Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 197: With you, I feel free

Yujun’s POV

A loud and embarrassing squeak slips out of my mouth as Jaehyun holds up the live fish.

"Yah put it back!" I yell and he laughs like it’s the funniest thing ever before he throws the floppy creature back into the water, "it’s just fish" Jaehyun says, still laughing and I throw a small rock at him in frustration.

"I told you I don’t like it!" I growl at him.

He has been teasing me since we arrived here and I have been acting offended, but I’m really not, I’m happy.

I have never felt more comfortable with being myself this much.

"Are you upset?" Jaehyun asks and I turn away from him, walking away and he follows after me saying "look at me, it’s fish", and he sounds like he’s still teasing me.

This goofy, unserious man.

He suddenly lifts me from behind, making me shout as I cling to him, his big hands carefully rest around my belly, and my omega howls with unrestricted joy.

"I can feel you" he says as he seeks out my neck, rubbing his nose into my gland till I am giggling and releasing pheromones for him, my head feels light with how he scents me and kisses the tender spot out here in the open.

Not shy, not concerned about the small boats rowing past us.

"I can feel you too, you’re so happy that it’s dizzying" I say and he chuckles, his warm breath brushing my neck as he does.

"I can’t help but be happy, you are like drug to me too" he says and carries me to another part of the beach, leaving behind our fishing tools and breathing each other in under the warm sun and blue sky.

"Here, let’s stay here" I say and he sets me down on the sand.

The sand is slightly heated, and I melt on it, Jaehyun sits on the floor next to me and lays down to rest his head on my lap with his eyes locked on mine.

"Your feelings are hard to read" he confesses with a crease in his brow.

"Hmm" I hum, already knowing what is in me, what fills my broken mind and what makes my heart ache all the time.

But since our bonding, I feel them crowding me less, Jaehyun’s childlike happiness is contagious and spreads to me, almost swallowing everything up...it’s been less than a day but it already feels divine.

"You’re really sad and it hurts, I want to make it better" he says and shuts his eyes, he looks sad and I rub my fingers between his brows to soothe the worry he’s feeling at the moment, I want to make him feel better too.

"You have done the best at making it better" I say to him, still rubbing his brow and he leans into my touch, growling lowly with satisfaction as he does.

"I can do better" he says and I stay quiet, not wanting to argue with the stubborn man yet, I sigh and feel a lightness in my chest as he opens his eyes again.

His eyes are red, and I know mine are blue, my omega has pushed to the front to connect with the alpha, "look at how you glow" he says with a whisper, he looks like he is adoring me as he says the word.

"I glow?" I ask.

"Brighter than the sun" he responds proudly and I shake my head at him, "I can never take you serious" I say to him, and he bursts into laughter, his large body shaking with the loud sounds, "fine then, I’ll keep saying them till you take me seriously" he says.

And we stay silent again, watching as a white bird flies over our head.

"I never went to the seaside before" I say, just wanting to talk with my alpha...my alpha, it feels good to call him that, with his bite on my neck, it feels real.

"When classmates went on school trips, I would stay back and stay in my room" I say and he keeps looking at me with softness, not saying a word but listening to me with his entire being.

"It was lonely, but I thought myself to get used to it because any outing could expose me, the curse of Choi family" I continue.

"My scent patch might give out, I might forget to use it, I might have to wash with the boys or might slip and show my omega eyes" I say, the things I have been told to keep my identity hidden.

"You don’t have to hide anymore" Jaehyun says and turns his head to rest his face fully on my baby bump.

"The beatings...they were never punishment, always training" I say and pause a bit, "it feels exciting to look in the mirror and not see a new mark, a new bleeding" I continue and the alpha turns again to look at my face.

"And...our Haeri" I whisper and tears fill Jaehyun’s eyes immediately, my heart is pumping with sadness and happiness at the same time.

"I have always dreamt of having a child of mine even before I presented as an omega" I say and smile sadly at him, "finding out that I was pregnant...it felt impossible, like I was being lied to"

"The doctors told me my womb was damaged from the years of illegal birth control pills" I say and the alpha growls loudly, startling me by the unexpected noise.

"I will kill them all" he says, his alpha is the one speaking and I brush my fingers through his hair, "they are still my parents" I say and he whine but doesn’t add anything contrary.

"I’m going to kill that Chan of a man anyways" he says and my heart skips a beat.

"Don’t talk about him" I say and I feel a flash of anger through our bond, "Jaehyun" I say his name in a manner that sounds like scolding.

"Don’t, that man is dangerous" I whisper.

He relaxes on my lap, "I won’t" he says and curses under his breath.

"He..." I say and sigh, not sure if I should tell him everything yet or not...

Should I?