Eighteen's Bed-Chapter 23.9

"No, it doesn't hurt."

I exhaled deeply, and my stomach contracted sharply. Then the thumb moved again. It seemed like the index finger was the one inserted. The sensation of a lot of slick gel being gathered near the skin by the inserted index finger was vivid. This time, the flesh felt like something was caught and then contracted again. Now, it was a bit stiff and painful below.

"What did you just do?"

"I just tried inserting the thumb too. Does it still not hurt?"

"A bit, it's a bit uncomfortable."

After giving a frank answer, I corrected myself.

"But it's bearable."

"Wait."

Go Yohan straightened up. After looking at my face, he released the pressure on my calves and slipped his hands between my legs, spreading them apart. Damn it. I quickly grabbed the blanket and covered my lower body, precisely just the essential parts.

"You already know everything anyway."

"..."

The pain intensified as I performed this meaningless action. This time, it felt like something was pricking me like a needle. Go Yohan must have spread his fingers. As a slight sting made me furrow my brow, a large hand grabbed the inside of my thigh and pressed softly. Unlike his usual antics, the hand that came in carefully passed over my thigh and gently grabbed the penis hidden under the blanket.

I let go of the blanket and grabbed Go Yohan's hand.

"Don't."

"Why?"

"Just don't."

However, Go Yohan didn't move away but kept stroking lightly with his fingers, dragging out time. Then I felt a momentary release below, and then something hard entered again. In a startled heart, I gripped the hand I had caught tightly.

"What, what did you put in?"

"...Fingers."

The movement was slower and blunter than before, stirring below. Seeing Go Yohan's hesitant response, I realized. This time, it seemed like three fingers weren't moving well inside me. Realizing that three fingers were stirring inside me, I involuntarily tensed up below. Surprisingly, Go Yohan seemed more flustered.

"Your tastes are really unique."

I immediately contradicted him.

"...That's not my taste."

The sound below became increasingly sticky. Flesh and sticky liquid rubbed against each other. Go Yohan let go of my penis, placed his hand on my knee, and chuckled as if amused.

"Alright, I'll trust you."

"It's not about trusting, it's not that."

As I replied with a sudden rise of indignation, the fingers slipped out from below. Go Yohan's finger joints scraped sharply against the thin skin, and I reflexively twitched my hips. Even then, I stiffened my face as if I felt nothing.

"You act so cute."

Go Yohan, grinning mischievously, bit a condom packet with his canine and tore it open with his hand. He then seemed to put on the condom and slightly lifted his body to press his lower body close. While adjusting his position, I saw Go Yohan's penis wobble and hit the blanket. The giant penis caused the blanket to move slightly and wrinkle. Go Yohan then firmly grabbed my thighs and pressed down. My body slid on the blanket and stuck firmly.

Something blunt touched me. Ah. I lifted my hand to pull on the blanket and took a deep breath. The thickness of the heavy presence squeezed through, and a slight dull pain was felt. As something filled inside me, the dull pain grew, and my tailbone started to tingle madly.

I hastily lifted one leg to block Go Yohan's chest.

"Wait, just a moment."

"Ah, please, Jun..."

Even as he spoke, Go Yohan stopped moving. After bowing his head deeply and then lifting it again, Go Yohan clearly looked troubled.

"Just a moment, I'm curious about something."

"Please ask later."

I shook my head. The giggling laughter of Go Yohan had disappeared. Go Yohan, who had been making a scratching noise at his neck, held my thigh tightly. My hand holding the blanket was also sweaty. Finally, Go Yohan, squinting his eyes, said,

"...What is it?"

"I feel like if it's not now, you'll just casually skip over it."

"It was definitely a stalling tactic. Go Yohan was clearly about to force it in without thinking. His mind was a mess, the jerk. I had to somehow relax. I focused on the slight heaviness that had entered, my chest rising and falling.

"Why do so many people know you?"

"Why are you asking that now?"

His tone suggested it was a ridiculous question. Still, he secretly pushed further inside, and I pushed back harder with my foot against his chest. Go Yohan sighed frustratingly.

"These are just people who contact me on their own, and you know I'm not really close with them."

"Some you still meet up with, don't you?"

"They're guys I knew from middle school. Guys from the neighborhood before I moved. It's all because of my dad, not because we're close. And most of them have gone abroad for studies now. Idiots."

Ah. Now that I think about it, it was right when the neighbors went bankrupt and fled that a new family moved in. I relaxed my lower body while thinking of an alibi. Truthfully, half my mind was still focused below. Don't tense up. If you tense up, it'll hurt. I chanted to myself. In that moment, Go Yohan lifted his hips.

"Wait. Don't—!"

I couldn't finish my sentence. A muffled moan escaped. I could distinctly feel the firm head of his penis pushing in without hesitation, finding its place. I twisted my neck and pulled the blanket toward me. However, the blanket that I pulled down proved to be unreliable.

"You, don't, uh, don't put it in, Go."

"Shit... It's going to break."

I felt like I was dying from pain. It felt like my lower part was being sliced with a knife. It was a good thing I could handle pain well. Otherwise, I might have fainted or run away by now.

I lifted my trembling legs with difficulty to block Go Yohan. But my legs, having lost their strength, just flopped down whenever Go Yohan bent over. I breathed heavily, my head tilted back. I could feel his strong hands grabbing and spreading my buttocks. It was like he was forcibly widening the opening.

"You, you mean."

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"Ah... Why again...?"

"When did I, uh, start liking, liking you?"

Even amidst this, all the questions I was curious about managed to surface.

"...From the, the beginning?"

My breath was heavy, making it difficult to speak properly. I deliberately breathed slower, trying to adapt to the dull pain that was becoming more familiar.

At least it wasn't a moan. There's nothing more embarrassing than a man spouting moans indiscriminately. Go Yohan also slightly leaned back, his eyes half-closed. He, too, seemed to be enduring the pain.

"Ah, you."

I felt my lower body drop slightly upon hearing that. It was childish, but I thought, 'Why?' I was sure he would act like this after hearing Kim Minho. I was convinced after seeing the picture. The pain above my belly was more intense than the excruciating pain below. A slight resentment brewed within me.

"Why?"

"...Why, do you ask?"

Go Yohan half-opened one eye and then closed it again.

"The first time I saw you, that's when I took an interest..."

"Huh. What made you interested then?"

"...Jun, please."

"...Tell me."

I demanded firmly, albeit with a whining tone. I desperately pushed Go Yohan away with my foot. His chest was trampled by my foot, and he gripped my thigh tightly, moaning. He leaned over, groaning, and then took a deep breath before continuing.

"Because you're white."

"..."

"Just because you're alone and all white in a damn cafeteria, ah, fuck..."

I must have tightened up unknowingly. I also twisted my waist due to the sudden pain I felt. Before I could move further, Go Yohan pressed down on my thigh, burying himself deeper.

Ah, it hurts. I writhed in pain as if my insides were being pierced.

"Can I put more in? Now... your hole seems to be asking for more."

I felt it myself; below me, it throbbed as if it was chewing on Go Yohan's tip. Each contraction and expansion brought a solid touch that drove me mad. The pain, like being sliced by a knife, was gradually diminishing. I didn't know my body could be so resilient in such situations. Damn it.

I exhaled again and nodded. My head, bent at the neck, rubbed fiercely against the blanket. He advanced again.

My inner walls slowly filled. Focusing on the sensation, I felt my body moving to accommodate the foreign object distinctly. It clung tightly as if trying to remember the filled shape. That pressure made me involuntarily lift my heels. Just when I thought it was stretched to its limit, the hole gripping Go Yohan suddenly tightened. Crazy, I even thought it seemed like it was urging him to come in deeper.

"...Ugh."

A low moan from Go Yohan was heard. He stopped moving forward again. Part of me resented that, so I intentionally tightened more firmly.

"This time, what, uh... damn."

"...Huh... What's next?"

Even though I made pained noises, I couldn't stop asking. My curiosity was boiling over. There was also a bit of resentment for not having fallen for him at first sight.

"So what if you're white?"

As I frowned deeply, Go Yohan, understanding the meaning, opened his mouth.

"You act like you're different, damn it. Annoyingly behaving, emitting a good smell wherever you go, and then, ah..."

"...Uh..."

"Jun, ah. You... are really tight."

As Go Yohan furrowed his brow and exhaled hot breaths, it seemed he was truly in pain. He put his hand near the crease and forcefully spread the opening that was clutching him. I nearly screamed.

"Don't spread it, don't!"

"If I don't, it feels like mine's going to get cut off."

"This isn't a joke, it really hurts... Ah!"

In a rush, Go Yohan fumbled on the bed for the gel. He then sprinkled the cold gel into the tightly clenched juncture, pushing it into the opened gap before gently rotating his hips. I could feel every delicate movement of Go Yohan’s form as it clung to the entrance. As Go Yohan’s hands slipped, the closed gap clamped down hard again on the trapped member. It was not intentional.

I focused all my energy on my feet, which barely had any strength. I tried not to tighten the joint that was biting down on Go Yohan. While sneakily rotating his hips and slowly pushing in, he asked desperately.

"So, did you hate me then?"

"Jun-ah, please, can I just put it in now...?"

"Not yet. Absolutely not."

I shook my head desperately. I might really die. It's too big. Words, not even properly articulated, tumbled out. Tears streamed down my shaking face. Meeting my eyes, Go Yohan bit his lip. The penis that had been sneakily pushing in stopped and just throbbed heavily. Go Yohan’s fingers, slick with gel, touched the opening again.

"Ah. I fucking hated it."

At that, my body relaxed, and more tears flowed. I looked up at Go Yohan, wiping my tears, and asked.

"Why... why?"

"You were never interested in me."

Go Yohan lifted his head to see my face smeared with tears.

A sad, almost artistic shadow fell over his melancholy face. He simply took breaths, seemingly holding something back, his eyes half-closed and panting in a way that was almost provocatively seductive. His detailed eyelashes, now damp with sweat that shimmered on his shoulders, made him look even more intense.

"In the first year, fuck, even when our eyes met, you acted like you didn't know me, like the other kids... You should have talked to me. You fucker, you never talked to me, why didn't you talk? Why! To me! Why in the second year... when we ended up in the same class. Yeah, I thought, 'This guy's got no guts,' so I gave you a chance, tried to play a prank... but you didn't catch on, had no interest in me, were only nice to Han Junwoo, that fucking dog... To me, fuck..."

I was in awe of his body, almost like a piece of art.

Really, I desperately wanted a physique like his. To think his body was begging to be inside mine. The crease that clung to his penis squirmed noticeably. Go Yohan groaned again as he held my knees.

I asked but didn't really listen because my muscles had relaxed too much from being touched. Go Yohan didn't miss that. His hips, which were thrusting inside me, slowly moved. The heavy fullness inside pressed my inner walls in a different direction. I arched my neck and gasped. Because of that, my buttocks lifted slightly. Go Yohan’s hand moved in that gap. He grabbed between my hips and waist so hard it might leave bruises. Holding my slightly lifted body, Go Yohan slowly raised his knees. The bottom filled up more tightly.

"Ah...!"

"That fucker Han Junwoo, it's obvious he's ignoring you... and he has no interest in me, that fucking dog. I really wanted to kill you, you arrogant, annoying bastard, thinking you're nice, only to that fucking Han Junwoo, why can't you notice me, it's too much that you don't even know where I live... Let's see you get screwed..., ugh, it happened, it did."

Why is he forcing it open and coming in again? Now, I couldn't even hear Go Yohan's voice. My question went astray, and words I hadn't asked for just poured out. Go Yohan relentlessly pushed his penis into the gap he had opened. I knew it. I knew he would shove it in mercilessly. The penis pushing inside filled me up and pressed hard on a certain spot.

"Huh...!"

A moan escaped from my clenched mouth.

"That fucking, no-good bastard. You're really a bastard, and while doing that... imagining slamming into you so hard, damn, I'll definitely make you die under me, more than that idiot Han Junwoo, because I am... first I'll be nice, and seduce you... ah, damn it..."

"Ah... ugh..."

"Even if you cry and beg, I won't forgive you, fuck... I'll keep ramming until you're almost dead..."

The pressure of slowly pushing in seemed endless. It felt like my insides were about to burst. The feeling of being completely filled made it hard to breathe. The pain was excruciating as if my organs were thoroughly jumbled up. A sensitive spot somewhere in my inner walls felt overwhelmingly pressed. The hand holding my waist pressed me hard against the bed. A thrilling sensation mixed with trembling reached my toes.

The already dark view became darker. My legs lifted higher, and my waist rose. Go Yohan leaned over me, planting his arms beside my face. As my waist lifted, I could see the joint. Between the blurred vision, I realized that Go Yohan’s part was still not fully inside.

Mad, fuck. I was out of my mind.

"...Half, more... going in."

"No, I don't want...!"

But Go Yohan seemed to be out of his mind too. His eyes met mine without focus. Why had I even asked if he wasn't going to wait for my answer? His body, which had been pressing down on me, rose, and his unrestrained hand swept down my chest. After caressing my skin for a while, he grabbed tightly between my thigh and pelvis. Then, as he breathed heavily in terror, a tremendous pain burst with a crushing feeling.

"Ah, ah!"

I felt like I was going to die. Really going to die. I might die. It hurt too much. It felt like Go Yohan’s part had filled up to just below my throat. I could feel his coarse pubic hair against my thin skin. Then I realized that Go Yohan was entirely inside me.

"Just, just, just a bit..."

My mouth wouldn't close. The heat I felt against my skin down there was driving me mad. I could hear my heart pounding inside. My overly sensitive inner walls felt every bit of the penis it was clinging to. As Go Yohan lifted my legs, the angle jabbed somewhere painful, and I cried. Simultaneously, the pressure that had been piercing my guts slid out. The hole that had been stretched to its limit contracted. With a creaking sound, the firm penis slid out. It had clung so tightly that I could even feel each bulging vein. It's going out, slipping out. I was off guard for a moment as the stifling sensation inside eased.

Go Yohan's part stopped abruptly as it was coming out. Ah. What now? In a dizzy, blurred moment, the draped penis fiercely thrust back in. A slap sound of flesh hitting echoed. I couldn't even finish breathing and just trembled. Go Yohan, swaying his waist, grabbed my thighs again.

"Fuck, it clings so damn..."

After that, we were almost like beasts.

The blunt tip recklessly stirred inside. Some jabs nearly made me scream in pain, while others exploded with intense pleasure that messed with my mind. The former was so painful that I twisted my waist. It was an uncontrollable instinct. It hurt so much. When I slightly lifted my waist, the thick glans pressed down hard on one spot.

"Ah, ugh."

And as it slipped out again, I tried to stop Go Yohan by opening my mouth,

"Just, just a bit, just a little..."

But only managed to utter strange sounds, embarrassingly closing my mouth. Go Yohan’s eyes were unfocused. His waist thrust fiercely as his hand moved up to fondle my chest and body. Especially when he touched my prominently risen nipples, I involuntarily tightened my stomach. The penis buried deep inside contracted as Go Yohan, feeling the tightening, paused for a moment and then moaned. Then he looked down at my dry belly and said,

"You... up to here. Understand?"

He didn’t stop talking while pushing his hips slowly. The flat flesh just below my belly button rose abruptly. The moment I saw that, my lower abdomen twisted and trembled. Only Go Yohan watched that as he slowly pulled out and pushed back in. As the skin moved up, my penis shook once and dropped a single drop of clear fluid. Each piercing sensation caused a torrent to pour out. Each time I saw that scene, my vision grew increasingly blurry.