Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 131: Kisses

Yujun’s POV

There have been a number of awkward and uncomfortable rides, but this one is painful.

The car ride stays silent, but my scent seems to be screaming.

My pheromones is going out of control, going from bitter to sweet and back again.

I don’t know what to feel.

Am I happy? I saw Jaehyun again, I am happy I got to see him.

Am I sad? My little sister is still in that place alone.

Am I upset? All the while I thought Jaehyun abandoned me, I was the one who walked out on him.

Am I hopeful? He said he would call me.

My smell swells again in the car and I lean back into the seat with a tired sigh.

Chan doesn’t speak, neither do I.

I am too exhausted to think of anything properly.

My mind keeps spinning around like a roller-coaster, I am hungry already, I place my hand on my stomach lightly.

I know it has to be my imagination, but I feel a flutter in my stomach; he knows now.

I feel tears well in my eyes.

Jaehyun knows of our pup. I don’t know what to expect of him yet, but I’m worried about him, he doesn’t look too well.

And my father...my father’s threat still hangs over my head, a part of today that I would rather not think about.

’Our pup will be fine’ my omega says fiercely inside me, so loud that it almost sounds like a roar.

I rub up and down my stomach and turn my head slightly to find Chan staring at me with empty eyes.

His eyes on me lack the warmth that he has always looked at me with.

"Is anything wrong?" I ask him.

His face is still swollen with bruises and scars from Jaehyun’s attack on him but the bleeding has stopped.

"I wish you wouldn’t do this to yourself" he says and I blink at him.

"Do what?" I ask him and the warmth returns to his eyes.

"Let him walk back into your life and affect you like this" Chan says and I stiffen.

What is he talking about?

"What?" I ask with a frown, trying to make sense of him.

"He sold you, he no longer should decide for you" he continues and my body relaxes.

I thought he had been referring to Jaehyun, for some reason, my entire being is gearing up to fight for him.

’Love’ my omega says, and I ignore him like I always do.

"He’s my father" I say and I see the way Chan’s jaw tick, his entire expression shows me that he is upset.

"I am the one you’re with now" he says and I blink.

"Your father is the one I’m with" I correct him and it’s his turn to blink before he opens and closes his mouth.

"You’re right" he finally says reluctantly, and I nod my head tersely.

We keep staring at each other silently, I let my eyes drop to trace his face, his eyes, his nose, his lips.

He doesn’t seem to be in pain from the attack on him anymore, and at the same time, it’s obvious that he had played it up.

Jaehyun was rough but I also know Chan should be strong enough to defend himself, strong enough even to hurt Jaehyun...he is a Born alpha after all.

It makes me question a lot of things, makes me rethink our entire position.

"Why did you pretend about the attack?" I ask and he slowly tilts his head, "pretend?" he asks like it’s a foreign word to him.

"You seem very fine to me right now" I say, jutting my jaw towards him and he wears a frown but his eyes flash subtly, like lightning.

I notice because I have seen them before, the gold of his true nature briefly flashing before returning to Hazel.

"A beast likes to feel its victim fears him...don’t you know?" he says.

The words sound plain and simple, just a question, but the implications are far from being plain and simple.

Jaehyun is a beast and he’s a victim.

"He’s not a beast" I say through my teeth and he nods, "I knew you’d defend him" he says.

"I will defend anyone who deserves it" I say to him.

He holds my eyes, and for a few seconds the car is as silent as before and my scent is as unstable as a stormy sea, changing and turning.

I don’t understand the way this man makes me feel.

Do I trust him? Do I fear him? Do I doubt him?

He breaks our eye contact, and his eyes drop to my hands that are rested on my stomach.

"You deserve to be respected" he says softly and turns his face away from me.

The way he says it makes my chest hurt.

No one knows how much Jaehyun respects me. He’s the first person, apart from my sister, to make me feel human.

The nights and days he has risked his life for me, reckless but purposeful.

The way he begged for me to stay, on his knees, sobbing, unashamed but powerful.

Jaehyun is the best thing that has ever happened to me as much as I would hate to admit it.

"I hear you thinking" Chan murmurs.

"Because you know nothing about Jaehyun" that’s all I say to him and the car comes to a stop.

"You can go ahead, I have to attend to something before I leave for work" Chan says but still gets down with me.

I turn to leave but he grabs my elbow to make me pause.

"You know...it was nice to have your attention even if it was for a few seconds" he says softly, his face still turned from me.

"What are you talking about?" I ask and pull my arm away.

"I like you Yujun" he says and before I can respond he adds, "I will make you like me back".

He leans in and presses a kiss to my cheek before walking out.

I stand frozen and my omega recoils, growling and hissing at the unexpected action.

What?