MTL - My House of Horrors-Chapter 1162 Insight key

"What I want you to do is very simple. If a doctor or nurse comes to round after I leave, you just have to pretend to be sleeping." Zuo Han didn't have any hope for Chen Ge: "Don't say much. In any sentence, no matter what he asks you, you just don’t know."

"It's that simple?"

"Well, wait for me to come back, you remember to open the door for me." Zuo Han lay on the hospital bed, no longer responding to Chen Ge.

Ten minutes later, Zuo Han glanced at Chen Ge, then got up and walked to the door of the ward.

He quietly opened the door to the room, and when he saw that there was no one in the corridor, he slipped out.

"This person is suspicious, and his symptoms are indeed very similar to persecuted delusions." Chen Ge sat up from the bed: "Should I help him?"

You don't need to think hard, Chen Ge has already sensed that Zuo Han's departure tonight is not as simple as visiting the hospital. This is also a temptation for him.

He didn't trust Zuo Han, and Zuo Han didn't completely trust him. In the eyes of the victimized delusionist, the whole world is dangerous and potential enemies.

Maintaining the original posture, Chen Ge sat by the bed for ten minutes, but Zuo Han still did not return.

He looked at the room door that had been staggered, dragged the plastered leg, and walked slowly to the door of the ward.

Opening the door, Chen Ge looked outside. The corridor of the hospital was not completely dark. The corners of the corridor and the nurses' station were all lit.

"It's completely different from what I think of the Chinese hospital. Is that dark and dark midnight hospital really my fantasy?"

Chen Ge can already master a degree now. He will not think deeply about any problems. As long as the past memories are not stimulated, the brain will not have the pain that seems to be torn.

"When I think about what happened during the day, I didn't feel a headache, but when I tried to think about what happened before the coma, the pain would suddenly hit, which is very strange in itself."

"What does the memory of the past mean to me? Why do I feel pain just by thinking about it?"

After taking a large dose of medicine, his body was extremely weak and suffering from pain, but even in this situation, Chen Ge still maintained the ability to think independently.

"To some extent, Zuo Han and I are alike. He thinks everyone in the world is harming him. I think everyone in the world is lying to me. Are we really sick?"

Being so similar to the symptoms of a mental patient is indirectly indicating that you may also be a mental patient.

"I can realize that I may be sick, which shows that I still have a sense of disease. My insight has not diminished... insight?" The three words that popped out inexplicably in his mind made Chen Ge stunned: Why am I so familiar with these three words? This thing seems to be extremely important to me. I need insight, something with insight!"

The pain came like a tide, and Chen Ge seemed to have touched his previous memories again. There were countless fragments of memory in his mind crashing together, and he almost fainted in pain.

Chen Ge firmly grasped the bed rail with both hands and gritted his teeth.

There was blood flowing out of the jaws, but he still made no sound.

"Why am I so impressed with the three words insight?!"

His consciousness began to blur, and if Chen Ge continued to think, it would not only be a headache, he might faint directly.

Taking a deep breath, Chen Ge tried his best to calm himself down. He tried several times according to the breathing method taught by Doctor Gao, and the pain in the brain was finally relieved.

In just a few minutes, Chen Ge's back was wet with cold sweat, and his body became weaker.

"If I faint, will the other me appear? Can I talk to him?"

When Chen Ge was about to return to his bed, footsteps suddenly sounded in the corridor.

"Zuo Han walked without a sound, it should be the caregiver who came over."

Chen Ge still remembered what Zuo Han said. He lay down on the hospital bed and began to pretend to sleep. After about ten seconds, the sound of footsteps stopped at the door of the ward.

With his eyes narrowed, Chen Ge stared at the door. He was not nervous, let alone feeling any uneasy. Only then did he realize that his mental quality was outrageous.

"Boom."

Someone knocked on the door lightly, followed by footsteps, and the people outside the door left.

"What do you mean? Run over at three or four in the morning, knock on the door, and leave? Is this a prank by the nurse?"

The people outside the door did not come in, and this became the point that confuses Chen Ge the most: "Who is knocking on the door? Nurse? Zuo Han? Doctor? Or other patients in the hospital?"

After another while, the door of the ward was pushed open, and the left came in with a cold face.

"went well?"

"This hospital is very large and it is a general hospital. The third ward we are in is only a small part of it." Zuo Han walked to Chen Ge's bed and gestured: "If the hospital is like a pillow, we probably Right in this corner."

"Are you confident to escape?" Chen Ge is more concerned about this. The inexplicable knock on the door just now gave him a sense of urgency. It seems that after staying here for a long time, something worse will happen. .

"No." Zuo Han's answer was very simple: "There is monitoring at the entrance of the corridor. There are three nurses and two nurses in this building who take care of them 24 hours a day. The gate to leave the hospital is also locked. I don't know where the key is. Body."

"Key?" When referring to the key, Chen Ge seemed to have a flash of lightning in his mind, as if a drowning man suddenly grabbed a straw: "I need a key!"

"Yes, without the key, we can't run out at all." Zuo Han felt that Chen Ge's tone was strange. He did not continue to communicate with Chen Ge and returned to his hospital bed.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" Chen Ge found that Zuo Han was still wearing clothes and shoes, lying sideways on the bed, without any intention to sleep.

"I don't want to die in my sleep." Zuo Han closed his eyes, he hid a hand in his arms, his palm seemed to hide something.

Knife? It's not like it. It should be something sharp. He got it from outside?

According to the doctor, Zuo Han is a patient with severe persecutory delusion. Such a dangerous guy is holding an unknown object and being in the same ward with himself. It feels terrifying to think about it.

Reason tells Chen Ge that he should be afraid, but to be honest, there is no wave in his heart.

After changing a comfortable posture, Chen Ge closed his eyes and fell asleep.

...

With the sound of the door opening, Chen Ge slowly opened his eyes, the morning light outside the window shone on him, and he stretched out comfortably.

"This kind of life is pretty good. As long as I don't think back to those bad memories, I look no different from normal people."

Chen Ge turned his head, Zuo Han was still lying on the bed, he didn't seem to fall asleep until dawn.

"It seems that you had a good rest last night." Doctor Gao stood at the door. Instead of looking at Zuo Han, he walked directly to Chen Ge's bed: "Did you have nightmares last night?"

"No." Chen Ge shook his head. The face of Doctor Gao in his mind overlapped with that of Doctor Gao in reality. Perhaps he had seen too much, and the two conflicting memories had a tendency to merge.

There seemed to be a force in his mind that was slowly changing his understanding, allowing him to see the reality clearly, and helping him to get rid of the pain.

"This shows that my treatment is still effective." Dr. Gao was very pleased: "Today I will not let Xu Wan continue to deliver food to you. You have been in the ward for a long time. You should go out and walk around. Rehabilitation is a great help."

"Go for a walk? Can I go to see that paradise?" Chen Ge immediately came to his mind.

Doctor Gao laughed blankly: "Do you want to see the female boss of the haunted house? I'm afraid that won't work. You can only move around in the hospital for the time being."

"Ok."

"I'll get you axillary crutches, wait a moment."

After Dr. Gao went out, Zuo Han, who was in a coma, suddenly woke up. He made a gesture to Chen Ge and whispered, "Don't believe his nonsense."

"Why haven't you slept yet?"

Zuo Han did not speak any more, motionless, as if he was still asleep.

A few minutes later, Doctor Gao returned to the ward with axillary crutches. He helped Chen Ge up and the two walked out together. During the whole process, Doctor Gao didn't say a word to Zuo Han.

I don't know if Doctor Gao is worried about disturbing Zuo Han's sleep, or if there are other reasons.

After breakfast, Chen Ge and Doctor Gao went to the garden outside the ward.

Because I missed the flowering season, there are not many flowers in the garden, but it still feels very comfortable to stay here.

The wind blows through the treetops on his face, like a pair of gentle hands.

Sunlight falls on the ground through the gaps in the leaves, like a swimming goldfish, and the trees on both sides of the road are neatly trimmed, like a peaceful and beautiful green lake.

"Have I not left the ward for a long time?" Chen Ge moved his body a little bit with crutches.

"Why do you say that?"

"It seems that I haven't experienced this kind of relaxing feeling for a long time." Chen Ge touched the tree beside him and found a quiet place to sit down.

"It's not that you haven't experienced it. You are just trapped in an opaque room and forget the feeling." Doctor Gao sat next to Chen Ge. He seemed to like to chat with Chen Ge.

"An opaque room?"

"This opaque room is your heart. You have locked yourself in the bottom of your heart with the key. All I can do is figure out a way to get you out of that room." Doctor Gao looked at the sky, wondering. Something.

"As long as I can get out of this room, will my illness be cured?" Chen Ge asked seriously.

Doctor Gao shook his head: "Mental illness and psychological problems are not the same. Mental illness cannot be self-corrected. You need medication to get you out of the house in your heart. This is just the first step."

"Then how can my disease be completely cured? Actually, I now feel that I am no different from a normal person." Chen Ge leaned against a tree, his eyes slightly blank.

"You did not realize that you were sick, which means that you are still a long way from recovery. The sense of illness and insight are also the basis for us to judge the severity of a patient's condition." Doctor Gao and Chen Ge chatted.

"Insight? What is that?" Chen Ge's hand grabbed the edge of the wooden chair, and he lowered his head, as if to prevent others from seeing his expression at this time.

"Insight is the ability of the patient to recognize his own mental state. See if he can judge whether his mental state is normal or not. Obviously, in your current situation, you have no ability to know."

"But I still feel that I am no different from a normal person, except that I occasionally get headaches." Chen Ge raised his head again, and he clutched his head, seeming to have a headache for a while.

Doctor Gao did not refute Chen Ge. He pointed at a man talking to himself beside the pavilion in the distance.

The man was in his early thirties, wearing a hospital gown, standing under the sun by himself, muttering to himself where the sun could not find in the pavilion.

This person Chen Ge also felt familiar, but couldn't remember the other party's name for a while.

"His name is Zhang Jingjiu. He used to live in a ward with you, but after we discovered that he was living with you, his condition continued to worsen, so we moved him to another ward."

"Zhang Jingjiu?"

"Well, he is the son of the owner of a winery in Xinhai. He is not very old and he has a promising future. Unfortunately, he has a mental problem."

"What's wrong with him?" Chen Ge's expression changed after hearing the name Zhang Jingjiu.

"Undifferentiated schizophrenia." Doctor Gao stared at Zhang Jingjiu, watching his every move: "This patient always feels that he can see ghosts."

"ghost?"

"How can there be ghosts in the world? In fact, we tested his senses and found that his five senses are completely different from ordinary people." Dr. Gao said casually: "He can't concentrate. He always feels that someone is talking around him. It’s the same in a room where he is alone. And his brain has a problem in processing sound. Let me give you a simple example. After a normal person hears a sentence, the brain will think about the expression of the sentence. The meaning of, and he heard one word after another, and all the sentences were fragmented in his mind."

When Doctor Gao was talking with Chen Ge, the patient named Zhang Jingjiu turned his head and saw this place, his eyes widened suddenly, and he rushed over.

When Dr. Gao and Chen Ge did not react, Zhang Jingjiu grabbed Chen Ge’s hand and tried to pull him from the seat, but he ignored Chen Ge’s injured leg. The end result was that Chen Ge was He dragged to the ground.

Without any signs, Chen Ge did not react.

"Carer! Come here!"

Doctor Gao and an patrolling nurse dragged Zhang Jingjiu aside. When he was dragged away, they kept shouting at Chen Ge—Ghost, ghost, ghost!

"Are you okay?" Doctor Gao helped Chen Ge up.

"It's okay, it's okay." Chen Ge sat on the bench again. He felt a little strange. From Zhang Jingjiu's last tone, he could hear that he was afraid of ghosts. Since he was afraid of ghosts, why did he take the initiative to pull himself up? ?

After dragging myself, I yelled ghosts, ghosts, ghosts...

Chen Ge lowered his head and beat his clothes to dust, and staggered his eyes with Doctor Gao.

"He should be reminding me that there are ghosts around me. He thinks Doctor Gao is a ghost."