Three Alphas, Fated To One, Played By One, But Mated To One-Chapter 52: Out Of Control

Mike’s POV

I had fought wars before. Real ones.

As the future alpha, my training started early and I began joining battles to fight off rogue wolves or enemy packs at a young age.

I have blood on my hands and I have piled bodies at my feet. Made decisions that ended lives before sunrise.

Yet, none of that unsettled me the way she did.

Valerie Jude had become the one variable I couldn’t predict, and that loss of control gnawed at me in ways I wasn’t prepared to admit.

I stood outside her door again tonight. I realize that I have been doing that a lot lately.

But apart from the first day she moved into the room opposite mine, I haven’t dared to step into her room again.

I told myself this was the strategic thing to do to maintain the balance in the pack.

Rumors have been spreading ever since she moved into the main house two weeks ago.

People were talking about how I had a useless mate. Others were saying that the moon goddess doesn’t make mistakes and that there must be something special about Valerie, which was why she was chosen as the alpha’s mate.

I was sandwiches in between and I was almost going crazy. To make matters worse, Innocent was also involved.

Even though Valerie showed no interest in the Luna title, it is hers for now, and that had been taken from Innocent.

I was the one who had given it to her, they took it back after only a few days. But every time I thought of Valerie lying in bed and looking at me like a stranger, my heart felt as if it was being squeezed by a door.

I told myself it was just the mate bond acting up. Innocent was the one I love.

That was what I told myself because the truth was hard to swallow.

I could feel the bond stirring between us every time she got close. Jerry wasn’t making things easier for me because he kept urging me to claim her, to mark her.

But how could I? Letting her stay in the main house was just a temporary measure. I still hated her for her father’s betrayal.

I had trusted him as a teacher, yet he betrayed me. He betrayed the pack that raised him and he was supposed to protect.

Even though he taught me every fighting skill I have, I could never forgive him. Even his death couldn’t erase the hurt.

I had taken out that hatred on his daughter for years and now knowing that she is my mate and I am supposed to love her and protect her, I found that hard to accept.

Yet my body screamed for her touch. It wanted me to do things I haven’t even dared to do to Innocent before.

I spent nearly every night outside her door, pacing up and down, yet, I couldn’t take that one step into her room.

And the fact that Valerie acted completely unaffected by me wasn’t helping.

She had no fear for me, unlike before when she was afraid I would beat her up or send her to the dungeon for punishment.

Back then, I had known my place in her world. In her life. I was a threat to her, and she was an ant I could crash if I wanted. But things had changed.

And she has changed.

Now, she met my eyes without flinching.

The other day I intercepted her wanting to talk and ask why she hadn’t shown up for dinner even after I had specifically told her that she would attend it with me as my mate.

And she had the courage to look straight at me and told me to ’move’.

She told me to move out of the way and what made me mad was that without knowing why, I had obeyed.

I had moved to the side and let her pass.

That realization irritated me more than it should have.

I ran a hand down my face and forced myself away from her door

I had developed a weakness without knowing and Valerie was that weakness.

I don’t even know what to do but I know for sure that an alpha should never have a weakness.

My father has always told me that if I wanted to be a great alpha, I shouldn’t let anyone tie me down. I shouldn’t let myself have a weakness. Even if it is my mate, that is not allowed.

Now, I had let Valerie become a weakness.

This is unacceptable.

I walked outside the pack house to get some air because I needed to think.

I need to think without the scent of my mate clouding my judgement.

The training grounds were empty at this hour.

I shifted into my wolf without ceremony, bones cracking, muscles stretching as I let Jerry take over. The pain cleared my clouded mind. The transformation to wolf always has.

"I want her. She is mine."

That was the first thing Jerry said when he took over. He even attempted to run back to the pack to claim Valerie.

"Try going to her and see if she wants to see you. She hates us and she was never ours. Not in the way you want. Yes, the bond between us is biological and it affects us, but I don’t think she feels the same way." I had to use all my control to prevent Jerry from running back to Valerie and causing trouble.

I also talked to him and explained our situation.

"That is all your fault. You treated her like trash for years and now she doesn’t want us." Jerry complained.

"How was I supposed to know that she is our mate? Besides, I didn’t mean to hurt her so much the last time. It was just an impulse that made me use too much strength in that slap." I defended myself but Jerry wasn’t having any of it.

"You shouldn’t have hit her in the first place. She is our mate yet you hurt her for that whore. I think I am beginning to understand why Valerie doesn’t want us. I wouldn’t want us either."