea that she hadn't drank yet.

The night was getting dark, and the taxi was like a well-set machine, skillfully passing through this fragmented city cut by the viaduct. We vaguely heard the clock tower ringing 10 o'clock, so I hugged to my side Mi Cai, who was holding a bouquet, asked: "Believe it or not, Yan Yan must have parked the car somewhere at this time, drinking the cup of milk tea that Qin Yan gave her..."

   "Believe it! Didn't Qin Yan say that the original taste of milk tea can only be tasted before ten o'clock. He is a very professional barista, so he should be able to calculate very accurately."

I nodded, since Yan Yan chose to take this cup of milk tea away, she will definitely finish it before ten o'clock, but I don't know what mood she is in when she drinks it, and whether she will really drink it warm and happy. Feel? ...I hope it will, and I hope that Qin Yan will really have the opportunity to mend the hard-to-heal wounds in her heart. As for the future, whether Qin Yan's family can accept her as a divorced woman, I don't want to Think about it again, because I really hate artificially making love, which is originally a simple thing, extremely complicated!

Furthermore, I have confidence in Yan Yan, even if she is a divorced woman, not everyone has the confidence to reject her... She is a good example of a woman, but Fang Yuan did not cherish her... ...I really don't know, when Yan Yan married another man and had a child, would this sinful Fang Yuan feel remorse, would she turn around soberly, and look at her distorted soul?

The car was still going along with the traffic lights on the set route, and the desertedness in the middle of the night seemed to lock the criss-crossing neon lights into the car, which illuminated the skirts of Mi Cai and I, and Mi Cai and I Gradually getting tired in this beauty, she took my arm and leaned in my arms, I put my arms around her shoulders, and gradually looked at the city in front of me indifferently because of the night, but I didn't know if it What kind of posture will a soul look down on us who are small? Will they laugh at the youth we built here and disappear into the absurdity of the years?

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Back at the residence, we were tired, just washed up, and then lay on the bed, and soon I lost consciousness and fell asleep... I started dreaming in my sleep again, I dreamed that I will see you tonight I saw Jing Xiaosi and Xia Fanye, they were perfect in my dream, and then I dreamed of Qin Yan and Yan Yan, they were married, and Yan Yan became Qin Yan's good wife, helping him The family property is well-managed, and she became pregnant the year after she got married, and she gave birth to a girl for Qin Yan...

The space in my dream is getting wider and wider, and the time span is getting bigger and bigger. All the people who are my friends appear in the dream one after another, and I become an engineer to add bricks and tiles to their lives. I am so busy , this kind of busyness made me feel tired even in my sleep, so tired that I put my future behind me, so I didn't dream of Mi Cai, nor Jian Wei, or even Le Yao. I saw a woman in a transparent raincoat walking around the fountain in the square in the rain, and I just followed her back and walked around... I finally found Waking up tired! I heard the wind blowing the rain on the window, like breathing...

  I wanted to drink water, so I half-kneeled on the bed and turned on the night light beside the bed, but unexpectedly found that Mi Cai was awake all the time. I yawned and asked, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

"Insomnia!"

It was the first time I heard the word "insomnia" from Mi Cai's mouth. It turned out that she would suffer from insomnia even when she was always in a good state of mind, so she forgot to pour a glass of water and just looked at her cheek like that. Find the cause of insomnia in her expression.

   "Why are you half-kneeling and looking at me?"

  I just came back to my senses and felt dry mouth again, so I got out of bed and said to her, "I'll go drink a glass of water first, and come back to chat with you."

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I was sitting on the sofa, drinking water, and thinking about something on my mind. I thought that the reason why Mi Cai suffered from insomnia was because her mother Yan Zhuomei would return to China tomorrow. For Yan Zhuomei, my mood quickly dropped, and I subconsciously took out a cigarette from the cigarette box on the coffee table and lit it. When the ashes of the cigarette fell on the ground, the light of the lamp made me confused... In this kind of confusion, I desperately want to pursue a kind of simplicity! In this simplicity, Yan Zhuomei will not make things difficult for us, the wedding will be held as scheduled, the coffee shop has been operating smoothly, and we will soon gain a firm foothold in Xuzhou...

A glass of water was quickly finished, a cigarette, only the cigarette **** was left sleeping in the ashtray, I finally went to the bathroom to rinse my mouth... I went back to the room again, and leaned on the pillow to greet the completely sleepless Mi Cai Asked: "What is on your mind that makes you think about insomnia?"

   "Do you really want to hear it?"

   "Of course, I really want to hear all your thoughts, just because you don't want to tell me what's on your mind."

After Mi Cai was silent for a while, she said, "Yan Zhuomei never does anything unprepared. I have touched her bottom line by staying in China to get married. She may pick up what you have done before and every relationship experience, and then Leaves me speechless...I hate having to face this!"

A feeling of suffocation suddenly made me a little hypoxic. I also hated the wrong things I did in the past, and I didn't like these wrong things being chopped up and down on the chopping board over and over again... So, I repeat the silence in silence!

  I finally said to Mi Cai: "I know I'm not good enough for you, but...we've been together for so long, I can't leave you anymore!"

   "Don't say that, I have already forgiven your past..."

"I understand what you mean, and I can understand your hatred, because to me, everything in the past is like unhealed wounds that were brutally torn open, and salt water was sprinkled inside... I I really want you to know that I, a butterfly whose wings have been torn off, still want to fly around your flower..."

  Mi Cai looked at me, and asked after a long time: "Tell me, are your wings still with Jian Wei?"

   "Let's not talk about Jian Wei anymore, shall we?... You heard what she said today. It won't be long before she will completely disappear from our sight!"

"I hear you, and all I can say is that she is a self-disciplined woman...but that doesn't mean she doesn't love you anymore, and you don't care about her anymore...I have a strong hunch , she's a ticking time bomb buried between us..."

I interrupted her: "Don't think so much just because it's night, can you? ... She's leaving, she's leaving, she's really leaving! ... We don't Worrying about this problem over and over again, I hate this kind of over and over again...!"

  "Why are you so excited?...What signal is your subconscious releasing to me?"

  I argue: "I'm excited because I don't want to be misunderstood by you, not because she's leaving...!"

"Last night, when she said that she was going to immigrate abroad, I clearly saw your disappointed expression, and when she got out of the car, you gave her a hard look... Zhaoyang, These micro-expressions and body language can't deceive people... I'm not afraid that Jian Wei still loves you, what I'm most afraid of is that you still love her, but you deceive yourself and don't want to admit it... In this way I will feel that I am a sinner, it is my appearance that ruins everything between you!"

I was panting, my brain felt hot and cold for a while... After a long time, I said: "I want to know what signal you are sending to me when you say this to me now?... When we come back, She is obviously fine, but why did Jian Wei say that she was going to immigrate to a foreign country, but it became the fuse of our quarrel?...I don't understand this very much?...Or, do you think I Don't love you?...But would I, Zhaoyang, be a man willing to marry a woman I don't love?"

   "The calm of the night reminds me of some details that I didn't notice before...!"

"You think about it now...then tell me, what do you want to do?..." I asked tremblingly. In the evening, she and I actually had such a quarrel... This kind of quarrel is not a normal quarrel between lovers, it is a quarrel that will cause cracks in our relationship! This made me feel palpitations, suffocation, and helplessness!

  Mi Cai finally replied: "I don't know what I'm going to do, and I don't know who else I can rely on in my life..."

   "If you have already identified me, why do you have to think so much about it?"

"It's in women's nature, isn't it?...we're afraid of not being able to feel safe from the man we love, and I'm no exception...with everything off, I'm just a sensitive Nervous woman, I wish we didn't have Jian Wei, Le Yao...nor those women who always seduce you!"

I smiled helplessly, and choked up in the laughter: "Why, why there is so much suspicion between us...why have we experienced so much together, and still can't erase the stains in our lives, but more like Is it a piece of crumpled waste paper?...Are we going to share the same bed with different dreams in this life, lying on the window, looking at other people's happiness, but we continue to be suspicious and continue to turn life into a war? "

  Mi Cai is silent...

I choked up and said, "I'm just an idiot. I don't have the talents of Xia Fanye and Robben, I don't have the strategizing skills of Fangyuan and Xiangchen, and I don't have the prominent family background of Weiran and Cao Jinfei... I will only Living in my own spiritual world, intoxicated, unrealistically pursuing those who don't belong to me...including you!...I don't deserve you, I don't deserve you... ...I can only listen to those external discussions in my heart, and then grind them up and swallow them in my stomach...Maybe our encounter was a wrong start, why should I possess you? Why? "

Mi Cai looked at me with tears in her eyes, she finally couldn't hold back anymore, she cried loudly, hugged me tightly, sobbing and said: "I'm sorry... I'm sorry, Zhaoyang, this It's my fault...I shouldn't be so suspicious of you!...You've been good to me, really good, and that's enough...I love you!.. .....I am making trouble for no reason today! Don't question yourself because of my wrong questioning...In my eyes, you are the best! Other people's words are gossip, you must not... .Don't take it to heart!"

I looked at her, hugged her again, we cried together, reviewed together, and waited for the dawn together... For this relationship, we really paid too much, no one wants to lose it so easily ..... However, whether this extreme care is our burden, I didn't figure it out until the real dawn!

  It was still raining outside the window, but the sky was already brighter. Neither Mi Cai nor I fell asleep anymore. We just hugged each other and lay on the bed, looking for limited comfort in this extremely limited space.

  I finally said to her: "What do you want to eat? I'll buy it and make it for you."

   "Is preserved egg and lean meat porridge okay?"

   "Well, you sleep a little longer, I'm going to the supermarket to buy preserved eggs and shredded pork..."

   "I wake up with you." Mi Cai said and got dressed before me.

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In the bathroom, Mi Cai picked up some hot water from the water heater and helped me wash my hair. She washed my hair very lightly and carefully. After washing, she used a hair dryer to dry me a little bit, and then made it with pomade. Came out with a hairstyle that suits me best and makes me look energetic...  

This morning, after we did our personal hygiene, I went to the supermarket. She stayed at home and cleaned the house, and the time for us to meet Yan Zhuomei is getting closer... At this moment, I just wait for a phone call Us, this notice, maybe after we've had breakfast, maybe in the afternoon...

I bought back the ingredients for making preserved egg and lean pork porridge, so I put on an apron and got busy in the kitchen. After controlling the heat, I looked at the rain outside the window and splashed flowers one after another on the window sill. Splash...I still haven't recovered from the quarrel last night, I seriously asked myself... Will the relationship between Mi Cai and I really be as we imagined? Like that forever?

   I seem less confident? Because the difference in class will be a lingering shadow between us, so every time we quarrel, I am so unconfident, so afraid, afraid of losing, afraid that she will feel that it is a person to live with me for the rest of my life. Stupid decision... After so much repetition, I really feel a little tired!

And I have experienced these feelings in Jian Wei's body... I was thinking wildly, if one day, Mi Cai also told me to break up, would I reply to Jian Wei like I did before? In that way, give her a completely unburdened answer?

  I don’t dare to think about it anymore... because I don’t dare to imagine my life without her to write, I will be very boring, very boring, miss it, and suffer...

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   This is a large chapter of 4400 words. . It's been a long time since I wrote the quarrel chapter, but I wrote it smoothly, so I combined the two chapters into one chapter...

  I think this kind of plot is the most real embodiment. When two people have huge class differences, disputes will definitely erupt because of some upcoming issues. This is the true embodiment of human nature. Not breaking out is a kind of divorce from reality.

   Until now, there is still such an argument, the reality is already cruel, and reading novels is for relaxation, let me not abuse, let alone abuse for the sake of abuse. I would like to say, even the plot in the book makes you collapse, when the pain of life really hits you, what do you use to face it? A glass heart? ...My book is not abusive, it just tears up some wounds in life for you to read. . Ladies and gentlemen, treat it as a kind of cultivation, okay? When you read my book, avoid the mistakes made by those characters in the book, and become a master of life, that is the meaning, the harvest, and my meaning and harvest!