You Think I Won't Talk?-Chapter 68

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’I’m... I’m not planning to kill him..."

"..." — Marianne sent a suspicious silence within our body to my expression, even though I clarified my intentions with it...

Therefore, I explained it with a bit of nervousness since her suspicion made me a bit awkward...

"Gosh! It’s a manner of speech!’

We don’t need to get our hands dirty. All I’m saying is that I will make him pay for what he’s done. Sigh... I just hope she doesn’t really think I’m capable of such things...

I don’t know much about this world, but I do know that wherever one goes there is injustice, more so in medieval society. I will assume, that here, the law is very lacking since the social hierarchy is very strong and men seem to be in power. Therefore, I have no other choice but to take the initiative to bring this ill-nurtured fu**er to his demise by myself.

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Anyway, that time is yet to come. First, I need to be able to talk, and I’m convinced now that it will take some time to do so.

All through my convalescent period, I’ve been struggling a whole lot when I try to hum. The sound that comes out is practically nonexistent. It really pisses me off how much we’ve regressed in our improvement. We are even worse than at the beginning!

’Sigh... The troubles never cease...’

Alright, I’m getting in a bad mood now, so let’s stop.

Today is a great day, so I won’t ruin it with all these nasty thoughts.

Soon, the Duke will come here and Paige will serve us breakfast. After that, I will go to the library and give back the books I had previously borrowed from the four eyes jerk.

’I will get him for giving me a children’s book... but... the other one... I appreciate that one. Ten out of ten.’

Although it took me a while to finish it because of my slow recovery... That book was indeed interesting, as that guy said.

The name of the novel he recommended was "Companions and Peons".

The novel was historical... no, it was just a drama since the period is the one we are in right now.

Anyway, the novel was written with a very refined vocabulary, so it gave the narration a romantic spice. The whole story was about a man of a wealthy and powerful family who, as the title said, had lots of companions and peons surrounding him. However! He couldn’t trust his companions and the peons who served him. Therefore! The man disappears on purpose, only to investigate who would be the ones to betray him and under whose orders. That is when he discovers only one of his peons was truly loyal to him.

Among the five women that were considered his closest, as companions were supposed to be, none was truly on his side. And the peon that looked the most suspicious because of his concealed appearance, ended up being the only one he could trust!

In the end, the peon was a woman! And well... obviously, they fell in love. But there’s more! The woman was the daughter of the mastermind behind all the traitors in his domain! And...... I don’t know what happens next!!!!! The book ends there! Do they have book serialization here??? I don’t think that was implemented in medieval times... weren’t books more theatrical and finished in one volume??...

This is a new one the author is throwing at me... D*rn it...

’I swear... if I go to that library and I don’t find the continuation to this... I will start caring about the original story and actually ruin it on purpose so that this freaking world can go to hell... and I will rip four eyes’ hair off for playing me the wrong way.’

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Marianne is confused again. 𝚏𝗿𝗲𝐞𝐰𝚎𝕓𝐧𝚘𝘃𝗲𝐥.𝐜𝚘𝕞

Yesterday we didn’t have Paul’s round, so our body is not as tense from her fright this morning. Hence, she is paying a bit more attention to the thoughts that materialize more clearly... Those clear enough for her to hear them.

It’s a good thing in a way since it gets her to relax a bit, but it’s also troublesome to elaborate on my reasoning behind the phrases she receives... because even I don’t follow them well.

Also, even if I can explain it... will she get it? She’s not a modern kid who knows her way around the internet, social media and the outside world. She’s a conservative lovely innocent girl who hasn’t been smudged by the craziness modern society can hold and has a restricted notion of the world. How can I dirty such a precious mind with thoughts of a woman who was slaved to all those bizarre videos showing monkeys cutting people’s hair or men enjoying songs like "chocolate" from bab*metal and enjoyed watching celebrities wear meat clothes or those shows about drag queens... how can I explain this to my inexperienced baby red panda?...

’I can’t... Anne, it’s better if you don’t understand... save your mind from my depraved psyche process.’

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’Ugh... uh... what did you even hear? I don’t keep track of what actually reaches you, sweetheart~’

I’m not lying. Even I am confused about it.

’Having our souls separated is so troublesome~... Still, Anne, you know today is the day we go outside right? I’m going to show you my hobby, so you should help me find some good spots~’

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Smoothly changing the topic, I felt a short stop in our body, as if she just flinched at my request.

’... You don’t know your way around here do you?’

The sorry feeling emptying my chest confirmed my deductions.

I don’t even know why I asked her. I just talked about how restricted her world was... she didn’t even know where the library was last time, now that I recall...

This is me being tactless again.

’... Uhm sorry... then! It will be even more fun, Marianne!’

Her attention was picked again and was conveyed with a tiny twinge to my ears. I smirked at how she easily got interested in anything just as fast as a child would. I could imagine her making that expression of a curious puppy with her pretty face. The thought only made me more eager to enhance her anticipation for our little outing.

’We can go around and search ourselves! We will discover new places together and go on new adventures in that big garden you have in this castle!! Oh! You used to look out the window, right? I think that there is even a hidden lake in that forest!! We should go there sometime!....? Uh... What do you think? Doesn’t it sound fun?’

Her excitement was starting to grow very fast as I continued to speak, but when I mentioned the forest her enthusiasm got to a halt.

Maybe something I don’t know about happened there...

It better not be something to do with that g**mless f***** pr**k she has for a brother...

’We... we can go other places too Anne... don’t worry, I’m with you... so I won’t let anything else happen to you... at least I’m working on it, alright? Don’t get depressed~ we will have fun! The days have been so nice lately... we can bath in the sunlight today as I draw. We can ask Paige to prepare some snacks to bring with us and eat there~ hehe... that’s right... I want to feel you being happy, so don’t worry about anything and have fun, my sweet girl~ We just need to concentrate on the good parts, alright?’

Thanks to all my talking, I managed to convince her and she began to grow the anticipation once again. Our body warmed to her energy and, mixing with mine, we felt truly eager and in a great mood for the first time in a while.

It pleased me to feel how the continuous fright she had been showing lately, was finally forgotten. At least for now, I don’t want her to feel anxious about what’s to come, but enjoy what we do now.

Problems will always arise, and I’ve learned that worrying about them brings nothing but mental exhaustion. Even if we think of the past, if all we have to recall are bad memories, we can just forget them and focus on making our present, happy memories to look back at in the future.

She is just like I was back then. That’s why there are many things I can teach her.

I struggled so much to learn them all by myself... but now I am so happy about all those struggles because I can help my girl overcome the things that plague her soul.

To my delight, a new idea came up.

At this time, we were already washed and dressed up. We were only waiting for Marianne’s father to come so we could eat our breakfast together.

Right now we were just chilling on the couch, admiring my portable canvas in a comfy brown dress. I told the Duke about my intention to go outside today, so I just kind of woke up early to prepare...

Though, truthfully, there wasn’t much to prepare since I made the canvas this functional for that very same reason...

I’m just excited.

Yeah, I’m just too eager to go and do as I like with my new toy that’s been seating around in the dust ever since I received it. So, due to that excitement, once I turned to look at the window, the idea just emerged instantly.

’Hmm... Should we take a peek from the window? Let’s decide where to go... Hmm...We do have a bad view...’

As I walked towards it, I watched the view of the outside opening further the closer I got. It wasn’t an ugly sight. On the contrary, it was quite pretty. However, I have seen a bit of the garden and backyard before, and there is a lot more in this manor than the forest we see from here.

’Let’s go the other way today? We should go see the flowers the Duke talked about... it will be a great present for him too... since I promised to give him the first one. Don’t you think so, Anne?’

Even though a cold breeze was stroking my face as I watched from the open window, I felt it lukewarm since my body was warm in anticipation.

... If only every day could be this peaceful...