My CEO Boss Is A Masked Internet Sensation-Chapter 151: A Good Show

(Karsten)

I didn’t understand the suddenness of Arata’s decision. I thought we had a great understanding of keeping it casual and pleasurable for both of us.

Why did she suddenly decide to not sleep with me anymore?

Was the sex disappointing or less thrilling without a mask on my face? Because she certainly didn’t tell Azul she wouldn’t be sleeping with him anymore.

Her reason didn’t seem believable and I wondered why she had decided to pull the plug on me.

Did my Karsten persona seem less desirable?

I knew she wasn’t very keen on some aspects of my personality, but recently, we had been connecting well and having fun on numerous occasions.

I couldn’t shake the disappointment her words had brought me. After dinner, I headed up and longingly stared at her door which had been shut.

Huffing a sigh, I entered my room and closed the door. She was so near and yet so far away from me.

Changing into night trousers, I flopped on the bed and noticed my phone had notifications.

Opening them, I found them to be from Arata for Azul. Greedily, I clicked on her messages.

{Hey! Can we speak if you are free?}

Excitement ran through me like a high-voltage current, and my fingers automatically danced on the keypad.

{Of course, what’s up? I missed talking to you, Phoenix.} I hit send and waited, knowing she would be awake.

{I am just frustrated, emotionally and sexually. I did something and now I don’t know how to fix that.}

I wanted to see if she would reveal that she was almost kidnapped or that she slept with Karsten. I knew that she might be having doubts and wouldn’t overshare.

{Talk to me; I am here for you without any judgment. Whatever you did or happened just lay it out on me.} I typed back and she read my message instantly.

Three dots appeared, showing she was typing, and I just greedily stared and stared until her text dropped.

{Something happened and I got hurt which led me to sleep with Karsten...}

I smiled; she still trusted Azul, or she would have never shared this.

{You are an adult, Phoenix. You can make your own life choices. Just tell me he satisfied you?}

Now this was a moment of truth. Time to find out how satisfied I left her. My heartbeat accelerated on its own, eagerly waiting to see how she would answer.

{Ohh! He satisfied me all right. It was more than just meaningless sex; he deeply cared for me, too. Maybe I was too vulnerable but I wasn’t expecting him to be this gentle with me.}

Her words eased the burden my heart had been carrying, that maybe I had been unable to satisfy her.

{Then what’s the problem, Curvy Rose? I thought you would be happy that he satisfied you. Besides, you can choose to be with whomever you wish if you are not looking for a relationship.}

She took her time to reply, but once I read her message, it gave me a lot to think about.

{The problem is I don’t want to get hurt. After Andy, I thought I wouldn’t be ready for a relationship for a long long time and just keep it casual. But it was easier said than done. I am afraid now so I told Karsten that I can’t be physically involved with him.}

So that’s what she was afraid of. Believing it could lead to something else, something like attachment and feelings?

Her fears were valid but I had already informed her since the beginning that it was a fake relationship.

The question was, were both of us treating it as a fake relationship at this point? frёewebηovel.cѳm

The possessiveness that had crawled inside my heart and the jealousy Arata had exhibited while seeing me with Amanda spoke otherwise.

Was she right to be guarded?

Could it evolve into something else if we weren’t careful?

I thought it already had. My hungry heart wouldn’t ease without her, and under no circumstances did I want to let her go.

No, a monster like me couldn’t fall in love, especially with someone like her.

She was like a flickering candle in my chaos and I couldn’t dim that light of hers.

The things that were required of me because of my family heritage, I couldn’t fathom being with Arata.

Mom had been right about this, that Urisa understood the family traditions, she wouldn’t question it. But Arata was from a different world, and yet I was dragging her along.

Selfish, I was so very selfish.

{That’s a correct decision. The urge to guard your heart is understandable. But I am always here. You can be open with me, right? Your heart won’t get hurt because I will stay as long as you want and the way you want.}

Something jagged at my heart, and I could only pray that she wouldn’t cut me off, too.

I needed her, at least I would have a reason to cling on. If not as Karsten then at least as Azul. She regarded Azul as a fantasy, someone she could just turn to to fulfil her sexual desires, but Karsten felt real to her. She had to work with me, live with me, and see me all the time.

{I need you Azul. If you have time for me then I want to do a video call. I want to see you, pleasure yourself. Is that possible?}

My heart leapt up in my mouth. My Blue Rose was making a request; she was so frustrated and yet instead of seeking me out, she just wanted to see Azul to curb her frustration.

I was no one to deny her when she made such a request.

{Of course, Phoenix. Anything for you. Give me fifteen minutes and I will call you. Let me set up the room.} I texted back and leapt from the bed so I could rush to my hidden room in the basement.

Her message dropped.

{I am waiting, Azul. Give me a good show.}