Showbiz Scandal: The Official Announcement of My Ex and Myself-Chapter 386: My Love for You Is Something I Only Dare to Confess When I’m Drunk

Chapter 386: Chapter 386: My Love for You Is Something I Only Dare to Confess When I’m Drunk

When she was not yet an adult, watching male protagonists in films, dramas, novels, and anime, she also hoped to meet an idealized male lead.

At eighteen, she liked genteel reprobates; at nineteen, she preferred mature stability; at twenty, she was drawn to more lively personalities. She constantly shaped the appearance and personality of her mental image of the male lead based on what she saw and heard.

Then she met Xie Qingci.

Someone different from the ideal type she had imagined, but he quickly shattered her expectations and became her favorite boyfriend.

Liking someone isn’t about types, it’s about feelings.

Some people just like school bullies, no matter how many awards the academic achievers win, they can’t win her heart. Some just like well-behaved boys, no matter how much a rascal loves her, he can’t reach the end with her.

Love is exclusive.

"I don’t know what you like about me, nor do I know why you keep holding on so stubbornly. I told you the first time, I don’t like you."

Song Xi looked at her stunned: "But I like you."

"I don’t care whether you like me or not, there are plenty of people who do. I’m saying that since you know I don’t like you, you should be prepared to get no response. Why do you still force it?"

"I..." He couldn’t find a reason and, in his disoriented state, recalled the words Xie Qingci used to scold him, "I guess... I’m just pathetic."

As he insulted himself, his voice trembled as if on the verge of collapsing.

Yu Xia picked up her cup and took a sip of water, remaining composed as ever.

"Liking someone isn’t wrong, but it’s wrong when you use it as a reason to do many annoying things. Song Xi, I told you when you debuted, and I believe Xie Qingci also told you, to follow your goal and don’t stray from the path. You know what your goal is, and it’s definitely not me."

Being a life coach wasn’t really suitable for her. She took another sip of water, and seeing him like this, decided to use a more direct approach.

"There are more people pursuing me in this circle than there are in your whole team. Some think that since they’ve pursued me so passionately, even if I refuse, I should still give them some face by being nice in my words.

But why? Just because you like me, I should give you face? Because someone knelt with a bouquet of roses, everyone expects me to respond warmly, or else they say I’m cold-blooded. To me, that’s no different than coercion.

Whether I like someone or not is my right. Even if you act devotedly and pitifully, I won’t soften and give you any response. It wouldn’t be fair to me or to Xie Qingci.

Also, I won’t give any promises about the future. Even without Xie Qingci, not liking you is still not liking you. I’m not interested in keeping someone on standby, nor do I see being pursued as a sweet burden. You’re already making me feel troubled, and your interference is spoiling the happiness I have with Xie Qingci."

Song Xi’s face gradually turned pale with each word.

When he looked up again, Yu Xia found that he was crying.

She didn’t care, glancing toward the restroom, wondering if Xie Qingci was so moved by her words that he was about to cry too.

"I..." Song Xi lowered his head again, letting his tears fall to the ground, leaving small marks, his voice choked with sobs and self-mockery, "I understand. Today, I just wanted to say that sentence."

Beneath the sobs lay an indescribable bitterness. He softly repeated it one last time: "Yu Xia, I really like you."

"I also know I’ve done a lot of annoying things, and I won’t do it anymore in the future, hoping you won’t hate me. I just... I’m just unwilling."

He was unwilling that his years of efforts didn’t compare to someone with no foundation, and unwilling that the one he liked decisively said she wouldn’t like him and only liked Xie Qingci.

He trained at the company for so many years and had never liked a girl before, and the first time he did, he ended up in such a condition. 𝘧𝓇𝑒𝑒𝑤ℯ𝑏𝓃𝘰𝑣ℯ𝘭.𝘤ℴ𝘮

It seemed as if everything started going downhill from the moment he eagerly anticipated his debut. Life after achieving his dream wasn’t as good as he imagined.

The tears falling on the ground grew more numerous, almost wetting a small patch of the floor.

Song Xi put down his cup, removed his glasses, and grasped his hair with trembling hands.

Yu Xia suddenly spoke: "In my first year after debut, I acted in a play, and the teachers, classmates, directors, and audiences at the film academy all thought I had great acting skills and was certain to become an overnight sensation. I felt a bit dizzy with success, and I thought so too.

But things weren’t as I imagined. Everyone was idolizing stars who weren’t as good-looking or as skilled in acting as I was, and who didn’t respect acting at all. At that time, I was also unwilling; I felt that such star-making methods were distorted. Those people couldn’t compare to me, so why did I have to rank below them?"

Her tone was slow and calm. Song Xi gradually calmed down as well. With tears making it inconvenient to wear his glasses, he squinted slightly to see her clearly.

She didn’t look at him, instead staring at the water in her cup, continuing:

"Then I went back and told my brother that I didn’t want to stay in the entertainment industry anymore, that I would go crazy if I stayed longer. My brother told me that since I made the choice myself, I should extend the line and try a few more times; it would be better than constantly regretting afterward. Also, don’t look down on others; find other people’s strengths.

Why are others more popular despite not being good at acting? Why does capital favor them? There must be reasons they’re liked; can I achieve that point? If I can’t, then what other bargaining chips do I have?

I have acting skills and passion, and I don’t want to let my fans down, so I focused on studying acting. If I do well in this field, someone will eventually notice me. As it turned out, I succeeded. Even though I was two years behind those people, I walked upright and sat with integrity, with a solid foundation. When they fell, I could still rise.

My mentor told me to watch more of other people’s works, whether good or bad, there’s always something to learn. Watching some dramas I found terrible, I also thought that if I played the leading role I would certainly do better. But can I really? Not necessarily.

Art films are popular with the jury, but for working people, they don’t compare to some simple and brainless comedies. The audience is different, and I can’t demand everyone to appreciate me. The only thing I can do is not compare myself too much with others and focus on myself to go further."

After she finished, the room fell silent for a moment.

Yu Xia glanced at the time, ten minutes were up, and she wondered if Xie Qingci was scratching at the door inside.

"Alright, meeting time is over, you should leave now."

Song Xi slowly stood up, turned sideways to put on his glasses, and before leaving, he looked back at her one last time, suppressing the emotions under his red-rimmed eyes with serious words.

"Thank you," he said earnestly, "Before debuting, you’ve given us a lot of useful advice multiple times, setting everything else aside, I’m very grateful to you."

There aren’t many in the entertainment industry who mentor newcomers, after all, the resources are limited, and no one wants to share the pie.

"This is the last time I’ll bother you both, Yu Xia, goodbye." This time he seemed finally to straighten his back, suppress his urge to escape, and met her gaze for a long time before disappearing behind the door.