Taming the Hybrid Mate: Desired by Five Alphas-Chapter 242: Sad nostalgic feeling

Andria’s POV

Andria’s POV

He stood up to leave, and I faced off, not wanting conversations about my past.

I sensed his reluctance to leave me, as he had earlier said. His gaze lingered on me a while longer. "Maybe someday you will see how remorseful I’m about what went wrong between us."

"I hoped every day, Zade. I wished every day on the stars by my lonely, forbidden vampire creature self, that you would see me, that you would understand the conspiracy and hatred I faced in that forsaken house of the Falcons.

But you never saw me, you only heard her words, and you acted on it.

I felt like a stain in your perfect image that you were trying so hard to protect, and of course, I was a burden, the miserable sister of the chosen heiress of the Falcons.

You were popular then, and I didn’t fit the aesthetics.

You wanted me at first, maybe because of my outstanding results, just to boast that you got the nerdy female, but when you felt I was becoming a problem for your popularity, and no one ever wanted me, you fell for Lena’s lie.

You left me, and that’s all I can think whenever I think about you," I yelled.

My whole body trembled as I sat there, and yet I couldn’t leave his place. Somewhere deep inside me, I still nursed feelings for Zade, and I hated that the moon goddess added the curse of mate bond on me.

It’s too late to love him as I did; he broke something in me that will take almost forever to mend.

"I know Ari, I was such a dutchbag, drunk on popularity. But I loved you and can’t stop loving you. I promise you, it was a misunderstanding, and I’ll make it up to you," Zade pleaded.

"I tried to talk to you, I chatted with you, but you tuned me out of your life like I never existed. I can’t start recalling other things you did that tore me apart. You will do a lot to make it up to me," I retorted. "I want to go back home."

"You are not strong enough to go home, you barely ate anything, and your friends are equally hungover to take care of you. What if something happens to you? I won’t forgive myself," he replied, rushing to my side and holding both sides of my arms.

"You should have thought like this all those years you abandoned me, all those years I faced the harsh realities in the house of Falcons.

If I hadn’t escaped that morning, I would have been dead by now.

You want to know what made me leave their home? I was flogged with a silver whip because they knew I was a vampire, and they wanted to give me bruises that would hardly heal.

Had I not met Athena, those wounds might have gotten contaminated, and with no one to help me out, I might have died slowly.

Whatever you are doing now feels like medication after death...useless," I replied, taking his hands slowly off my body.

He pulled off his hands, and I slowly stood up. He walked towards the door and held it open for me.

"I put your dress from last night in that red bag beside the closet," he gestured to the small red bag by the corner.

"Thanks, I will return your shorts and shirt," I replied.

He nodded, hiding a sad expression with a strange chuckle.

"You can keep the shirt and shorts. They look gorgeous on you," he replied.

"Thanks, but I won’t be keeping it. I’ll send them to you as soon as I put on something decent," I replied, heading towards the door and to the exit door.

Something occurred to me immediately: Zade no longer had flatmates, but I didn’t bother to ask, because I didn’t want any conversation with him lingering.

"Ari, just know that I won’t stop loving you," he muttered.

I didn’t turn back, I just stopped at the door, swallowed the anxiety that was growing inside me, and opened and walked out of his apartment.

Outside his apartment felt like a breath of fresh air, I inhaled and exhaled gently, walking gently to my apartment.

I exhaled before opening the door to my apartment, already exhausted even though I just woke up a few hours ago. The dream still lingered in my head, and I knew I needed answers.

"Zade finally let you go," Becca screamed as she opened the door for me. "I hope you both had a great time?"

I shook my head sideways and walked straight to the couch, plopping on it.

If Becca knew what I felt anytime I saw Zade, if she knew an iota of what I felt whenever I crossed paths with Zade, she wouldn’t ask me that question.

"I can see you are putting on his shirt and shorts, and you are coming back this late," Becca pushed.

"Cut it, Becca. Nothing happened. And I wish he didn’t get to see this vulnerable part of me," I burst out.

"Hey, calm down, Ari. What happened? Did he hurt you?" She asked, checking me out.

"Not really," I replied.

"What do you mean by ’not really’? Ari talks to me, if he has hurt you," she insisted, worry etched on her face.

"He didn’t, ok...he didn’t. I just don’t like him. He reminds me of a memory I wish not ever to recall," I replied, bursting out in a sob that I have held all the time while in Zade’s house.

"You are crying, Ari," Becca muttered.

"I’ll be good, Becca. Thanks for caring. Whatever happened last night with the drink was just too much. I guess this is the aftereffect," I replied, heading to my room.

"If you need me, you can just call. Besides, have you eaten? Ari, you look exhausted. I’ll get you something," Becca called out.

I got into my room, locking the door behind me, and sliding down the door, bursting into uncontrollable tears.

He stood up to leave and I faced off, not wanting anymore conversations about my past.

I sensed his reluctance with leaving me like he had earlier said. His gaze lingered on me a while longer. "Maybe someday you will see how remorseful I’m about what went wrong between us."

"I hoped everyday, Zade. I wished everyday on the stars by my lonely forbidden vampire creature self, that you would see me, that you would understand the conspiracy and hatred I faced in that forsaken house of the Falcons.

But you never saw me, you only heard her words and you acted on it.

I felt like a stain in your perfect image that you were trying so hard to protect and if course I was a burden the miserable sister of the chosen heiress of the Falcons.

You were popular then and I didn’t fit the aesthetics.

You wanted me at first maybe because of my outstanding results, and just to boast that you got the nerdy female but when you felt I was becoming a problem to your popularity and no one ever wanted me, you fell for Lena’s lie.

You left me and that’s all I can think whenever I think about you," I yelled.

My whole body trembled as I sat there, and yet I couldn’t leave his place. Somewhere deep inside me, I still nursed feelings for Zade, and I hated that the moon goddess added the curse of mate bond on me.

It’s too late to love him like I did, he broke something in me that will take almost forever to mend.

"I know Ari, I was such a dutchbag, drunk on popularity. But I loved you and can’t stop loving you. I promise you, it was a misunderstanding and I’ll make it up to you," Zade pleaded.

"I tried to talk to you, I chatted you but you tuned me out of your life like I never existed. I can’t start recalling other things you did that tore me apart. You will do a lot to make it up to me," I retorted. "I want to go back home."

"You are not strong enough to go home, you barely ate anything, and your friends are equally hungover to take care of you. What if something happens to you, I won’t forgive myself," he replied, rushing to my side, and holding both sides of my arms.

"You should have thought like this all those years you abandoned me, all those years I faced the harsh realities in the house of Falcons.

If I didn’t escape that morning, I would have been dead by now.

You want to know what made me leave their home? I was flogged with a silver whip, because they knew I was a vampire and they wanted to give me bruises that would hardly heal.

Had it been I didn’t meet Athena, those wounds might have gotten contaminated and with no one to help me out I might die slowly. 𝑓𝘳𝘦𝑒𝑤𝑒𝘣𝘯ℴ𝘷𝘦𝓁.𝑐𝑜𝑚

Whatever you are doing now feels like medication after death...useless," I replied taking his hands slowly off my body.

He pulled off his hands, and I slowly stood up. He walked towards the door and held it open for me.

"I put your dress from last night in that red bad beside the closet," he gestured to the small red bag by the corner.

"Thanks, I will return your short and shirt," I replied.

He nodded, hiding a sad expression with a strange chuckle.

"You can keep the shirt and shorts. They look gorgeous on you," he replied.

"Thanks but I won’t be keeping it. I’ll send them to you as soon as I put on something decent," I replied heading towards the door and to the exit door.

Something occurred to me immediately, Zade no longer had flatmates, but I didn’t bother to ask, because I didn’t want any conversation with him lingering.

"Ari, just know that I won’t stop loving you," he muttered.

I didn’t turn back, I just stopped at the door, swallowed the anxiety that was growing inside me, opened and walked out of his apartment.

Outside his apartment felt like a breath of fresh air, I inhaled and exhaled gently, walking gently to my apartment.

I exhaled before opening the door to my apartment, already exhausted even though I just woke up from sleep few hours ago. The dream still lingered in my head and I knew I needed answers.

"Zade finally let you go," Becca screamed as she opened the door for me. "I hope you both had a great time?"

I shook my head sideways and walked straight to the couch plopping on it.

If Becca knew what I felt anytime I saw Zade, if she knew an iota of what I felt whenever I crossed path with Zade, she wouldn’t ask me that question.

"I can see you are putting on his shirt and shorts, and you are coming back this late," Becca pushed.

"Cut it Becca, nothing happened. And I wish he didn’t get to see this vulnerable part of me," I burst out.

"Hey, calm down Ari. What happened? Did he hurt you?" She asked, checking me out.

"Not really," I replied.

"What do you mean by ’not really’? Ari talk to me, if he has hurt you," she insisted, worry etched on her face.

"He didn’t, ok...he didn’t. I just don’t like him. He reminds me of a memory I wish not to ever recall," I replied, bursting out in sob that I have held all the time while in Zade’s house.

"You are crying, Ari," Becca muttered.

"I’ll be good, Becca. Thanks for caring. Whatever happened last night with the drink was just too much, I guess this is the after effect," I replied heading to my room.

"If you need me, you can just call. Besides, have you eaten Ari, you look exhausted I’ll get you something," Becca called out.

I got into my room, locking the door behind me, and sliding down the door, bursting into uncontrollable tears.