My Alleged Husband-Chapter 886 - 829: The Incomparable Human Heart (Extended - ) _2

Even if I value others significantly, in their eyes, I am nothing. I am just someone who can be easily discarded, no one cares about my feelings!

Dad, actually at times, deep inside, I understand what this feeling is like more than anyone else. This feeling is truly a heart-wrenching pain. No one cares about what you have been through. He only looks forward because in his eyes, you are nothing; you are not the one he cares about the most. He could easily abandon you. What significance does such a person have in this world? Sometimes I really don’t understand what it means to live in this world?

Living is so painful, so exhausting, and what you want, you can never have. No matter how much effort you put in, no matter what you go through in your life, no one really cares about how you feel. He will just follow his deepest desires, hurt you if he wants to, because you don’t exist in his heart, he can easily hurt you. Such emotions, what significance do they hold in living in this world? I truly don’t understand why I chose this outcome. Every time I lay my heart bare for others, but what do I get in return? Others ignore me over and over, treating my sincerity as nothing but idiocy. They treat all my emotions like froth, am I really nothing in their eyes?

You are my father, you understand more than anyone how much pain my heart holds. It was not easy for me to get to where I am today, everything I’ve achieved was through my own efforts, but what did I get in return? Every step I took, marked by my footprint, the path I wrote with my blood and tears, the pain I suffered, the torture I endured, the devilish training - I never cried, because I knew, even if I cried, no one would care because crying solves nothing. Even if I cried till the skies darkened, who would care about what I have been through? Everyone’s desires are different, never compare hearts because hearts cannot be compared. Even if you show them your heart, in their eyes it’s just a childish act. They don’t value your willfulness, because deep inside, your heart means nothing to you compared to what they desire. In their eyes, only benefits last long.

Now I finally understand what that phrase means, there are no eternal friends in the world, only eternal interests. So-called friends are nothing in front of interests because he doesn’t care about those. He cares about money, money that can conquer all, money that can make the devil work the mill. If so, why then do we earn so much money, is it for ourselves or for others? I can’t figure out why I am doing this, every decision I make, what is the real reason behind it, what harm does it bring to my loved ones? I have never considered the consequences of my actions because deep inside, as long as my family is happy, that’s more important than anything. Now I see my Grandpa so in pain, isn’t my heart supposed to be suffering too? It’s not that I can’t do anything because you are my parents, even if you did too much to Grandpa, as a junior, I have no right to critique your actions!

But you are my father, there are some things that as your son, I still should say. No matter what, you should take good care of Grandpa not scold him - he is your father. Even though he might not have been by your side, or showed you care, all his love for you he gave to me. This proves that deep inside he truly loves you, his son. Why can’t you ever see the pain and torture he suffers as a father? What he wants is not these things; to him, being happy, happy, and seeing his son happy means more than anything. But in your worldview, you never include him.